Postpartum Depression

could it be?

Hi ladies.  I'm a little confused here and just wanting some opinions.  My little guy was born in November with bilateral club feet.  We knew this from my 22 week ultrasound.  I felt completely normal up until delivery.  When I saw him for the first time I was overcome with guilt.  I didn't grow very much during pregnancy and blamed myself for not giving him enough room to grow.  During the days that followed I convinced myself it wasn't my fault and we started his treatment.  I love my little guy to death and he is doing great! But I get REALLY anxious about something (else) being wrong with him.  His pediatrician says he's doing fine and his orthopedic doctor says he'll be fine, but I can't help but worry.

For example, a few weeks ago I checked the mail and got an unmarked letter that just read "important" on it.  I didn't think anything of it and filed it away  hoping to return to it later.  I was out and about when I got a sudden feeling that the letter was bad news...that it was from the state saying they had found something in the heel test done soon after birth.  I couldn't shake the thought no matter how hard I tried.  I rushed home only to find it was a stupid credit card offer. 

Fast forward to this week...I was reading one of those weekly developmental updates and my son had met all of them except one.  He hasn't yet reached to grab a toy (he's almost 3 months old).  I worried about his development and played with him for an hour trying to get him to grab a toy.  He started at me like I was crazy.  He'll grab my finger, my hair, my jacket...just not his toy.  I talked to my mom soon after and she says if I continue to worry like this I'm going to make myself sick.  I've never had an previous depression or anything but have always been a nervous person. (My childhood nickname was nervous nelly). I was just wondering if you guys think i should see someone about this? Thanks in advance.  
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Re: could it be?

  • It sounds like you're suffering from anxiety, and it is negatively affecting your daily life. Yes you should see a doctor! This can be treated. Either through therapy or medication or both. You don't have to live like this. If you don't know how to find a doctor, start with your OB, they can refer you. GL!

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  • Yes, I would make an apt to see someone.  It does not mean you're broken...you just need help and that is OK.  
    PPD/PPA Mom...it has been super hard, but I'm making it! Slow steps...
    Mom to Carter (6), and Calianne (1).  
    Proud VBAC, natural birth, breastfeeding, cloth diapering momma!


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