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TTC After a Loss
ikrystal
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Intro
ikrystal
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Hi ladies. I wanted to introduce myself... and I think I belong here now (let me know if I don't). My husband and I tried for two years to get pregnant. Fail, fail, fail. One year of trying the good old fashioned way, and then we found out that I don't ovulate. Four clomid cycles later, no ovulation. On our first IVF cycle, we were blessed with two embryos sticking and strong heartbeats.
We were over the moon. Our baby boys were due May 12, 2014. Then a bout of chorioamnionitis struck at 22.5 weeks. Multiple doctors believe that it was rhe cause of the pre-term labor, and not a result of labor. My boys, Conner and Benjamin, were at the edge of viability. Sort of. Not really. We chose comfort care for them. They were born on January 10, 2014. They were so beautiful. Actually, I don't like that. They ARE so beautiful. They are strong boys. They lived for two hours before they were taken to heaven. I will treasure those moments with them forever. They made me a mother. I am so grateful to have had them for even that long. But I am devastated. They are perfect. They are mine. I still struggle over the fact that I will never bring them home.
My husband and I have eight frozen embryos left. I want to bring home Conner and Benjamin so badly, but that is no longer an option for me. The only thing I can do is try to bring those eight home... in a way, they are Conner and Benjamin's other "twins." We have chosen to move forward. We are starting an FET cycle in April. I am excited to start, and confused as to why I have to do this in the first place. I am supposed to be pregnant until the end of April. What the hell?
I have been posting a lot on the Loss board, but I think that maybe I need to be here too. I hope that I can be a support to everyone here. It's not fair that we are here. This world, a world where babies are just taken from people who want them, doesn't make much sense to me. But I am glad that boards like this exist for everyone.
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Re: Intro
Me 34 DH 31, Together since 2003, Married August 20, 2011, TTC since May 2013
BFP #1 August 24, 2013! MMC discovered Oct. 3, 2013, D&C Oct. 4, 2013
BFP #2 December 17, 2013! MMC discovered Jan. 28, 2014, D&C Jan. 30, 2014
Testing done: male with complete Trisomy 16, not hereditary. Tested me for clotting disorders, all normal.
Feb. 2014 all clear again to TTC! Will start progesterone supplementation with the next BFP just in case. Oct. 2014 more testing just because, thyroid and autoimmune panels = normal. Diagnostic U/S = no abnormalities. Will keep trying for 3-6 more months, doctor still optimistic!
BFP #3 December 11, 2014! Beta #1 14DPO = 122.4 Beta #2 17DPO = 296.8 Please stick little one and be our Rainbow!
Perfect little heartbeat of 156 seen 1/7/15
***Everybody Welcomed***
EDD 8/21/2015 Team Green!
August 2015 Siggy Challenge: Favorite mean girl from a movie or show: Kathy Bates in "Misery"1 miracle Earth baby and 5 Angel babies
~All welcome~
4 Losses (2003, 2008, Apr 2012, & Oct 2012)
All RPL and IF testing with multiple REs = normal
5 IUIs = BFN
All AL are welcome
**BFP#1 9/5/12 EDD 5/15/13 changed to 5/25/13 after u/s, missed mc 10/19/12. D and C 10/22/12**
BFP 4 10/28/19 EDD 7/6/20
DX: Septate Uterus. Septum resection 6/4/13
March 2014: first medicated cycle + iui = BFP!
Missed M/C natural cycle 10/2013
DX PCOS 3/2014
2 cycles Clomid 50 mg + Ovidrel + TI
1 cycle Clomid 50 mg + TI - no response stair-stepped to Clomid 75 mg + Ovidrel + TI
1 cycle Clomid 50 mg + Ovidrel + IUI
1 cycle Letrozole 7.5 mg + 150 mg Follistim + Ovidrel + TI
1 cycle Letrozole 7.5 mg + 150 mg Folistim + Ovidrel + IUI
1 cycle Letrozole 7.5 mg + 150 mg Follistim - no response, repeated Letrozole 7.5 mg + 150 mg Follistim + Ovidrel + IUI = success! 12/2014
Beta 1 - 15 dpiui, 324, Beta 2 - 17 dpiui 750. Twins!!
My Blog: pcosandpizza.blogspot.com
09/2007: Ectopic with rupture - lost right tube | 09/2012: Ectopic - saved the left tube
08/05/2013: BFP not ectopic | EDD: 4/22/2014 | 09/15/2013: Miscarried at home
Burned the bench 01/20/15 - Medicated Cycle with Clomid and HCG trigger shot on 02/08/2015
++++ BFP 2/17/18 ++++ EDD 10/26/2015
BFP #1 8.6.2011 EDD 4.7.2012 DS1 born 3.30.2012
BFP #3 4.30.2014 EDD 1.10.2015 DS2 born 12.31.2014
BFP #1: EDD 05/27/2014 (D&C 10/17/2014)
DX Endometriosis 2/2002 (lost left tube due to a cyst), PCOS 6/2010
BFP - 10/18/2012, EDD - 6/26/2013, Baby Girl lost at 22 weeks (T21), D&E 2/15/2013
BFP - 4/23/2014, EDD - 1/2/2015 Twin Boys lost at 12 weeks, M/C 6/25/2014
My chart here All ALers welcome!
TTC since March 2012
BFP #1 1/29/13, EDD 10/9/13
BFP #3 8/11/14 EDD 4/22/14
TTC #3 since June 2013
BFP #1 7/21/2013--EDD 3/30/14--D&C 9/24/13
BFP #2 1/28/14--MC 2/7/14
IUI #1 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN
IUI #2 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN
IUI #3 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN