Bittersweet - end of our journey

pb_bride · March 2014

DS turns 16m today, and we had our last BFing session yesterday morning. I am SAHM and I EBF. I started slowly weaning him when he was 10m, basically cutting out 1 session every 4-6 weeks. I got my period back in Jan and my supply took a big hit with AF in Feb. DS, on the whole, took the gradual weaning very well. We have been down to single morning session for the past month. I'm due to get my AF now so it just seems like it is the "right" time to stop.

Our BFing journey hasn't been too difficult, and I was fortunate enough to BF him without ever supplementing. He wasn't a fan of bottles so I wasn't able to be away from him for more than a couple of hours at a time, until we were down to just 2-3 sessions a day. I also have had clogged nipple pores for close to a year. When DS was between 4-7m old I was having such frequent clogged ducts that I almost wanted to quit. Eventually I found out that if I peel off the top skin at the clogged pores every morning in the shower, it helps to prevent clogged ducts.

Yesterday morning I knew it was likely to be our last BF session, so I took a good look at him and took several mental pictures of him snuggling right up to me. During the day DS is not a snuggler so I know we will never be this close and connected ever again. DS also loves to play peekaboo with me when BFing which always cracks me up.

This AM we had DH get DS out of bed, change his diaper, then take him downstairs where I had his breakfast ready to go. DS took the transition well and didn't seem to notice anything amiss. On one hand I'm glad the transition went so easy, OTOH, I was a little sad. I have already cried a few times today... just mourning the end of our journey.

If you've made it this far, thanks so much for reading this. Without this board's support, I would have never made it this long My goal was 1 year so every day beyond that was a bonus in my head.

mommatotwo2 · March 2014

I teared up also. Good job momma.

ludali · March 2014

Beautiful write-up, tears! Congrats Momma!

camedowncrushing · March 2014

Congratulations!

nursebride2be · March 2014

I teared up reading this as I am snuggling after bedtime nursing session with my lo. Thanks for sharing!

Misskristal31 · March 2014

I'm crying right now. I know I'm gonna b a mess when it stops. DD#2 is our last planned LO The first one I FF and worked. This one I am now a SAHM and EBF. One part of me can't wait for it to b over, but the other part of me doesn't want it to ever end.