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wiggyslilsis
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Our Little Raspberry Born 3/27/12
PPD/PPA Thread
wiggyslilsis
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Hey guys. I haven't seen one of these lately and I could use a vent and know I am not alone in my feelings.
DH and I just booked a trip to Vegas. I should be thrilled and excited but I can't even think about it because I start panicking. So many different things. The money, the flight, the leaving my kiddo behind. I am freaking out.
DH is no help at all. He said everything will be fine and there is no reason to get excited yet anyway. I told him I think I want to call our therapist and he said why? She won't do anything for you. She can't prescribe you anything so why even bother. I told him I just want to see her and that it doesn't have to be meds OR therapy it can be both plus I haven't even seen a psychiatrist yet. He said whatever I think it is a waste of time but do what you want.
Another thing is that I am trying to get DH to go out with his friends. To do something without DD and I and he is resistant. He is driving me crazy because he makes me feel guilty for wanting alone time or time with friends since he doesn't get that luxury (I SAH and he works FT). I feel like if he isn't going to make an effort he can't get pissy when I do.
Anyway, Hugs to everyone that needs them!
DH and I just booked a trip to Vegas. I should be thrilled and excited but I can't even think about it because I start panicking. So many different things. The money, the flight, the leaving my kiddo behind. I am freaking out.
DH is no help at all. He said everything will be fine and there is no reason to get excited yet anyway. I told him I think I want to call our therapist and he said why? She won't do anything for you. She can't prescribe you anything so why even bother. I told him I just want to see her and that it doesn't have to be meds OR therapy it can be both plus I haven't even seen a psychiatrist yet. He said whatever I think it is a waste of time but do what you want.
Another thing is that I am trying to get DH to go out with his friends. To do something without DD and I and he is resistant. He is driving me crazy because he makes me feel guilty for wanting alone time or time with friends since he doesn't get that luxury (I SAH and he works FT). I feel like if he isn't going to make an effort he can't get pissy when I do.
Anyway, Hugs to everyone that needs them!
Our Little Raspberry Born 3/27/12
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Re: PPD/PPA Thread
I have new insurance so I need to see how much it will cost to see her.
Our Little Raspberry Born 3/27/12
My zoloft was increased because I was on a crazy low dose. I was throwing up everyday but we backed down on the dose and then titrated back up.
It's been a few weeks and I can see a huge difference. I'm now feeling much more like my normal mommy self.
I have my follow up appointments this week and am just trying really hard not to forget to take my meds at night.
I forgot last night and night before so had to take it this morning. I will be sick today because of it but I can't risk going back to what I was before the medicine was working.
Hugs to everyone struggling. It's a day by day struggle. I'm feeling better but have to take one day at a time.
I think we are done with two too. We've wanted three but with my difficult pregnancies/deliveries/pp stuff (including ppd)- I am 99% sure we are done.
It's for the best all the way around- I'm just struggling with the thought of no more of our sweet babies.
@lisajay I hope things get better. It must be so tough to keep it together. Wish your husband has a wake-up call soon and is nicer and more understanding. You deserve love and support!
As for me, I'm seeing my doctor this afternoon. The Zoloft helped some but I am constantly nauseous. I lost 4lbs in 2 weeks because food doesn't interest me much anymore.
The anxiety is still there in a physical sense - that feeling in my gut sucks. I have nightmares and have a tough time sleeping. On the upside, my mind is not racing anymore and I do feel better being able to focus. I feel like I have a handle on things. I wish the physical side effects would be gone, but oh, well. I was given something for anxiety, but even when I take half a pill I feel high. I don't want to take it if I'm the only one home with DD. DH didn't like me on it. I was a different person. It was so strange. Like I had this numbness to everything and overwhelming apathy with slow reaction time. It was strange.
Anyhow, my doctor will figure something out. Next week I'm going to see a counselor. We'll see if she'll have some ideas.
Listing our house has been nerve wracking. Can't wait to be done with this stage of our lives.
Sorry for the wall of text...
My MIL suffers from it too and you'd think she'd understand, but she tells me that I put the stress on myself regarding the open house and other issues involving selling the house. That was a very crushing comment for some reason. It's like she's saying that my reasons for being stressed don't matter and I'm making a mountain out of a molehill. I'd love to see how she'd feel if strangers walked through her house opening every closet and criticizing her house. Man, I'm having a tough time today...
I've been better about taking my celexa recently and it has really helped. I was on the verge of a breakdown yesterday but just talked through it to myself in the car and thankfully was able to have a good time out with family and friends. I hate planning things when other groups of people are involved because I feel like I have zero control over the situation.
My GP has also diagnosed me with ADD. He says that it seems like it is something that I have been dealing with my whole life that was never diagnosed. So on top of the Celexa & Klonopin I am taking Ritalin. I haven't noticed a huge difference with it yet but it is a fairly low dose. It is just really nice to have that validation. There is a reason that I have never been able to concentrate on a single damn thing! There is a reason for the racing thoughts. I'm not (completely) insane.
I hope everyone has a great week. Lots of wine for all the moms!
Thanks everybody for the understanding words! I am so sorry we are all going through this but glad that we have each other for support.
I hate how in the days after having a panic attack ((like last night) my anxiety seems amped up and it is so much easier to set me off.
Our Little Raspberry Born 3/27/12
Hugs to everyone.
I am doing okay. It's my birthday today so DH and I are going out to dinner. I am excited aout that. I am always better when I have things to look forward too.
We leave on vacation in April and I am so nervous to leave the kids for that long. I know we need it but I have never been away that long. I am also not good on planes.
This weather needs to get better. It is just so depressing to have the same day over and over again.
Volleyball starts back up Wed. That is such a nice release for me.
My sister's wedding is in June and I am in charge of a lot of stuff. It is nice to have something else to do besides worry about the kids but I know the stress of it all will hit me soon.
Our Little Raspberry Born 3/27/12
My 4 Angel Babies.....
MC#1- 12/2008, MC#2- 05/2009, MC#3 07/2009, MC#4 11/2009
Training to become an IBCLC. BF Questions? Just ask!
I have a lot of guilt over DS1 and DS2 getting hurt/sick this weekend, I don't feel like the best mom right now. I aldo felt guilty for bringing ds2 to daycare, he's 100% allowed to go but probably would have benefitted from another day home with mom...but mom has to work:(
Hugs to everyone having a rough time!
My 4 Angel Babies.....
MC#1- 12/2008, MC#2- 05/2009, MC#3 07/2009, MC#4 11/2009
Training to become an IBCLC. BF Questions? Just ask!
Today is my first day back. I miss my soft pants.
My 4 Angel Babies.....
MC#1- 12/2008, MC#2- 05/2009, MC#3 07/2009, MC#4 11/2009
Training to become an IBCLC. BF Questions? Just ask!
I am at a similar spot with the trip with DH. I finally worked up the nerve to order the tickets (with my mom and DH's encouragement) which was stressful enough dropping that much money all at once on something frivolous. Now I am freaking out. This will be the longest we have been away from DD but that isn't what is getting to me. The fact that we have never been more than a couple hours drive away from her is.
If something happened I wouldn't be able to just easily drop everything and be back immediately. And now I am convinced that she is going to have a seizure or get violently Ill while we are gone. I trust my mom 100% but if something happens I want...no I need to be there for DD.
Our Little Raspberry Born 3/27/12