So, we have 3 tries left on IUI with DW before we have to consider other options. So now I'm freaked! Each BFN gets harder and harder for her. We have taken a break since Oct/nov and are getting ready to try next month. We so badly want to join all of you lesbian moms out there!!!
DW really wants 1st baby to be her egg since she is older, but with so many tries I just want a rainbow baby! . Every time I try to talk to her about it she gets really mad and says she feels like a failure. I'm out of ways to try to help her see things from a different perspective. On paper she is the better carrier....better control of weight, normal periods as opposed to me with PCOS and over weight. I'm thinking I have trouble making lining because when I take progest. It takes 2 full doses and cycles of it for me to have a LIGHT period. However when I take the provera...great period and on time. When not on meds, I have a good period every 3-4 months. However this month they were on time! 32 days! Woo hoo
I got so sad on Wed. It had been 8 years to the day since my dad died so I was already emotional. Then I forgot that when we had our 1st BFP on 1st try that ended as preg. Of unknown location, I joined a meet up site for local LGBT families. A lady private messaged me and it came to my email that day saying our kids should be the same age an wanted to get together. It was like getting punched in the gut!
Feeling very scared about the future of our ttc journey and looking for some friends to confide in and help keep my head on straight. Looking for some hope that this isn't impossible for us.