Ugh I hate bedtime. I dread putting the girls to sleep. It is always such a freaking ordeal. I dread it all day long. It's like this nagging anxiety that gets worse and worse as the afternoon progresses. I count down the hours until I'll have to start. As 7pm approaches I get tense and find myself clenching my teeth even before we've started the whole process.
Tonight after putting Haley back to sleep for the third time in an hour, I was holding the paci in my mouth by the handle bc she kept spitting it out and thinking to myself "I hate this I hate this I hate this" and I must've bit down on the paci bc suddenly I felt my front tooth sort of crumble. Now I have a big chip out of my tooth and what looks like a crack running up it.
Re: Bedtime disaster
And I give u so many props for dealing with everything x2!
Hang in there mama! One day at a time I keep telling myself.
Is there anyone that could come over and help you with the last hour or two of the day, so that you could feel a little calmer and not dread it so much? I hate it that you have to deal with such a sense of dread every day...
Eleanor 9.30.13