Everything you have said is so true. It is so hard to describe to someone who hasn't been here. You've been in my thoughts and prayers this week - I hope next week is better. ((hugs))
Me: 32 DH: 33 High School Sweethearts Married 5/28/2005
DS1 born 6/5/10 at 40 weeks via emergency c-section due to fetal distress and IUGR caused by placental insufficiency
DS2 born still 8/28/13 at 32 weeks via emergency c-section due to a complete placental abruption - cause unknown
Baby #3 on the way, EDD 2/29/16. Originally twins, but we said goodbye to Baby B at 8 weeks.
@stefuge I wanted to thank you for making your blog public.. I'm sure it will impact many women who have gone through a loss and thank you for praying for me. I admire your faith in God I draw strength in how strong you are. God is using you girly.. I will continue praying for you and your family... ((big hugs))
I have a lot of the same feelings.
Right now I am so angry I physically feel the need to kick and punch things.
And I hate almost everyone. Baby, or no baby.
Ditto this. I went through the whole crying every day stage and now I'm just pissed off. And I've felt and gone through every single one of those 13 points... sometimes all in one day, and sometimes in phases.
It has been over 2 years for me and while all of those points were exactly how I felt for so very long. I promise you it does get a little easier to just be. Now looking back I have no idea how I survived and how I could be almost 2 years and 5 months further away from when I held her. Hugs to all of you ladies!!!
DS- Brenden born 11/13/93
Missed miscarriage on March 6, 2007 @ 9 weeks D&C on March 8th 2007.
Riley Annalise born 2/25/08 ( 3 weeks early weighing 8 lbs 12.8 oz.)
Chemical pregnancy 3/2010.
Sydney Adriana born sleeping on 9/30/11 weighing 10lbs 3 oz at 38wks 4 days.
Trinity Alivia born via c section at 36 wks 4 days weighing 9 lbs. 5.7 oz. She is our amazing rainbow baby!!!
PGAL buddy drvst8
Re: i wish someone would have told me this...
NTNP 2009-2012 TTC since 2012:
Jack has handpicked his sibling up there
My blog about IF and loss ... Kate's IF Blog
Right now I am so angry I physically feel the need to kick and punch things.
And I hate almost everyone. Baby, or no baby.
NTNP 2009-2012 TTC since 2012:
Jack has handpicked his sibling up there
My blog about IF and loss ... Kate's IF Blog
BFP #1 March 24, 2010; missed m/c May 26, 2010 @ 12w 4d; D&E May 28, 2010
BFP #2 Oct 20, 2010; My little boy was born on July 5, 2011
BFP #3 April 30, 2013; Chemical Pg May 5, 2013
BFP #4 Aug 22, 2013; It's a boy. Loss discovered at 24 weeks on Jan 15, 2014 (cause CMV virus)
We love and miss you Timothy
BFP #5 April 6, 2014; missed m/c May 15, 2014 @ 9 weeks; Misoprostol May 15, 2014; D&C May June 3, 2014
TTC since 10/2010
IUIs # 1-5 = BFFN
IVF # 1(July 2012) = BFN
IVF # 2 (November 2012) = BFP (MIssed MC D&C @ 8w3d on 1/10/13)
I thought the very same thing when it began with me