Dear Diary Saturday???

pettycrocker · February 2014

Well, sorry

#notsorry

pettycrocker · February 2014

Dear Diary,

Fuck you universe for making repeat betas fall ON H's bday AT 7am.

Fuck you clinic for making me an ACTUAL appt, which means NOTHING, because I STILL have to fucking wait in the monitoring line. Seriously ASSHOLES? Stop making me fucking meaningless appts.

My kid has a black eye. - (I know what you're thinking) I didn't give it to her!

Whatever, stupid weekend.

Jen071407 · February 2014

Dear Diary,

Could I PLEASE win the lottery? (Or grow a money tree, get an inheritance, find a bag of cash lying in the road...I'll take it anyway I can get it.) KThanks.

Oh P.S. enough with the spotting already BCP. Clearly I will be one of the lucky ones that spots the entire 5 weeks I'm taking these damn pills. :ar!

Jeffreysmom24 · February 2014

Dear diary, I have a baby shower to attend this afternoon and I don't want to go! It is for one of DH's employees - I have only met her once and wont know anyone there but DH asked her to invite me bc he wanted to get her a good gift since she has been a really good employee. Ugh this is the last thing I feel like doing. I already said I would go but am contemplating backing out which will make DH mad.

annibes · February 2014

Dear Diary,

EFF yesterday. Just EFF it. I had an upper endoscopy to figure out stomach pain. Unfortunately it was at 7DPO and with 2IF there's no simple answer to "is there a possibility that you're pregnant?" before being administered sedatives. "Um, I guess, but no, but I hope, but probably not, but..." Whatever.

And then eff all of the things that come along with an EGD- a bit of nausea, constipation from the Demerol, light headed from the versed, and being tired from being knocked out. Can I please have some issues that can't be misinterpreted as pregnancy symptoms? Because I can't analyze anymore. I cannot. But I can't stop. This psyche sucks ass. Just be over already.

This is a hard month for this board and I hate it for all us. Love you girls.

Jeffreysmom24 · February 2014

Annibes - so sorry you had to have that! I hope that it at least helped them figure out what is causing the stomach pain? Hope you can get some rest and feel better!!

annibes · February 2014

Jeffreysmom24 said:
Annibes - so sorry you had to have that! I hope that it at least helped them figure out what is causing the stomach pain? Hope you can get some rest and feel better!!

Thanks- the sedation part was good, at least. It was a goooood sleep. They found some irritation and took some biopsies to check for ulcers and celiac disease. If I have to for real give up gluten I may crawl in a hole and cry forever. Not eating gluten when I knew I could probably have it again one day was one thing but maybe having to give it up permanently is making me sad.

Jeffreysmom24 · February 2014

annibes said:

Jeffreysmom24 said:
Annibes - so sorry you had to have that! I hope that it at least helped them figure out what is causing the stomach pain? Hope you can get some rest and feel better!!
Thanks- the sedation part was good, at least. It was a goooood sleep. They found some irritation and took some biopsies to check for ulcers and celiac disease. If I have to for real give up gluten I may crawl in a hole and cry forever. Not eating gluten when I knew I could probably have it again one day was one thing but maybe having to give it up permanently is making me sad.

I will keep my fingers crossed for you! Hopefully you won't have to!! That would be so hard!

lcloffredo · February 2014

Dear diary,

I can not hold out any longer and I need to pee on something tomorrow morning. I know it will be negative but I can't sit around for a week and not do anything. (The stress is making my eye twitch.) So to get DH to buy me extra pee sticks at the store (instead of waiting for my cheap ones to arrive in the mail on Tuesday) I had to trade for a "favor" This is terrible, I know. Don't judge, desperate times call for desperate measures!

annibes · February 2014

lcloffredo said:
Dear diary,
I can not hold out any longer and I need to pee on something tomorrow morning. I know it will be negative but I can't sit around for a week and not do anything. (The stress is making my eye twitch.) So to get DH to buy me extra pee sticks at the store (instead of waiting for my cheap ones to arrive in the mail on Tuesday) I had to trade for a "favor" This is terrible, I know. Don't judge, desperate times call for desperate measures!

Calling all pee-a-holics: @lcloffredo and I will be joining together in our insanity and pointlessly peeing on sticks tomorrow. Who is with us??

Jen071407 · February 2014

annibes said:

Dear diary,
I can not hold out any longer and I need to pee on something tomorrow morning. I know it will be negative but I can't sit around for a week and not do anything. (The stress is making my eye twitch.) So to get DH to buy me extra pee sticks at the store (instead of waiting for my cheap ones to arrive in the mail on Tuesday) I had to trade for a "favor" This is terrible, I know. Don't judge, desperate times call for desperate measures!
Calling all pee-a-holics: @lcloffredo and I will be joining together in our insanity and pointlessly peeing on sticks tomorrow. Who is with us??

Doesn't apply to me, but I'm a total pee pusher!!! I want to see some more BFPs!!

KC1212 · February 2014

Wish I could pee with you ladies but I'm benched! Good luck! May the odds be ever in your favor

Happy Peeing!

annibes · February 2014

Everybody pee anyway! Wondfos all around! Embrace the crazy!

pettycrocker · February 2014

annibes said:

Dear diary,
I can not hold out any longer and I need to pee on something tomorrow morning. I know it will be negative but I can't sit around for a week and not do anything. (The stress is making my eye twitch.) So to get DH to buy me extra pee sticks at the store (instead of waiting for my cheap ones to arrive in the mail on Tuesday) I had to trade for a "favor" This is terrible, I know. Don't judge, desperate times call for desperate measures!
Calling all pee-a-holics: @lcloffredo and I will be joining together in our insanity and pointlessly peeing on sticks tomorrow. Who is with us??

I'll be peeing on things for a while [-O<

Good luck ladies!! fx fx fx fx fx

:-SS =D> :bz :bz :-S 8-X >-)

Momarazzi007 · February 2014

@annibes that sucks- but woohoo on the sleep atleast!

DDS,
I keep having dreams about twins- would someone please tell me you got ku'd w twins so I can know who to congratulate? It sure as hell ain't me. Period sucks. Last month light and brown and spotty. This month heavy and red and hubs asked me why I went off when dd walked in on me in restroom and I quipped back that it looked like a freaking crime scene in there. He kind of avoided me after that for a bit. Been clingy to dd, almost in tears about going back to school tomorrow. Have too much drama going on that has nothing or do w babies and my hubs just struck my last nerve. We've been sick w bronchitis and I keep telling him it's going to get worse and then better because he is a few days behind me. He is convinced I'm stupid and is complaining like he is dying and now telling me that his depression is returning which sorry, I have little sympathy only becaus he has been saying This every effing week since he stopped taking his depression meds over the summer. I might piss someone off on here- but I told him that I can't take my ADD meds while we try and do IVF (crack and baby making don't mix- I take my last one this week and everything will get edged up)- that some people could take clomid and get pregnant in a cycle or two and they don't and that is their choice no matter how much it pissed me off- and finished it by telling him that you could take your meds and there is nothing stopping you from taking them so I can't feel bad when you have the easy out. He asked me why I was so mad and I told him, the last four years have been all about him, surgeries and hospital stays and illnesses and injuries and depression- during pregnancy and taking care of dd during c-section recovery when I shouldn't have been up waking around, raising baby and I was just tired of always being the strong one and taking care of everyone and putting me last or not at all. He needed to get his depression in order, man up and put his pride aside because I wasn't blowing my retirement to be too stressed out for any of the cycles to not take while I was stressed about making him better. He got pretty pissed- but after breakfast he got me a heating pad for my cramps and has been playing w dd in floor for the last hour. So maybe it clicked? Idk. I feel bad. I hate being an ass to him, but being nice is just making it worse and is lying to him and I have a lot more than him and infertility on my plate at the moment. So I feel like I had to speak up. Ugh. So we set our appointment up for signing the contract to move forward w IVF for Friday. It seems so far away! Normally I'd be really excited but right now I'mjust sad. Someone please tell me how fast it really is coming? 68 days seems like forever! Thank God for Dear Diary- vent is therapeutic.

pettycrocker · February 2014

lcloffredo

Don't leave us hangin'! I woke up thinking of you both!! Good luck!!

Jeffreysmom24 · February 2014

Momarazzi, I am glad that you spoke up! You are right - it isn't fair that you always have to be the one to take care of everyone. I think it often plays out that way but he is your partner and should help carry the load! Hope you guys get better soon!!

lcloffredo · February 2014

BFN but only 8dpo so hanging on to hope...
My progesterone was 22 4dpo by the way

annibes · February 2014

BFN @ 9dpo. I usually hang onto hope until 10/11 dpo, so we'll see tomorrow!

Jen071407 · February 2014

Fx for better results tomorrow!

Jen071407 · February 2014

@annibes and @lcloffredo any updates??

annibes · February 2014

BFN yesterday, no test today. Spotting, but it's a little strange so if it doesn't become full blown AF tomorrow I'll test again.

sailorgal · February 2014

I realize it's Wednesday but grrrr I need to vent. The flu has been circulating our house and my new RE (who I have an appointment with at the end of the month) called me at 8am yesterday and I ignored the phone because I was dealing with my sick 3 year old and it turns out he was calling to give me someone's cancellation appointment but I missed the call so they moved onto the next person.

I've now added their number to my contacts list so I'll know who it is if they call again!

Momarazzi007 · February 2014

sailorgal that bites!!!! hope everyone starts feeling better soon!

edited bc didn't include text originally

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