Hi. I've been lurking this board the last few weeks since I was being monitored for IUGR. They were not going to let me go past 34 weeks, but I had a placental abruption & crash CS yesterday at 30 weeks. The overnight neonatologist is actually retired & moonlighting, and I feel like I can't get any solid factual information from him. He went & found a card to show me based on baby's gestational age & weight he has a 97% chance of survival. Any other questions he said he'd have to look up. He looks about 85, so I'm sure he's up to speed on all the latest. /sarcasm
We thought baby was normal & healthy aside from the IUGR, but now they're concerned about a possible genetic or metabolic disorder. Right now I'm just so angry at the world and this neonatologist and the fact that I drove past a stellar level 3 NICU to deliver at my HMO hospital like I'm supposed to. I know that's the least helpful emotion when dealing with our care staff, and I'm trying to be nice, I swear. Sorry for the rant. Any suggestions for moving beyond regret and being present in my current situation?
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The feelings you are having will come and go in waves. Time (and sometimes counseling) can help you deal with these emotions and other that will emerge during your NICU journey. I hope you get some answers soon. How much does your son weigh, out of curiosity? I'll be thinking of you and your baby boy. Please keep up updated.
Hugs to you and good luck!