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sjn00 · February 2014

How are you ladies doing??

mattanda2011 · February 2014

Hey ladies hope all is well!

I could really use some T&P today, we have had a pretty crazy week on our hands. I think I explained most of it in our last check in, but the main things are that my husbands grandfather passed away on Sunday, my MIL had a lung biopsy on Friday and will get results tomorrow. It is supposed to be nothing, and its just from a spot they found when doing a CT for getting her appendix out, but for some reason I am super anxious about it today and am just ready to know whats going on. I tend to be a worse case scenario type person. She also is the main person who watches DD while I work, so it feels like all of life could end up being up in the air.

I am also waiting my lab results back to see if I have an official diagnosis of Cholistasis of Pregnancy. I had it with my daughter and was induced at 37 weeks. I am anxious to know what the doctors plans are this time around with my symptoms coming on so early.

So yes, any thoughts, prayers, good vibes that you want to send our way we could really use them.

Mztwilson · February 2014

Lots of prayers being sent @mattanda2011

I'm doing ok. Been better been worse kind of week.

TheMrs820 · February 2014

@mattanda2011: sending prayers for you and your family.

PressLove · February 2014

{{{Warm vibes}}}
Plus thoughts and prayers headed your way.

sjn00 · February 2014

((Hugs)) everyone!!

My great aunt is still hanging on... As far as Friday there was a great improvement on her well being.. She was eating again and drinking ensure.. Her sister came to visit and say her goodbyes and my aunt perked up.. I am almost afraid to ask how she is doing now because I love so much the fact that she was doing better. My cousin (her granddaughter) came back home to see her this week from her Rodeos in Texas.. Glad she is able to see her again before she has to leave.

As for me, turns out I have a bacterial infection which was irritating my cervix and causing the bleeding (so they think). I have a day and a half of meds left from 7 days, and hopefully all will be okay.. I Had two days of bleeding every 10/12 hours but today so far nothing. I hope that was the last of it and it stays away. The medcine makes me soooo tired so I have been pretty useless this week trying to let my body rest and get rid of this thing.

My anxiety has been so bad this week. Not sure exactly what is causing it. Maybe a little bit of everything.. Idk =[

tbmadeamistake · February 2014

Sine mom's seizure on Sunday night I've been kind of a mess. Fine if I'm busy but once I stop moving, I start over thinking. She's fine now, and back home. They put her on meds to stop the seizures and are running tests. However, she doesn't remember anything about the weekend that C and I spentvwith them two weeks ago! Tonight on the way home I panicked wondering if she remembered I was pregnant and had myself in tears. I messaged dad and he assured me she knew, so great, but I need to stop freaking out like that.

So now. We wait. On the upside, I gave notice at work. Three more months and I am a stay at home mom. That has taken a load of anxiety off, so yay!

Mom&nurse · February 2014

I've had some issues with my relationship with my SO the last few weeks. I decided to open up to his cousin and only other male friend I can trust.

Asked him to talk to him. I didn't need to know details or a whole he said she said but I think it worked.

He's much more loving and patient with me this week. I'm trying not to go all crazy and become jelious by checking up on him. I plan on making a counseling appointment to get this all out and open and get help.

I know me not being on my anxiety meds makes things worse. I get contractions from my panic attacks and I think it scared him the last time.

I also may have to him I would leave and leave the country so he could not find us. I was royally pissed. He took it seriously. I was just really mad and hurting to I wanted him to hurt with fear. Ok not the adult thing to do but like I said... No meds.

I want to cry all the time. Sometimes for no reason. I'm trying to deal but some days are harder then others. I really do not want the meds. I know they may not affect my child but I would never forgive myself.

My stepmom took antidepressant with my sister and she has an optic nerve not fully developed. Basically she can't see more then her hads length away. Plus with the new warnings about that such thing. I'm scared shitless.

I think I'll try therapy for myself too. Gonna talk to the dr next time I go.

Anyone else really afraid of PPD?

sjn00 · February 2014

Mom&nurse said:

Anyone else really afraid of PPD?

I am pretty sure I am going to get it.. especially since I am having so many problems already being pregnant. I am not really afraid of it.. but maybe because I have already accepted that it will most likely happen.

I do encourage you to talk to someone! it is a GREAT help!!!

mattanda2011 · February 2014

@mom&nurse lots of hugs headed your way!

I am glad to hear that you and SO have been able to get things in a little bit better place. We have been having similar issues (and yes I was the one saying I would leave) but its good to remember how much stress we are under, and even though its obvious to us, I think sometimes SO can be stressed and not really know where its coming from!

nikki0808 · February 2014

Not too much has changed here. Still having dizzy spells and BP issues. Had an appoinment with cardiology on Friday and they wrote me off work until post partum. Basically he said this isn't going to get better and I may end up on a BP med before we are done and to make sure OB is watching closely. I saw OB on Tuesday and they agreed. So... I guess I'm off work. Because of the FMLA stuff I had prior to getting pregnant and then all of this, my 26 weeks ends mid April and then I lose my job. But my boss has been awesome and told me to email her when I'm looking again and if she doesn't have a position she will make one for me.

she's so awesome.

MrsP419 · February 2014

Mom&nurse said:
Anyone else really afraid of PPD?

I am afraid of getting PPD again this time around, though not AS afraid because I have been antidepressants the whole pregnancy. I had PPD with DD and prenatal depression with DS, and both were awful. BUT you CAN get through it with help. There is another side, and treatment is far more common than you would imagine.

I have been having a rough week. Not sure if it is related to my anxiety or just overall normal pregnancy fears and stress. Basically, while I LOVE my babies, I am so so terrified of having twins + a 2 and 4 year old. This pregnancy was not planned, especially getting 2 for 1, and sometimes I just feel like I don't want to have twins. And then I feel guilty and hate myself because of course I want MY twins, and I am grateful for them and excited to meet them…I just did not want to be in this position. with so many kids so close in age, and having two newborns at once. Does that make sense? My big two have kind of caught on to the fact that a twin pregnancy makes it harder for me to enforce rules and discipline (I literally cannot pick up my tantrum-throwing 2 year old and put him in time out), so my already willful toddlers have gotten more disobedient and I feel helpless. I guess the overall sentiment this week has been "how am I going to handle two more? I don't feel like a good mom to the two I already have!" But thankfully my DH is supper supportive, my mom constantly reminds me how much she will be there to help, and my friends are encouraging me that I CAN do this through God's grace. I just need to get over this self-depricating funk where I feel like a total failure as a mom who is incapable of doing anything.

mattanda2011 · February 2014

Thanks for all the T&P, my MIL got her results in and they were basically inconclusive. They are going to have to do surgery this week or next week to take the whole spot out. Honestly it doesn't seem as bad as I expected bad news to be. It sounds like the doctor is really ahead of things and if it's cancer it's literally the soonest it could have been caught and she wouldn't even need chemo or radiation, just the surgery.

I am still waiting to hear from my dr about the lab results. It has officially been a week since I got my blood drawn, so I am hoping to hear today or tomorow.

Mztwilson · February 2014

@mrsp419 I can defiantly see why you feel the way you do. But remember god doesn't give you more then you can handle. Some days will flat out suck but that's with any pregnancy or taking care of a newborn. But you'll be great! And you'll figure it out. I'm only adding 1 more and although I haven't felt quite the same way I know that feeling of will I be able to handle this. Good luck lady!

Mrs_D_in_KY · February 2014

I am feeling okay, which has been my norm lately. I get my weekly progesterone shot on Tuesdays, so I feel fine until about Sunday afternoon.

I've already had lengthy discussions with my OB regarding my potential PPD. My previous OB was a total ass and basically told me when I explained how I was feeling after DS that it was all in my head. Well yes it was I felt like a crazy person! I went to my primary care doctor and he put me on a low dose anti depressant, it helped immensely to get me out of that hole.

I will most likely ask to be put on a low dose anti depressant after this baby arrives. Just to allow me to feel more normal faster.

Mom&nurse · February 2014

I'm so glad to have u ladies and support. Does anyone know if you do get PPD how does that get handled. Is it considered STD? I'm just trying to hope for the best and plan for the worse.

I had a friend who went on STD early but she had bipolar and had to get off meds and then get them regulated again after.

Just wondering.

Mztwilson · February 2014

I would talk to hr. They will know what is and isn't covered. Or atleast should.

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