The other day I went to work. (I sign for deaf students in college classes). The topic of discussion? Death and loss of a loved one. I could barely hold it together. I literally balled my eyes out all the way home, I have an hour and a half commute!
Went to a party last night. Haven't really been out for 3 weeks. Someone said "you look good, have you lost weight". I wanted to crawl under the couch and die. "No I just lost the baby weight from 2 miscarriages back to back!! There were other moments/comments throughout the night that really hurt.
Am I the only one who feels like I take 1 step forward and 10 steps back? I went out to get my mind off things and relax and ended the night crying so hard my eyes were swollen this morning.
And all this is after the dog incident with the family the other day that I posted about.
I feel like just when I start to feel a tiny bit better something happens and I'm right back where I started. I told DH I just feel like I have the shittiest luck.
I'm just so frustrated. Sorry for another vent. I don't have anyone who understands.