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TTC After a Loss
aliciapaige82
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Hi Ladies, New to TTC After a Loss
aliciapaige82
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Hey Ladies,
I wanted to introduce myself to everyone on here, and I hope that I can find the support that I need, as well as be of help to,you as well.
I'm Alicia, 31, of Long Island NY. I'm a textile cad designer who had put my full time-crazy city life on hold, to move back to the burbs, the northshore of Long Island, to have a more simple, low key, low stress life while trying to conceive.
My husband Frank and I have been married for about 6 years, but we wanted to wait to try to conceive once we moved into a private home. We moved into our new home last year. Before that we've been living in the city, in Queens, NY for the past 8 years. Both of us worked crazy hours, my husband is in the NYPD, and I was an junior textile cad designer for a children's home furnishing company in Manhattan.
Finally life was starting to settle down, I took of leave of absence from my career, moved into the new house, and started our family...by adopting and rescuing our beautiful little boston terrier, named Miss Murphy.
My husband and I don't have any children yet, except for our little furry baby girl.
We finally got pregnant last October around Halloween, and then had to receive the terrible news of a miscarriage.
I had a natural miscarriage on December 1st, last year, and was scheduled to have an D&C the morning after...but nature took it's course. It was one of the most horriable experiences I've ever had in my life. It still haunts me.
I got back on track with my first cycle since my miscarriage on Jan 17, 2014.
After that, on Feb 1st, I had my follow up check up with my OB, and despite having 3 fibroids, he gave me clearance to try again.
It's been much too emotional, and scary up until that point to even start to try to conceive again. I then had my 2nd cycle on valentines day.
Since then, i finally got the courage to start over...and I did. But disappointed once again, I got my period two days ago. (3rd cycle since my miscarriage).
It has been most hard on me especially because, I was originally pregnant with BOTH my younger sister, and younger sister in law. This had been an emotional rollarcoaster for my husband and I..but I found hope again through some very close friends and fsmily, who also went through this, and has been there for me.
Each day is a struggle, some worse then others. My sister is expecting her first child, a baby girl. And my sister is expecting her second girl...both of them have the same due date June 22nd. I would have been for early July. I see them getting bigger and bigger, while my life is at a standstill. I love them both dearly. And we check up on eachother, but I feel so alone. And especially since I'm 31, going on 32... I feel the pressure...they are both well under 30.
I apologize if this introduction is very long...I have a lot to tell, and it's been very difficult for me.
I hope to find the support, courage, and strength on here that I desperately need. And I would like to be of help for anyone who needs it too.
Febuary was another unlucky month for me, so maybe with the luck of the Irish, this St. Patty's Day will bring me some luck, hope and happiness.
Also, I'm trying to divert my sadness into my art, into my paintings, drawings for creative release. It seems to help a bit.
I look forward to speaking with all of your ladies, and my love goes out to each and every one of you.
(((Hugs)))) Love. Light. Hope.
P.S. Here is a photo of my beautiful furry baby girl, Miss Murphy. My little lifesaver. 
*Alicia
*Alicia
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Re: Hi Ladies, New to TTC After a Loss
BFP 9/24/13 EDD 6/8/14 no HB at 1st U/S Stopped growing at 7 weeks D&C 11/01/13
TTC #3 since June 2013
BFP #1 7/21/2013--EDD 3/30/14--D&C 9/24/13
BFP #2 1/28/14--MC 2/7/14
IUI #1 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN
IUI #2 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN
IUI #3 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN
4 Losses (2003, 2008, Apr 2012, & Oct 2012)
All RPL and IF testing with multiple REs = normal
5 IUIs = BFN
All AL are welcome
Missed M/C natural cycle 10/2013
DX PCOS 3/2014
2 cycles Clomid 50 mg + Ovidrel + TI
1 cycle Clomid 50 mg + TI - no response stair-stepped to Clomid 75 mg + Ovidrel + TI
1 cycle Clomid 50 mg + Ovidrel + IUI
1 cycle Letrozole 7.5 mg + 150 mg Follistim + Ovidrel + TI
1 cycle Letrozole 7.5 mg + 150 mg Folistim + Ovidrel + IUI
1 cycle Letrozole 7.5 mg + 150 mg Follistim - no response, repeated Letrozole 7.5 mg + 150 mg Follistim + Ovidrel + IUI = success! 12/2014
Beta 1 - 15 dpiui, 324, Beta 2 - 17 dpiui 750. Twins!!
My Blog: pcosandpizza.blogspot.com
DX Endometriosis 2/2002 (lost left tube due to a cyst), PCOS 6/2010
BFP - 10/18/2012, EDD - 6/26/2013, Baby Girl lost at 22 weeks (T21), D&E 2/15/2013
BFP - 4/23/2014, EDD - 1/2/2015 Twin Boys lost at 12 weeks, M/C 6/25/2014
My chart here All ALers welcome!
TTC since March 2012
BFP #1 1/29/13, EDD 10/9/13
BFP #3 8/11/14 EDD 4/22/14
Me: 34, DH: 32
TTC Since September 2012
Dx-PCOS, Anovulation, highly irregular cycles
March 2013 Comid 50 mg+ TI #1: BFN
April 2013 Clomid mg + TI #2: BFN
IVM#1 Aug 2012: BFN
20 FEB 2014: CP
IUI #1 Clomid 100mg 24 FEB 2014: BFN
IUI #2 Clomid 100mg 21 MAR 2014: BFN
IUI#3 Follistim & trigger 21 May 2014: BFN
IVF #1 Follistim & Menopur: 14R, 9M, 7F, transfered 2 day 3 8 cell embies
Beta #1: 7/30: 41 Beta #2 8/1: 96 Beta #3 8/4: 796 EDD:4/9/15
All WelcomeI'm very sorry for your loss! It's such a horrible process and we certainly all have our ups and downs.
I totally understand your concerns - I'm 33 and also worried that time is slipping away. DH and I wanted to finish grad school and establish our careers before we had a family.
Welcome - I do hope your stay here is short. (((Hugs)))
BFP #1: EDD 05/27/2014 (D&C 10/17/2014)
It can be very hard to deal with others happiness when you are dealing with something so devastating. ((HUGS))
Edit- I am on LI too!
MAY '15 DEC. SIGGY CHALLENGE- FAV. CHRISTMAS MOVIE
Dating- 3/1/1999 ~ Married- 10/10/2004
DD#1- Sweet Pea ~ Born on her Due Date 3/1/2007
DD#2- Pumpkin ~ Due 9/29/2010 Arrived 10/1/2010
~ BFP: 6/12/2013 EDD: 2/21/2014 NT Scan: 8/5/2013 (11w3d) MMC D&C: 8/8/2013 ~
~BFP: 3/15/2014 EDD: 11/24/2014 CP 4 weeks 4 days ~
~BFP: 7/2/2014 EDD: 3/15/2015 CP 4 weeks ~
~BFP: 8/31/2014 EDD: 5/10/2015
*All are Welcome*
**BFP#1 9/5/12 EDD 5/15/13 changed to 5/25/13 after u/s, missed mc 10/19/12. D and C 10/22/12**
BFP 4 10/28/19 EDD 7/6/20
On the other hand, my SIL has had two losses within the past six months. I would much prefer to be jealous of her healthy pregnancy than feel all the sadness of her losses.
I hope you find the support here that you need. You are not alone.
BFP #2 6/12/14, DD born 2/21/15
Me 34 DH 31, Together since 2003, Married August 20, 2011, TTC since May 2013
BFP #1 August 24, 2013! MMC discovered Oct. 3, 2013, D&C Oct. 4, 2013
BFP #2 December 17, 2013! MMC discovered Jan. 28, 2014, D&C Jan. 30, 2014
Testing done: male with complete Trisomy 16, not hereditary. Tested me for clotting disorders, all normal.
Feb. 2014 all clear again to TTC! Will start progesterone supplementation with the next BFP just in case. Oct. 2014 more testing just because, thyroid and autoimmune panels = normal. Diagnostic U/S = no abnormalities. Will keep trying for 3-6 more months, doctor still optimistic!
BFP #3 December 11, 2014! Beta #1 14DPO = 122.4 Beta #2 17DPO = 296.8 Please stick little one and be our Rainbow!
Perfect little heartbeat of 156 seen 1/7/15
***Everybody Welcomed***
EDD 8/21/2015 Team Green!
August 2015 Siggy Challenge: Favorite mean girl from a movie or show: Kathy Bates in "Misery"BFP #1: 6/25/09 EDD 2/13/10 @ 6 weeks- Saw HB @ 9 weeks - DS born 2/11/10 (39w5d)
BFP #2: 2/20/13 EDD 11/4/13 - Saw HB 3/19/13 (7w2d) - MMC discovered 4/13/13 (10w5d) - Est. loss @ 9w3d - D&C 4/14/13
BFP #4: 9/10/14 (3w6d) EDD 5/21/15 - natural MC 9/23/14 @ 5w5d
BFP #5: 11/23/14 (3w3d) EDD 8/4/15 - Please be our Rainbow!