So we had gotten tickets for dinner and a show from the in laws for Christmas and the show was tonight. I knew I was not up for it but couldn't let their money go to waste. I tried to make the most of it but fell apart...an hour in to mama mia. It wasn't even a sentimental song like "I had a dream" it was "super trooper" but it hit me I will never be the same. The same way I look back on certain things in life and label it "before I was married" I will look back on the person I was before this heart stopped beating.
I just looked at my husband with tears rolling down my cheeks and said "we need to go now"
It was just too soon to be around all of that laughter, so many people and a story of youth. I want to hibernate for a month. Who's with me?
Oct Angel*BFP 1/25/14 * EDD 10/6/14 * US#1 2/26/14 *US#2 3/3/14 no heartbeat*d&c 3/12/14*
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