Late Term and Child Loss

PgAL Check In

I hope I find you all well and positive this week! If you have any questions you would like answered, please don't be shy! You can also ask the PAL ladies. Grow little ones, grow!

How far along are you?

Do you have any upcoming appointments or milestones?

Any pregnancy symptoms or pregnancy cravings or aversions?

QOTW: How has this pregnancy differed from your previous pregnancy(ies) in the way of cravings/symptoms?

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week?

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Re: PgAL Check In

  • Hi Ladies!! Sorry I've been MIA lately..

    How far along are you?

    26w5d. Hothouse cucumber.

    Do you have any upcoming appointments or milestones?

    I saw my OB yesterday. My induction date has been set for May5!! I have an ultrasound booked for this Monday. Next OB appt is Feb26.

    Any pregnancy symptoms or pregnancy cravings or aversions?

    The last few weeks I have really been craving chocolate. It's a good thing Valentines Day is coming up. DH had better deliver if he knows what's good for him! ;-) I have also started to get really uncomfortable at night. My lower back is always sore by the end of the day and its getting harder to pick up Z and play with him like I usually do.

    QOTW: How has this pregnancy differed from your previous pregnancy(ies) in the way of cravings/symptoms?

    With both my boys, right from the start I had to pee constantly. I would have to get up through the night 5-6 times per night to use the bathroom. With this one I only have to get up once at night to pee. It's been nice. But this time I was WAY sicker and more exhausted during first tri than I was with my boys.

    Open Topic. What is on your mind this week?

    My closest cousin had a 18w loss this week. I am so devastated for her!! When she first told me I just collapsed and couldn't function. I had to call DH home from work. I spent Tuesday night staying up texting her while she was in the hospital waiting to deliver. She gave birth to a baby boy Wednesday morning. I HATE this so much!!! We were so excited to be pregnant together and now I don't know if she will want to see me since I'm still pregnant. I have been crying pretty much non stop the last few days. I hate that she now knows this pain. It's not F'ing fair!!

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  • @Mrs Nice I am so, so, so very sorry to hear about your cousin. I hate when I hear that this has happened to someone else, close or not.

     I was crying this morning because my cousin texted me they couldn't find a heartbeat on the doppler (she is 12w). They found it on ultrasound, but its so scary. She had a previous loss and then we were due 3 days apart with her son and my daughter. I so wish this never happened to anyone.

    How far along are you? 38w 2d

    Do you have any upcoming appointments or milestones? NST again Monday. I do them 2x weekly. 

    Any pregnancy symptoms or pregnancy cravings or aversions? Its not comfortable to sit or lay anywhere. :-)

    QOTW: How has this pregnancy differed from your previous pregnancy(ies) in the way of cravings/symptoms? Oh, just about everything is different. I was sick all first tri with this fella, never threw up once with my daughter. He is very ok with whatever I eat, but she was very into me eating salty foods. The weight gain has been different and in different places. I started wearing maternity clothes at 12w with her, but not until after 20w with him. Everything is different. 

    Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? Hoping to deliver in the next week and a half naturally. At my appointment yesterday we discussed induction. My dr is happy to do it whenever we want it, but in the back of my mind I also know its best for him to stay in a little longer. Its a huge internal struggle. I dont want to go the pitocin route again, so next week we are going to do a cervical check and I will ask they strip the membranes. I want his birth to be different from his sister's. But at 40w I am done. I am just not ok letting him go past that. 
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  • Thank you @Noethola. I want to wish you all the best on your upcoming delivery!! You are so close and I'm so excited for you!! Lots of love and (((HUGS))) sent you way!!!

    PS. Thank you for all your help with the check ins. I really appreciate it!! I going to try to be more diligent now that it is slowing down at work again.
    :-)

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  • Today we're 28w2d. Baby is the size of an eggplant.

    Our 3D u/s and growth scan are coming up on Tuesday. I'm hoping for good news and some great pictures.

    Symptoms: heartburn, SPD, and Braxton Hicks... those were the big ones this week.

    QOTW: both of my losses were at 21wks. I've never made it this far so there isn't much to compare because the beginning of all three of my pregnancies were very similar.

    Open Topic: I'm trying to be more optimistic about this baby especially since we've made it this far... but it's been hard. Also I keep thinking that because we got pg so soon after we lost Lorelei that I didn't have enough time to properly grieve for her... so many emotions!! Then add the hormones:| I feel sorry for dh, one minute I'm talking about starting a registry then the next I'm bawling my eyes out.
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  • How far along are you?  34 weeks 2 days

    Do you have any upcoming appointments or milestones?  Just my 2X weekly NSTs, so far she's passed three of them.

    Any pregnancy symptoms or pregnancy cravings or aversions?  Just been very tired lately.

    QOTW: How has this pregnancy differed from your previous pregnancy(ies) in the way of cravings/symptoms?  I had (and still have) MS with this one, but my hands only get tingly/fall asleep when I'm sleeping whereas last time they were totally numb all the time after 18 weeks. 

    Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? Just mentally preparing for her arrival, I can't believe she's coming so soon.
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     My Pregnancy/Parenting BLOG TTC since 5/2011, BFP #1 12/3/11, M/C 12/7/11 @ 4wks 2d. Began seeing RE Sep 2012. October 2012 Metformin 1500 mg= ovulation on CD34 BFP#2 11/14/12 9DPO, EDD 7/26/13, DX Gestational Diabetes @14 wks, our angel born sleeping 3/24/13 @ 22wks 2d. BFP #3 7/4/13 8DPO EDD 3/22/14, DX Gestational Diabetes @14 wks. started insulin @16 wks.  Our rainbow, born 3/19/14 @ 39wks 6d., we're so in love!

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  • JessicaG220JessicaG220 member
    edited February 2014
    Here we go again... How far along are you? 4w2d Do you have any upcoming appointments or milestones? First appointment on 2/25. Scared out of my mind since we found out at our first appointment during my last pregnancy that it was a blighted ovum. Any pregnancy symptoms or pregnancy cravings or aversions? Nothing yet. Trying not to worry about symptoms or lack thereof. If this pregnancy is anything like it was with Ava, MS should be kicking in at 6 weeks. QOTW: How has this pregnancy differed from your previous pregnancy(ies) in the way of cravings/symptoms? Too early to tell. I hope to be able to compare this time! Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? I'm so terrified that we'll find out again that this pregnancy isn't viable. I worried last time, but I never truly believed anything would go wrong so early. I just want to get through the next couple weeks and see a strong heartbeat at our 6 1/2 week appt! ETA: Please forgive my formatting! Stupid iPad.

    Ava's Story
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  • @jessicag220 Hoping with you that all goes well and this is a sticky baby. T&Ps!
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  • @JessicaG220 Congratulations on your BFP!!! Sending lots of sticky dust your way!!!

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  • @jessicaG220 - congratulations! Wishing you a long and healthy 9 months!
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    Me: 32 DH: 33  High School Sweethearts  Married 5/28/2005
    DS1 born 6/5/10 at 40 weeks via emergency c-section due to fetal distress and IUGR caused by placental insufficiency
    DS2 born still 8/28/13 at 32 weeks via emergency c-section due to a complete placental abruption - cause unknown
    Baby #3 on the way, EDD 2/29/16.  Originally twins, but we said goodbye to Baby B at 8 weeks.
  • JessicaG220 I've been thinking about you so, so much and I'm so happy to see you on this check-in!!  So many prayers with you, DH and this baby!



    How far along are you? Tomorrow (Monday) will be 30 weeks! :)

    Do you have any upcoming appointments or milestones? Still astounded that we're this close!  P17 shots continue for the next 7 weeks, OB this week (never heard anything after my GD test two weeks ago and OB said "no news is good news"...)

    Any pregnancy symptoms or pregnancy cravings or aversions? Still could eat sweets ALL DAY LONG...especially anything with cinnamon!  My whole middle section has started to hurt again - everything must be growing and stretching.

    QOTW: How has this pregnancy differed from your previous pregnancy(ies) in the way of cravings/symptoms?  With the triplets I didn't have any real cravings.  I ate a lot of ice cream because I could (if that makes sense) whereas this time around I really, REALLY want the ice cream!  Symptoms...even though I feel like I was AT LEAST this size (and right now I'm at the weight when I delivered the trips) I feel bigger and have more aches and pains.

    Open Topic. What is on your mind this week?  I'm really enjoying our Hypnobirthing classes.  It's helped so much with my anxiety as our EDD gets closer.  I'm feeling more and more confident that I can deliver this baby with a natural and gentle birth!
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  • @Mrs Nice & @Noethola I am so sorry to hear about your family's losses, Hearing about everyone's loss brings back part of the pain and I think its so hard to deal with because we feel so bad for them and then it brings our own pain back. 

    How far along are you?
    35 weeks (tomorrow)

    Do you have any upcoming appointments or milestones?
    weekly NST's and Dr appointments on Tuesdays

    Any pregnancy symptoms or pregnancy cravings or aversions?
    I want Ice so bad!! I love it! I NEED it all the time lol! I use my ninja and crush it down to look like snow and I just go to town on it! Symptoms- ugh where to start! My bp is getting higher, getting major headaches from the elevated bp, I am getting contractions frequently. I had to go to the hospital and be monitored d/t the bp and contractions. They wanted to keep me from the contractions being so intense on the monitor. I promised up and down that if they became any sort of regular I would come back in asap. I just hate being in that hospital even though its easier. 

    QOTW: How has this pregnancy differed from your previous pregnancy(ies) in the way of cravings/symptoms?
    All I wanted with my Arianna is hot spicy foods. With this lo I can't stomach it. I am carrying different, I was smaller with her (d/t her condition). I am smaller than I was with my oldest ds and oldest dd. I have no energy and I am in so much pain from lo dropping two months ago and all the contractions.  

    Open Topic. What is on your mind this week?
    Please don't hate me for saying this. I feel like lo would be safer in the NICU then in me. I feel like if I go into early labor oh well. I am not wanting to stop it at all. Yes I am uncomfortable and ready to be with a baby in my arms but I am so scarred that something will happen to him in me. My angel passed without warning inside, how am I supposed to know if that wont happen again? at least in the NICU they have monitors to tell if something is wrong. I know deep down that I am crazy and he is safer inside of me, I can not help these feelings though from entering my head. I guess it is PGAL brain. ugh. I even feel bad for typing this. 

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    Isabella Genavieve - 02/03/05 - 7 lbs 11 oz 22 in 
    Arianna Kaitlynn - 04/10/2013 - 4 lbs 15 oz 15 in

    BFP 08/10/13 
    TWINS!!!! 09/01/13
    Miscarriage at 12 weeks lost baby B 
    Arianna diagnosed with an Ompalocele at 13 weeks
    Arianna our Angel on 04/10/13 
    BFP 07/20/13
    Our Rainbow due 03/18/14 


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  • NoetholaNoethola member
    edited February 2014
    cawettig said:
    Open Topic. What is on your mind this week?
    Please don't hate me for saying this. I feel like lo would be safer in the NICU then in me. I feel like if I go into early labor oh well. I am not wanting to stop it at all. Yes I am uncomfortable and ready to be with a baby in my arms but I am so scarred that something will happen to him in me. My angel passed without warning inside, how am I supposed to know if that wont happen again? at least in the NICU they have monitors to tell if something is wrong. I know deep down that I am crazy and he is safer inside of me, I can not help these feelings though from entering my head. I guess it is PGAL brain. ugh. I even feel bad for typing this. 
    I am struggling because my dr has left it up to me whether of not we induce by 40w. Im terrified of him not being "out" and im terrified of him not coming on his own. Its a sick situation to be in, because either way you feel bad. But my dr is also a big supporter of listening to the mother and of her listening to her body. All this to say, Im right there with you. Every day I ask him to come today, while in the back of my mind I know its still a little soon. You can't help but just want to hold your baby in your arms, alive. 
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  • @cawettig - I think what you are feeling is completely normal. I'm not pregnant, but when I think about those last few weeks, if I was, it's understandable to feel like anything could happen and you just want your baby to be born. I don't think you can go through what we have all been through and not have some scarring and this fear of losing another baby. I will be thinking of you - you are so close!
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    Me: 32 DH: 33  High School Sweethearts  Married 5/28/2005
    DS1 born 6/5/10 at 40 weeks via emergency c-section due to fetal distress and IUGR caused by placental insufficiency
    DS2 born still 8/28/13 at 32 weeks via emergency c-section due to a complete placental abruption - cause unknown
    Baby #3 on the way, EDD 2/29/16.  Originally twins, but we said goodbye to Baby B at 8 weeks.
  • thank you @aragosta  @stefuge @Noethola I feel like I am the only one thinking this. I see on our BMB how all these moms get attacked for posting how they want to be induced or do a natural induction somehow. I told DH how I have been missing a lot of my nifedipine and how I feel. He asked me to just keep taking it one to two more weeks. I also talk to him like you do noethola and ask if he could just please come right now. I lurked on the Feb BMB and read a mom's story of how she lost her baby all of a sudden during birth. ugh. I feel for her. Makes me want him out this instant! 

    Julius Justin - 11/07/2002 - 10 lbs 22 in 
    Isabella Genavieve - 02/03/05 - 7 lbs 11 oz 22 in 
    Arianna Kaitlynn - 04/10/2013 - 4 lbs 15 oz 15 in

    BFP 08/10/13 
    TWINS!!!! 09/01/13
    Miscarriage at 12 weeks lost baby B 
    Arianna diagnosed with an Ompalocele at 13 weeks
    Arianna our Angel on 04/10/13 
    BFP 07/20/13
    Our Rainbow due 03/18/14 


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  • NoetholaNoethola member
    edited February 2014
    @cawettig Yes, its so hard to read stories of loss. 

    I hope you are surrounded by good drs too who are willing to really work with you. I know its good for our babies to bake, but at the same time the stress and anxiety we are facing is NOT good for them either. Do what you can, but listen to yourself at the same time. 
    Lilypie - (qptF)


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  • mrsgerman said:
     QOTW: How has this pregnancy differed from your previous pregnancy(ies) in the way of cravings/symptoms? They were pretty much the same so far Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? I've had so many kicks lately I love it. However I have had a hard time feeling it and reminding myself that it's not Joseph. I know that seems weird but it's kind of hard to explain. It's kind if hard to feel this baby kick and remind myself that it's not him. I also was just on vacation and visited the San Diego zoo. I bought this baby a little stuffed giraffe. That's the first purchase made so far this pregnancy. It's again weird to me to be getting something for a completely different baby. It's really been tough for me differentiating the 2 pregnancies. I don't know why. I've also reached a point where I've passed my loss milestone. Sometimes I feel good about it and others I am reminded that I need to be realistic. I get really happy starting to feel somewhat comfortable celebrating this baby but then I get so sad knowing we will never see Joseph again. It's been a strange and difficult emotional struggle.
    I could have written this exact thing myself.  Last night laying in bed feeling this baby kick, I got really sad that I had to tell myself it was was not Stella.  Intellectually, I know this is a different baby, but emotionally being *this* pregnant again brings me right back to how I felt with her.  I agree, it is a struggle.  
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    BFP #1 Jan. 2011 - mmc Mar. 2011 
    BFP #2 Aug. 2011 - My sleeping angel Stella, born April 21, 2012 
    BFP #3 Nov. 2012 - mmc Dec. 2012
    BFP #4 April 2013 - mc May 2013
    BFP #5 Sept. 2013 - EDD 5.24.14
  • I know I haven't posted regularly here this pregnancy, but I hope it's ok that I pop inthis week. I've had to separate myself a little from this board lately because I've been having a hard time pal and being pgal at the same time, especially since this pregnancy was so unexpected. But I wanted to check in and see how everyone was doing and also update.

    In any case, today I'm 15w5d. Baby us the size of an orange.

    No upcoming appointments this week.

    Symptoms are getting better, except that I'm still exhausted and now I have to pee all yes time (contributing to the exhaustion since I'm up five or six times a night).

    This pregnancy had been different them both of my previous pregnancies. I'm not as sick as I was the first time, but sicker than I was last time. I'm WAY more tired this time, But that probably has a lot to do with the fact that I also have a seven month old. I'm so big already... I swear I look like I did at 20w last time. All in all I guess I'm glad it's different.
    I've been thinking a lot about how I'm going to feel when we find out the gender. I have a strong feeling that this it's a boy and I'm terrified that after having a devastating experience with my son and a positive experience with my daughter I'll be in fear for the rest of the pregnancy if it turns out that my suspicions are correct and it's another boy. I know it's silly but I feel like maybe my body just can't make healthy boys. It's an irrational fear but there nonetheless. I don't know. I'll be happy if my baby is healthy and this isn't gender disappointment (I know better than that). More like gender anxiety. Does that make sense?
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  • @lrichmond86 - it's good to see you back here and I'm glad to hear things are going well with your pregnancy! I would say that all of your anxiety about baby's gender sounds very normal! ((Hugs)) and I hope you continue feeling better - MS and the fatigue are the worst!
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    Me: 32 DH: 33  High School Sweethearts  Married 5/28/2005
    DS1 born 6/5/10 at 40 weeks via emergency c-section due to fetal distress and IUGR caused by placental insufficiency
    DS2 born still 8/28/13 at 32 weeks via emergency c-section due to a complete placental abruption - cause unknown
    Baby #3 on the way, EDD 2/29/16.  Originally twins, but we said goodbye to Baby B at 8 weeks.
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