I live in a neighborhood next to the mall where the shooting was. We can and have walked to the mall on many occasions, that's how close we are. I spent the entire day with my stomach in knots. We left the house around 11 in search of lunch. We threw around chipotle as an option. Its at the mall. I cannot tell you how glad I am that we ate McDonalds drive through since we wanted to get going early.
As it stands now I can't think of leaving the house - forget if I had seen something horrific happen. I have always hated mall crowds and movie theaters, so each time one of these incidents happens I want to go less and less. It seems like this was targeted,but so many aren't. DH keeps telling me you can't live your life in fear. Obviously, I can't be a hermit but thinking of all the what ifs triggers my anxiety so badly.
I just have to get this out. thanks for reading if you did.

Francesca Pearl is here! Josephine Hope is almost 3!
Re: awful (mall shooting)
07.22.11
10.22.13
We had a patient's family member threaten to kill everyone on the unit and himself if his wife died last week... She of course coded my second night at work. My coworkers and I shouldn't have to be afraid to go to work and take care of people. This world is full of sick fucks.
Although I think this country has many opportunities for my daughter it scares the shit our if me with all these shootings. I can't imagine anyone would ever sway me to support gun ownership.
Anyways, if anyone is interested, we have a growing lobby group called "moms demand action". Come join us and be a part of changing this.