Support Check In-

sjn00 · February 2014

How you ladies doing???

Mztwilson · February 2014

Winter blues are really setting in. I've been in pjs for the last week. I have a dr appt tomorrow and I think it's time to ask about antidepressants

jshrop · February 2014

Things have been good for me (except I'm sick). However, I've noticed my husband is struggling mentally, which has been hard for me to watch and help with.

MrsP419 · February 2014

I am having a great week! Just had a little getaway with the hubby which was very refreshing. I needed that. I had one day where I was just in a funk and not feeling well and it played on my emotionally, but no big deal.

I am starting to get a bit concerned about how I will continue treatment after my twins get here. My therapist is 30 mins away and when my DS was an infant, I just took him. Taking two would be harder, but I don't think I should stop going. I wish she made house calls! Also thinking about asking about going on Welbutrin or something more effective or anxiety in addition to my zoloft after the babies come. The zoloft helps with the Obsessive thinking, but not with anxiety. I will see how that goes.

rainbowdashh · February 2014

I've never posted in this check in, but I think it's time I do. I have a hard time admitting that I'm not okay. Sometimes I feel alright, but I've realized that's only when I'm visiting family every other week and I'm completely distracted. When I'm alone with DD at home, the sadness creeps back. I've gone so long without saying something because I thought I just didn't like being alone and living away from my family (which I don't), but the way I feel just can't be normal. Some days I just cry. Then I look at my beautiful baby and cry more because I feel like I'm being unfair to her. I just don't know what to do. I don't like talking about it because I don't want to come across as whiny or something.

This felt good to get off my chest. It's a start.

tbmadeamistake · February 2014

@ohyealovely, have you talked to anyone IRL about this? It sounds like maybe its time. I would start with your ob and ask for a rec for a good counselor. Sometimes just talking is a huge help!

I've been OK. I feel like we are finally getting somewhere with our financial plan and that lifts a huge weight off my quitting.

rainbowdashh · February 2014

@Lilygrace48 @yellowbird219 I have an appointment on Monday, I'm definitely going to bring it up. Would it be stupid to write down what I'm feeling instead of saying it? I'm not sure I can say it out loud without completely breaking down. I'm much better conveying how I feel through writing. Thank you, ladies.

Also, yellowbird, I'm sorry you're feeling that way.

PressLove · February 2014

@ohyealovely I agree with previous posts. Don't hesitate to ask for assistance. Sometimes we want to be strong for everyone around us. However, you're important, too!!!

@yellowbird219 You have a right to your feelings. Although I knew I was having a girl, I had still hoped it would be a boy. DH kept telling me horror stories that a little girl would grow up to despise me and all girls are daddy's girls. I've decided to make my own destiny. She may be a daddy's girl, but hopefully there will be plenty of love to go around.

I'm great this week. I have finally started to show, so it looks like maternity clothes are in my near future.

tbmadeamistake · February 2014

ohyealovely said:
@Lilygrace48 @yellowbird219 I have an appointment on Monday, I'm definitely going to bring it up. Would it be stupid to write down what I'm feeling instead of saying it? I'm not sure I can say it out loud without completely breaking down. I'm much better conveying how I feel through writing. Thank you, ladies.

Also, yellowbird, I'm sorry you're feeling that way.

Writing it down is fine if that's how you feel you can get your feelings across most clearly. I will tell you that the first time I saw a therapist, I cried so much the first appt I barely even spit out why I was there before the hour was up! Docs are used to it, its healthy to let it out, and even your ob will understand. Good luck!

kellyjayne · February 2014

I haven't ever posted in this thread either...I go back and forth between being ok and not being ok. I'm sure you all have seen me mention it in other threads, but I lost my mom to breast cancer last March. The first few months after were a blur because I was wedding planning, and I married DH in July. After the wedding, the next couple months were really hard because my mind was off wedding planning and I had more time to actually let the fact that my mom was gone sink in. Then, surprise BFP came in October and at first, I was almost depressed about being pregnant, not because I didn't want kids, but because my first thought was "how the hell am I going to do this without my mom".

Over the last few months, things have been better and it feels like this baby is giving my family something happy to focus on. However, the "firsts" are so hard. The holidays were hard. I cried myself to sleep on Thanksgiving and Christmas but otherwise I was fine. My birthday is next week, and my mom used to send me flowers to work every year, and knowing that those aren't coming sends me into breakdown mode. I already know that the anniversary in March is going to be almost more than I can handle, I'm dreading my baby shower, and I have a hard time even thinking about delivery or a birth plan because it already is so far off from what I had planned, without my mom being there.

I feel guilty because I have had such an easy, healthy pregnancy and I feel like I'm not thankful enough because I am too focused on my sadness.

kellyjayne · February 2014

Thank for the support ladies. Most days are ok, it can just get to be overwhelming at times. I have thought about support groups and therapy and would be open to both, but our schedule has been so so hectic lately. Its something I need to make a priority, though.

I will be thinking about everyone else who posted and sending you all thoughts and prayers that you are able to work through your issues.

allrightmeow · February 2014

Im having a hard time with some family and home (remodeling) things but Im trying to not let my stress levels get out of hand.

elsa1688 · February 2014

@kellyjayne big hugs. I lost my mom 4 years ago and it feels so unfair not having her here for my first baby.

I have been doing ok this week. I have been missing my mom and family. The anxiety is still bad. I keep having RLP and acheyness and I keep worrying something is wrong with baby. It's silly but I can't help it.

EmbracingChange · February 2014

I've had 3 paid days off due to the snow. I'm not ready to go back tomorrow our roads are still crap. DD was at the doctors today for an ear infection and DS just woke up crying about his ears so here we go again. We're keeping DS home tomorrow because of it so we won't get a chance to see how the new strategies for his behavior will work. DS. Has his first chiropractic appointment tomorrow. I'm going to keep an open mind while on this "try anything to help him" journey.

Oh and I need to talk to my OB because I'm afraid I may have developed athsma. Just a hunch based on symptoms. Its not one of those easily flung around self diagnoses, I'm no hypochondriac. I've passed out three times in the shower In the past month. I come to when I hit the floor, but never know how I got there. Sometimes I can barely breathe even while just sitting down. Last week I was having a meeting and it was my turn to talk. I got halfway through my thoughts and the next thing I know I can't breathe, couldn't spit out a word, had a huge lump in my throat, had chest pains, and started to panic. I had to stop, excuse myself, and wait to regain my breath. It took about five minutes. I've always slept with my mouth open, but DH says I'm suddenly snoring really loudly. I have an inhaler leftover from whenmimnhad an upper respiratory infection in December. I was showering last night in not too hot water and if DH hadn't run that inhaler in when I called, I would have had a shower incident again.

Mom&nurse · February 2014

I'm new to this and am a little afraid to post. I have very sensitive feelings lately and I have a hard time not taking everything personally. I'm usually the ones helping others but since being pregnant and off all my meds I feel so much less myself. I feel that my world could fall apart any min.

Does anyone else suffer from anxiety or panic attacks ? I can't take my anxiety meds and when it turns into a full blown attack I feel so guilty.

It's worse because I feel like I'm hurting my baby girl. I end up holding my breath a lot to try and stop crying. I know it's not good for her. I hyperventilate and it scares me. I don't know if anyone else has this happen and how do u deal.

Normally my meds kick in and calm me down. I call them my "don't give a fuck pills " because after I take them , I don't give a fuck anymore.

I also feel like I'm getting more attitude from my SO then ever before. It's hard when u feel like you can hardly take care of yourself.

JNerd · February 2014

This isn't a place where I normally post either... I feel like it is very hard and selfish to admit to any problems or struggles. I feel like I have so much to be grateful for that I shouldn't feel low or anxious.
But I do.
Somedays I honestly wonder how I will make it through and my Imagination goes to every possible combination - what if something happens to me? To DS? To dh? What if... Everything/anything. And I get so caught up in these scenarios I can't function.
I also struggle because I feel like I have no control over anything right now. No control over my hormones, my emotions, my body, my cravings, my work (probation sucks!), my schedule. That lack of control drives me insane as I feel like life is happening TO me instead of being something I DO.

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