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Sigh....

chrissynenachrissynena member
in Secondary IF
I'm feeling emotionally drained tonight. I am 13dpiui and still getting BFN. Hoping still it could turn + any day now, but realizing I have to be realistic. Our next cycle will be a FET, with our last 3 embryos, which scares me to death. If that doesn't work out, we are out of the game for at least 3 years. At least. H and I sat down with our monthly budget tonight, as we are pinching every penny possible and it's still not enough. We even looked into cashing out my 401k to help with our debt, (we were 100% OOP with our fresh cycle) but it's not an option with my current company plan. It's so depressing!! Sorry for no paragraph breaks, I'm mobile. Thanks for letting me vent!!

TTC for 1.5 years with a crappy RE. 12 cycles with clomid (11 too many)
New RE, 3 failed IUI's moving to IVF with ICSI
IVF#1 BFP EDD 1/10/13
Beta#1 51  Beta #2 148
A/S 8/20/13 Team Pink
Induced week 39 due to severe GD
Baby girl born 1/4/13

       TTC #2 2 failed IUI's moving on to FET 3/2014
ET 3/25 
Beta #1 127
Beta #2 845
U/s 4/22 It's TWINS!!
Team Purple!!

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  • annibesannibes member
    I'm so sorry that everything is up in the air right now! Fingers crossed for a BFP tomorrow!
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  • bcw2009bcw2009 member
    So sorry!  Still hoping for the best for you!!
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  • Jen071407Jen071407 member
    Ugh I'm so sorry. Huge ((hugs)). Fx for a late implanter.

    Two DDs 10/08 and 08/10, no primary IF
    TTC #3 since 10/2011 - dx unexplained/weak ovulation
     3 BFN clomid + TI cycles, 5 BFN clomid/gonal f IUIs, 1 mmc IUI
    2/19/2014 IVF #1 Unexpected low E2 (oversuppressed) -> increased to max doses = 3 or 4 follicles, converting to IUI
    BFFP Saw 1 beautiful heartbeat at 6w6d, follow up u/s at 9w showed mmc. Eff this.
    NTNP 5/2014-9/2014, OPKs and TI 10/2014 - 1/2015. 
    RPL testing all normal, AFC, AMH, and FSH all normal. 
    IVF 1.2 1/22/2014 natural cycle start, AFC 28, 300 gonal f/150menopur. 
    ER 2/3/15 14R 8M 3F w/ICSI Day 5 transfer on 2/8/15 of one "Grade A+" blast and have TWO frosties! 

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  • lcloffredolcloffredo member
    I'm sorry, I'll be keeping my fingers crossed for an upcoming BFP in the next few days.
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  • GraceyandTroyGraceyandTroy member
    I'm sorry.  This sucks.  Hope you see two lines tomorrow and the FET isn't even necessary.  
    Happily Mrs. C 
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    start ttc #1 in Jan 2009
    dx PCOS in May 2010, begin metformin
    Two failed clomid cycles (made lining too thin)
    Started acupuncture while saving for IVF in Sept 2011
    Add herbal infusions to the mix in Dec 2011
    Hoping holistic approach works!!!

    BFP on April 2012 at 11dpo
    Meepy Man born on Jan 2013 - Hip Hip Hurray!

    Ready to start ttc #2 April 2013, but plan to be an extended BF'er
    Back on metformin Aug 2013
    Restart herbal infusions Sept 2013 - currently drinking nettle, oatstraw, and red raspberry leaf
    DS weaned in April 2014
    Taking a break from herbs and just riding the healthy train.  
    Planning medicated cycle end of summer.  FX I get KU before then!!!
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  • cerad5cerad5 member

    I am so sorry. IF sucks, but don't lose hope. Both of my BFPs were after 13 DPO. You might just have a slow poke in there :)

    DD 12/1/2009
    TTC#2 Since May 2012
    Dx PCOS February 2013 on Metformin 1500 mg
    Met with RE October 2013, we've got a plan!
    Surprise BFP on "break cycle" 10/12/13. EDD 6/17/14.
    MMC discovered 11/25/13 at 10 weeks. D&C 11/27/13.
    BFP 2/8/14 Beta#1: 176, Prog 18! Beta#2:335, Prog, 19.5!
    EDD 10/16/2014

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  • designer303designer303 member
    I'm so sorry, sending hugs your way and hoping for a positive soon :)

    TTC#1 May 2009- July 2010 on our own with no luck

    Started with RE in August 2010, dx with unexplained IF and then finally our 3rd IUI cycle using Follistim and Trigger resulted in our wonderful little man.  Born 12/2/11

    TTC#2 Never really prevented, but were careful early on as Dr. reccomended

    Surprise BFP 12/16/13, started progesterone immediately as first numbers came back low, but betas were good.  Progesterone wasnt enough. Natural MC 12/24/13.

    Back with RE as of January 2014...

    5/27/14- Chemical Pregnancy :(

    April 2015 IVF#1

    5/13/15- BFP, please stick LO!

    Oh and I'm a major Harry Potter Nerd :)

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  • chrissynenachrissynena member
    Thank you so much ladies. Tested negative again this morning. My RE's office said not to home test until 16dpiui (which is Wednesday) so maybe then. I appreciate everyone's support. IF sucks!

    TTC for 1.5 years with a crappy RE. 12 cycles with clomid (11 too many)
    New RE, 3 failed IUI's moving to IVF with ICSI
    IVF#1 BFP EDD 1/10/13
    Beta#1 51  Beta #2 148
    A/S 8/20/13 Team Pink
    Induced week 39 due to severe GD
    Baby girl born 1/4/13

           TTC #2 2 failed IUI's moving on to FET 3/2014
    ET 3/25 
    Beta #1 127
    Beta #2 845
    U/s 4/22 It's TWINS!!
    Team Purple!!

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  • KC1212KC1212 member
    I just wanted to say how sorry I am. I was rooting for ya! (Hugs).
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    Me: 27 DH: 33
    Married 6 years
    Conceived DS after 4 years of MFI

    TTC # 2 (not trying,not preventing ever)
    May 2013 - August 2013 Timed Intercourse = BFN
    September 2013 Timed Intercourse, Weekly Acupuncture, Herbs=BFN
    October 2013 Timed Intercourse, Weekly Acupuncture, Herbs, and "warming foods" = BFP
    Beta #1 19, Beta #2 18 Progesterone 4.6 Miscarried 11/9/13
    November 2013 - Benched, waiting for first post-loss AF.
    No longer benched per New RE/OB!
    Jan. 15 2014 - BFP. HCG 3900 - Ectopic :( 
    Jan. 16 2014 Left tube removed and D&C
    March 2, 2014 First AF


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  • chrissynenachrissynena member
    KC1212 said:

    I just wanted to say how sorry I am. I was rooting for ya! (Hugs).

    Thank you so much.

    TTC for 1.5 years with a crappy RE. 12 cycles with clomid (11 too many)
    New RE, 3 failed IUI's moving to IVF with ICSI
    IVF#1 BFP EDD 1/10/13
    Beta#1 51  Beta #2 148
    A/S 8/20/13 Team Pink
    Induced week 39 due to severe GD
    Baby girl born 1/4/13

           TTC #2 2 failed IUI's moving on to FET 3/2014
    ET 3/25 
    Beta #1 127
    Beta #2 845
    U/s 4/22 It's TWINS!!
    Team Purple!!

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  • lcloffredolcloffredo member
    chrissynena said:

    Thank you so much ladies. Tested negative again this morning. My RE's office said not to home test until 16dpiui (which is Wednesday) so maybe then. I appreciate everyone's support. IF sucks!

    They just don't understand the pressure that little pee stick puts on you every morning! It's like it's calling out to you "pee on me!" Keeping my fingers crossed for you!
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  • Jeffreysmom24Jeffreysmom24 member
    edited January 2014
    Good luck, I hope you get a BFP when you test on wed! Sending you positive vibes!
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  • tuscanbride2007tuscanbride2007 member
    edited January 2014
    ((HUGS)) FX for you!

    BFP #1 12.24.07 - DD born @ 39w1d on 08.26.08
    BFP #2 08.04.11 - DD born still @ 37w3d on 03.25.12

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    TTC #3 since May 2012

    BFP #3 12.29.12 - CP @ 4w2d on 01.02.13
    BFP #4 10.17.13 - CP @ 4w2d on 10.23.13
    BFP #5 04.06.14 - MMC 05.07.14

    No longer trying to conceive.

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  • CheesyPeasCheesyPeas member
    I'm sorry. ((Hugs)) I hope that your FET gets you your bfp. I can only imagine the stress and pressure going into that cycle
    November 2010 - 10.5 week loss  o:) 
    October 2011 - DS (7)  <3 
    July 2014 - Stillborn DD (24 weeks)  o:) 
    August 2015 - DD (3)  <3 
    April 2018 - 5 week loss o:) 

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  • freakyfastfreakyfast member
    (((HUGS)))



      


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  • tachetache member
    Hugs! On a fun note we are cycle buddies! I tested Saturday but am now holding out until Wednesday although I don't have much hope.
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