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A poem I wrote

I wrote this poem one month after my mmc. I don't mind if you share it as long as you please leave my name on it and my dedication to fetey. It has now been 3 months since my m/c and I still miss Fetey every day. 

 Miscarriage by Megan Weber

 My heart is broken, 
I Was planning to be a mom. 
I knew before the words were spoken, 
 That you were gone. 

 I had so many plans for you, 
Though we never got to meet.
 So many things to teach and do. 
All gone, now I feel defeat.

 I worked so hard to create, 
A sweet little life. 
I had so many pills to take, 
And now feel griefand strife. 

 Did i do something wrong?
 Or is my body broken?
 I try to stay strong ,
 But all i feel is outspoken. 

 Why do they say i am strong?
 When I speak of you?
 I think they are so wrong. 
My words are only true. 

 To keep quite i believe, 
Would be a much easier task, 
But then i would deceive, 
And would only be wearing a mask. 

 I feel angry, i feel sad, 
I feel confused and i feel lost. 
I feel i am going mad, 
And i don't know at what cost. 

I am told these feelings are normal, 
And i should cross the bridge. 
I should try to be more formal, 
And not speak of my miscarriage. 

But i am not ashamed, 
What happened was not my fault. 
The mother should never be blamed, 
And all their words should halt. 

To the people who want to help, 
And need something to say, 
Please listen to my yelp, 
And learn something today. 

Because most words do more damage, 
And make the woman feel worse. 
Just say "I'm sorry," if you can manage, 
And stop trying to be my nurse.

 You can never fix my grief, 
And it will never go away. 
You expect it to be brief,
 But I know it will always stay. 

My wounds will one day heal, 
But behind they leave a scar. 
This loss i will always feel, 
And in my mind right now they star.

 I wish i could explain,
 Exactly what i feel. 
I am in so much pain, 
And i can hardly deal. 

 i am trying to move on, 
But i will never forget. 
My first baby is forever gone, 
And i am not okay just yet.

 So when you see me say hello, 
And if i seem sad, or distant,
 Please just hug me and know,
 That this pain is just persistent. 

Please don't try to fix me, 
Just wait for the moment to go, 
Then i will not try to flee, 
And my true friends i will know. 

Say only that you are sorry, 
And ask what you can do, 
And my eyes may look all starry, 
Because i am grateful to you. 

 I have many good friends, 
And family who love, 
 And that helps to mend, 
My heart From up above.

 *For Fetey the first. I will never forget you.* Written January 2014. Fetey the first miscarried Dec 11 2013
-Megan


Started dating Hubby May 17 2005. Married since Aug 20 2011 
Me:30   Hubby:31
TTC since May 2012 
HSG Dec 2012 Fill no spill on left side, right side normal (most physically painful experience of my life..)
Metformin Started May 2013
PG#1: BFP 10-21-13. EDD 6-17-14 mmc 12-9-13 m/c occurred with cytotec on 12-11-13 
PG#2: BFP 07-25-14.  EDD 4-5-15   *Hoping this is my rainbow*
Diagnosed with PCOS, Hypothyroid,IBD/UC, (UC in remission as of July 2014)
*I will always love you Fetey the first.* 
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ALL WELCOME!



Re: A poem I wrote

  • edited March 2014
    Oops the format of the poem was lost... Oh well it still reads the same. I edited it to fix the format a little bit so it looks more like it should now.
    -Megan


    Started dating Hubby May 17 2005. Married since Aug 20 2011 
    Me:30   Hubby:31
    TTC since May 2012 
    HSG Dec 2012 Fill no spill on left side, right side normal (most physically painful experience of my life..)
    Metformin Started May 2013
    PG#1: BFP 10-21-13. EDD 6-17-14 mmc 12-9-13 m/c occurred with cytotec on 12-11-13 
    PG#2: BFP 07-25-14.  EDD 4-5-15   *Hoping this is my rainbow*
    Diagnosed with PCOS, Hypothyroid,IBD/UC, (UC in remission as of July 2014)
    *I will always love you Fetey the first.* 
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    ALL WELCOME!



  • *ticker warning*

    Thank you for sharing with us such a personal piece. I think we all can relate to it.
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    Oct Angel*BFP 1/25/14 * EDD 10/6/14 * US#1 2/26/14 *US#2 3/3/14 no heartbeat*d&c 3/12/14*

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    BackstreetPixie
  • Yes, thank you for sharing something so personal. <3
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