@farmboyswife ... totally unrelated, but since I'm on my laptop and not mobile... i'm dying at your sig where it says "quick i hear banjo's, paddle faster!!" ... dying hahahaha
Yes. I may lose my lower lip from biting it so much. I just want to snuggle under a blanket in my sweatpants until this baby decides to emancipate herself from my womb.
I have no lower lip left because I'm constantly chewing it to keep myself from yelling at people. I snapped at work today on some guys trying to say dh will have it so hard when I make him help with night feelings. I yelled very loudly that I will be working full time just like him unlike either of their wives so he has absolutely no sympathy from me and they could shove it up their a$$es! Stupid active duty men not realizing how much crap active duty women have to put up with. Oh and tomorrow if I get one more "no baby" or "you're still here" or "have you tried walking/sex/spicy food" I will probably either throw everything off my bench or simply just cry.
Yep, I have to put my earbuds in almost as soon as I get to work so people can't annoy me, though they still do. Thank God I've only got two days left, or I might be delivering this baby from jail.
My Pregnancy/Parenting BLOG TTC since 5/2011, BFP #1 12/3/11, M/C 12/7/11 @ 4wks 2d. Began seeing RE Sep 2012. October 2012 Metformin 1500 mg= ovulation on CD34 BFP#2 11/14/12 9DPO, EDD 7/26/13, DX Gestational Diabetes @14 wks, our angel born sleeping 3/24/13 @ 22wks 2d. BFP #3 7/4/13 8DPO EDD 3/22/14, DX Gestational Diabetes @14 wks. started insulin @16 wks. Our rainbow, born 3/19/14 @ 39wks 6d., we're so in love!
Back to being on topic... so if you haven't heard from my other posts I am suffering from insane back pain (sciatic plus just lower spinal pressure). I can stand and sit and stuff... but when I start to move I keep getting jolting pains. As a result, I am walking like a fool. I can get around as long as I'm willing to grimace through the pain and if I walk incredibly slowly. That being said, I have acquired a crutch. This crutch is simply a prop. It barely helps with the pain BUT it stops people from staring and thinking i'm in distress/labor. (because otherwise people were constantly coming up to me asking if I needed help)
Ya know what it still doesn't stop? It still doesn't stop nosey people from standing in my way asking me what's wrong with me....
Seriously? Do people not understand what privacy means? If you see someone walking around with a crutch, it's really none of your business. I had one lady ask what happened, and I just replied saying "oh it's no big deal.. it just helps me get around" ... she then followed up "did you fall? does it hurt?" ... I reply, "oh it's no big deal" (shuffling away) .... "have you been using a crutch for long??" .... at this point I just kept going and pretended I didn't hear her. Seriously??
I'm not feeling too stabby, but I have hit some primal hormonal whirlwind stage. Tonight I called MH when he was 10 minutes late leaving class because I was terrified something had happened to him. Yeah, that's not normal for me.
I'm so hateful that I don't even like my self at this point and if one more person says hang in there it's almost over I may just run for the hills screaming!
I've been trying to be on maternity leave but work isn't making that possible. Which makes me very angry. Oh and I peed myself today adding fuel to the anger. I got off the monitor during my NST, thought I had to pee, couldn't, so I stood up from the toilet and what do you know... Baby moved so I could. All over myself. Can't wait for the day to be over!
Officially started TTC January 2012
Dx with PCOS November 2012
2/2013 - First round of Femara - No O
Took 2 months to get vaccinated from the chickenpox
5/2013 - Second round Femara - No O
6/2013 - Third round of Femara + HCG Trigger Shot = O!
7/18/2013 - Found out I was pregnant
Dx with Gestational Diabetes at 28 weeks
Dx with Macrosomia at 33 weeks
Taking Glyburide and Metformin to control GD
Due date is March 29th but we are moving forward with a scheduled C-Section on March 25th
I am going to go nuts! Seriously! I want this baby out so bad! Everything hurts! And if one more person tells me "It's your first, so you probably have more like 3.5 weeks (instead of 1.5)." I might go postal on someone!
Today I Told my mom It was just gonna be hubby and I in delivery room until LO arrives at the hospital... Family can wait outside and meet him when he is born...Got in the biggest fight and SHE is super offended, I may kill her....
I am also so sick of "you're still here? " at work. Um yeah. You ask every day how much longer and so you should know I'm only 37 weeks. And God forbid I say I'm ready and it really could be any day, because then someone has to chime in with how wrong I am. Last night the dr practically had to pull my pants completely off to find this kids head it's so wedged in my pelvis. So don't tell me it doesn't even look like he dropped because I assure you he has! I hate everyone. I cried so hard at the drs that he told me if I didn't take at least today off he was putting me on bed rest for stress, which made me cry harder. So embarrassing!
I wish people would just stop talking to me. I'm an introvert and I much prefer people leaving me the F alone. Just because I'm prego doesn't mean I want to talk to you.
Today I Told my mom It was just gonna be hubby and I in delivery room until LO arrives at the hospital... Family can wait outside and meet him when he is born...Got in the biggest fight and SHE is super offended, I may kill her....
Let her be offended. She's being childish and you know it. It's not about her! Hopefully once your LO arrives she'll forget all about it
For the most part I'm ok but the one thing that is just driving me bonkers is my mom thinks its funny to say that there is a second baby and its a girl hiding behind LO. I know she's trying to be funny but literally its said several times a week for at least the last 20 weeks if not longer. I love my mom dearly and everything she says and does but for some reason this drives me batty!
This is my newest annoying comment today, my SIL, who is preggers with twins, keeps asking me how I feel, she has two teenage children and she is due about 6 weeks after me, she knows EXACTLY how I feel. Stop asking me stupid questions....
I feel like I'm suddenly in the twilight zone, because up until the last week or two, people have pretty much left me alone. Then, bam!!
All of a sudden at work, people keep asking things like, "He still hasn't come out??" No shit, Sherlock! I just turned 38 weeks on Friday, and I have said a million times that there is no reason or indication that he would be early rather than late. Oh, and this gem, "I bet you're ready to be done, huh?" No, I'm not fucking ready to push a bowling ball out of my vagina, stop telling me how I feel.
Plus, honestly, I'm a freaking unicorn and I'm seriously fine, I don't feel bad in any way most of the time. I will say something if I have a problem, I always have, and they know that...so I really don't get it. I am the same person as I was before I was pregnant, only now I have less patience for stupidity. Every single day it's the same people saying things like that. Monday I worked until 9pm, and the next morning I came in at 9am, and as I left that night and as I walked in the next morning, a couple of the same people said something. Seriously?
Yesterday my mom started trying to talk me into telling her about things like dilation and MP and all the gritty details, and my aunt just asked me if we could Skype during labor. What the hell is happening.......!
The most annoying thing are the daily check-ins from family and acquaintances asking if I've had the baby already. PEOPLE. I will let you know when it happens.
Since Cam arrived, I find that I generally like being alone, other than a select special few people. People are obnoxious!!!! One-uppers in particular....don't ask me about the delivery, or anything, just so you can tell me about yours and how much better or worse it was...
I'm also very protective of my little man and don't want anyone else holding him, but I know I need to let them. Today DH's sister and aunt are coming over and I'm absolutely dreading it. Last time his sister came she walked right in (washed her hands, at least!) and picked up my sleeping baby without asking or any regard to him sleeping! Ugh! And his aunt is a disaster. I call her "hurricane deb" and she's loud, obnoxious, and I'm already apologizing to Cam for letting her come over. Dreading it.
Sooooooo, as you can see...it doesn't go away! I know it's on a different level and all you fantastic ladies with inside babies are also dealing with other factors (discomfort!!!), but prepare for it to continue!!!
I've had so many friends tell me they want to be on the list of people I notify when I go into labor. What is this?? It's not a group baby. I'm not thinking about you during any part of this process!
I got a comment at work on the fact that my hair was straightened today and I said, yeah, I have a hot date. "With the doctor?" Wtf? No, dumb butt, I'm going to dinner with my bf. "Ohhhhhh... Are you having some cravings?" No. I just am effing going to dinner like a normal effing person. Not every single thing has to be pregnancy related. I'm still a person, not just a baby incubator. Ugggggggggh.
DH decides today at 38wks that he wants to change LO's middle name. Wouldn't make me so mad except I have been asking him if he wanted to change it since December and he has constantly said no! So at our appt today I mention how I feel like I'm not ready, but at least he'll have a name and he proceeds to tell me he thinks his middle name should be different!! Ugh!!! So frustrating on top of everything else I am just so disappointed by today..
Re: Everyone is annoying me...
My Pregnancy/Parenting BLOG TTC since 5/2011, BFP #1 12/3/11, M/C 12/7/11 @ 4wks 2d. Began seeing RE Sep 2012. October 2012 Metformin 1500 mg= ovulation on CD34 BFP#2 11/14/12 9DPO, EDD 7/26/13, DX Gestational Diabetes @14 wks, our angel born sleeping 3/24/13 @ 22wks 2d. BFP #3 7/4/13 8DPO EDD 3/22/14, DX Gestational Diabetes @14 wks. started insulin @16 wks. Our rainbow, born 3/19/14 @ 39wks 6d., we're so in love!
Ya know what it still doesn't stop? It still doesn't stop nosey people from standing in my way asking me what's wrong with me....
Seriously? Do people not understand what privacy means? If you see someone walking around with a crutch, it's really none of your business. I had one lady ask what happened, and I just replied saying "oh it's no big deal.. it just helps me get around" ... she then followed up "did you fall? does it hurt?" ... I reply, "oh it's no big deal" (shuffling away) .... "have you been using a crutch for long??" .... at this point I just kept going and pretended I didn't hear her. Seriously??
Last night the dr practically had to pull my pants completely off to find this kids head it's so wedged in my pelvis. So don't tell me it doesn't even look like he dropped because I assure you he has!
I hate everyone. I cried so hard at the drs that he told me if I didn't take at least today off he was putting me on bed rest for stress, which made me cry harder. So embarrassing!
Since Cam arrived, I find that I generally like being alone, other than a select special few people. People are obnoxious!!!! One-uppers in particular....don't ask me about the delivery, or anything, just so you can tell me about yours and how much better or worse it was...
I'm also very protective of my little man and don't want anyone else holding him, but I know I need to let them. Today DH's sister and aunt are coming over and I'm absolutely dreading it. Last time his sister came she walked right in (washed her hands, at least!) and picked up my sleeping baby without asking or any regard to him sleeping! Ugh!
And his aunt is a disaster. I call her "hurricane deb" and she's loud, obnoxious, and I'm already apologizing to Cam for letting her come over. Dreading it.
Sooooooo, as you can see...it doesn't go away! I know it's on a different level and all you fantastic ladies with inside babies are also dealing with other factors (discomfort!!!), but prepare for it to continue!!!