I made it through the bridal shower

Jellybean71514 · March 2014

Hi there- so I attended a bridal shower yesterday and the minute I say down someone congratulated me and it felt like a knife stabbed me in the heart .... I do understand that she just didn't know since it's only been 2 weeks that I lost Joseph so news didn't spread far enough her way- I made it thru the whole shower, did have a few eye welling up moments but no breakdowns - people understood that I did to want to talk about it still some approached me with condolences but that was ok. I can't say I enjoyed myself much but I did feel this was not a bad step forward for me at this time. Not looking to run out into the world but am ok trying to come out of hiding taking baby steps at best - thanks for anyone who have advice and listened last week as I anticipated going to the shower xoxo

dadalou · March 2014

I'm glad it went ok. For me it seems that the anticipation of the event is worse than the event itself.

Jellybean71514 · March 2014

@dadalou‌.... Yes agreed, it certainly was xoxo

jonahsma · March 2014

You have been heavy on my heart, I hope you are feeling well. Leaving your house is a big step and I am proud of you for that, it will get easier for you, but like you said baby steps..((hugs))

schulme2 · March 2014

I'm glad it went well and big props to you for getting out. I didn't really see people for months and even that was difficult. Way to go! That's a big step!

ikrystal · March 2014

Agreed with everyone else - that is a huge step! I know it must have been rough on you, but you made it through. Very proud of you.

Jellybean71514 · March 2014

Thank you so much for your support it means a lot. I'm trying to find a new normal and know some things may not work but I feel for myself I need to try a little each day and be strong for my little guy. xo

JessicaG220 · March 2014

**SIGGY WARNING**

I'm glad you were able to get out and socialize. It's important. Each time you do, it's a small step toward healing. I remember how difficult it was to put a smile on my face while I was crying and heartbroken inside. It felt like I was a shell of my former self. As time has passed, I have been able to more easily put a genuine smile on my face as I enjoy being with family and friends and I can think of my daughter fondly. The pain never goes away, but it will lessen. Hugs to you.

Jellybean71514 · March 2014

Thanks for listening @JessicaG220‌ xoxo

OSUWifey09 · March 2014

***SIGGY***

You are one strong woman - I'm glad you decided to go to the shower and that it went OK. I also agree that the anticipation of the event sometimes is worse than the actual event, and I'm glad that seems to be the case with this shower. You go, girl. **hugs**

Jellybean71514 · March 2014

Thank you @OSUWifey09‌ I also understand you're going thru some additional struggles right now so you hang in there too ... and please reach out if you need to talk or someone to listen *sending you hugs back* xoxo