I went in for my 16 week check up on Thursday and they couldn't find a heartbeat. The ultrasound showed that baby stopped growing at 13 weeks. This was my first pregnancy. My EDD was July 31st.
I had a D&C on Friday. Physically, I feel better than I expected. Emotionally, I'm all over the place. Sometimes I just don't know what to feel. Even though it's not time to TTC again, the thought of another loss frightens me.
We have custody of our 2 year old niece and she keeps me pretty distracted. If she wasn't here I think I would probably stay in bed all day.
I'm so sorry for everyone's losses. I wouldn't wish this pain on anyone.
I'm so sorry for your loss. This was my first pregnancy too and I go for a d&c tomorrow. I'm glad this forum exists though that way I can say whatever is on my mind and you all understand and help me grieve and cope. Husband and I had the same conversation a couple days ago about how I'm so nervous to ttc after this fearing another loss. But he reminded me that if we put such pressure on ourselves about the worst case scenario we will always be afraid. If we weren't afraid, we wouldn't be human. There is always the possibility of it happening again, which I won't lie, would really suck, but our focus has to shift so we can possibly have better times to come, and if not, we will draw near each other again and get through it the same way we are now. He's my best friend through good times and bad and I wouldn't have chosen a better person to go through it with. Sorry so long, but I hope you find peace and comfort beyond your own understanding
Me 34 DH 31, Together since 2003, Married August 20, 2011, TTC since May 2013 BFP #1 August 24, 2013! MMC discovered Oct. 3, 2013, D&C Oct. 4, 2013 BFP #2 December 17, 2013! MMC discovered Jan. 28, 2014, D&C Jan. 30, 2014 Testing done: male with complete Trisomy 16, not hereditary. Tested me for clotting disorders, all normal. Feb. 2014 all clear again to TTC! Will start progesterone supplementation with the next BFP just in case. Oct. 2014 more testing just because, thyroid and autoimmune panels = normal. Diagnostic U/S = no abnormalities. Will keep trying for 3-6 more months, doctor still optimistic!
BFP #3 December 11, 2014! Beta #1 14DPO = 122.4 Beta #2 17DPO = 296.8 Please stick little one and be our Rainbow!
Perfect little heartbeat of 156 seen 1/7/15
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I'm so sorry you're going through all of this. It was my first pregnancy too. I've spent as much time as possible with our nieces and my kids at work as its difficult to focus on much else with them around. Take care of yourself. Hugs.
Re: Intro
Husband and I had the same conversation a couple days ago about how I'm so nervous to ttc after this fearing another loss. But he reminded me that if we put such pressure on ourselves about the worst case scenario we will always be afraid. If we weren't afraid, we wouldn't be human. There is always the possibility of it happening again, which I won't lie, would really suck, but our focus has to shift so we can possibly have better times to come, and if not, we will draw near each other again and get through it the same way we are now. He's my best friend through good times and bad and I wouldn't have chosen a better person to go through it with. Sorry so long, but I hope you find peace and comfort beyond your own understanding
Me 34 DH 31, Together since 2003, Married August 20, 2011, TTC since May 2013
BFP #1 August 24, 2013! MMC discovered Oct. 3, 2013, D&C Oct. 4, 2013
BFP #2 December 17, 2013! MMC discovered Jan. 28, 2014, D&C Jan. 30, 2014
Testing done: male with complete Trisomy 16, not hereditary. Tested me for clotting disorders, all normal.
Feb. 2014 all clear again to TTC! Will start progesterone supplementation with the next BFP just in case. Oct. 2014 more testing just because, thyroid and autoimmune panels = normal. Diagnostic U/S = no abnormalities. Will keep trying for 3-6 more months, doctor still optimistic!
BFP #3 December 11, 2014! Beta #1 14DPO = 122.4 Beta #2 17DPO = 296.8 Please stick little one and be our Rainbow!
Perfect little heartbeat of 156 seen 1/7/15
***Everybody Welcomed***
EDD 8/21/2015 Team Green!
BFP #1 March 24, 2010; missed m/c May 26, 2010 @ 12w 4d; D&E May 28, 2010
BFP #2 Oct 20, 2010; My little boy was born on July 5, 2011
BFP #3 April 30, 2013; Chemical Pg May 5, 2013
BFP #4 Aug 22, 2013; It's a boy. Loss discovered at 24 weeks on Jan 15, 2014 (cause CMV virus)
We love and miss you Timothy
BFP #5 April 6, 2014; missed m/c May 15, 2014 @ 9 weeks; Misoprostol May 15, 2014; D&C May June 3, 2014