I caved

Re: I caved

• kmc84 member

  January 2014 edited January 2014

  The waiting SUCKS!!!!! It is super early still! With A, I didn't get a BFP until 13dp3dt. You are not out yet lady!! FX!!! Edit: clearly my brain isn't fully functioning.... I meant 11dp3dt. But still-it felt like eternity!!

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  TTC# 1 since 5/10
  Me:34 Type 1 Diabetes, Ankylosing Spondylitis, Hypothyroid DH:35 Perfect
  DX: Unexplained IF
  Many IUI's with various meds all BFFN
  IVF #1 11/11 canceled due to OHSS
  IVF #2 Feb/March 2012 ET of 2 on day 3 4/7 BFP! 5/1 u/s blighted ovum
  IVF #3 July 2012 ET of 3 on day 3 7/24 BFP!
  Healthy baby girl born at 36w4d on 3/9/13
  

  TTC #2

  IVF #4 May/June 2014 ER 6/4 18R 8M 8F ET 6/9 1 blast, 2 frosties

  Beta 6/18 BFFN

  
  

  FET of 2 blasts 7/24...BFP!

  Healthy baby girl born at 36w3d on 3/17/15
  
  TTC#3
  IVF #5 June 2018- PGS planned, no surviving embryos
  IVF #6 August 2018- ET of 2 on day 3 - Chemical pregnancy
  IVF #7 August 2019-....?

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• carrera317 member

  January 2014

  Darn.  That feeling of regret after doing what you know you shouldn't be doing always sucks.  We are all do it though.  I would "justify" poas buy telling myself, well if it's negative, then it's too early and if it's positive, great.  It never worked though when it was negative.  Please remember that it is super early.   I didn't test before, but I got a bfp 9dp5dt.  I know the waiting is torturous, but give it time.  There's still lots of hope :-)

  Me = 36 with PCOS and 1 tube removed for a cyst and adhesions

  DH = 35 with low morphology

  
  

  April '09 IVF (antagonist protocol) = 5R5M, none fertilized, cancelled at ET

  May/June '09 IVF/ICSI = 6R6M6F, 2ET on 6.18.09, 1 frostie, Beta on

  6.30.09 = 51 OMG!! Beta #2 = 167 Beta #3 = 2630!!!!! An uneventful pregnancy. 

  3.16.10 a healthy beautiful miracle boy born via unscheduled c-section

  
  

  Now on the quest for another, so our dear son is not alone.

  
  

  May/June '12 IVF/ICSI (antagonist protocol) =10R9M9F, 1ET = BFN, 2 frosties

  Aug '12 FET, 1ET= beta hell, 2 rounds of methotrexate, 4 months later Hcg < 2 
  

  Jan/Feb '13 IVF/ICSI (long lupron protocol) = 18R18M18F, 1ET = BFN, 10 frosties
  

  Apr '13 FET w 2ET (one from '09 and one newer) = (strep throat during 2ww) biochemical = BFN

  June '13 FET w 2ET = 1 baby boy lost at 10w, D/E with karyotyping, loss due to monosomy 21.

  Karyotyping of me and DH negative for a balance translocation.

  Dec '13 FET w 2ET, BFP!!!! 12/26 beta #1 10dp5dt = 781, beta 2 12dpt= 2234 could this be real?!

    Not giving up yet.

  5 frosties on ice.

  
  

  Truly realizing how much of a miracle my son is and praying this will be a sibling for him.

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• ccam member

  January 2014

  It's early!!  But I get it - I have everything crossed for you.

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  Trying for #1 since May 2010   l   DX ~ Unexplained Infertility June 2011

  IUI #1&2 = BFN; IUI #3 = BFP, m/c @ 6 weeks

  November '11 ~ IVF#1 ~ ER 11/18 (29R, 17F) ~ 5dt of one beautiful blast on 11/23 = BFP!!

  Beta #1 9dp5dt = 116, P4 = 28 ~ Beta #2 13dp5dt = 700 ~ Beta #3 20dp5dt = 9500, P4 = 26

  1st u/s 12/27 - hb of 156!! EDD 8.10.12    **TEAM GREEN!**

  Sweet baby boy born 8.18.12

  

  Trying for #2

  FET #1 - October '13 - c/p   l   FET #2 - December '13 - cancelled    l   FET #2.2 - 1.30.14 - BFN

  ~ More testing - hysteroscopy, endometrial biopsy & more b/w - all normal / negative~

  Surprise BFP while waiting on FET #3 ~ beta #1 500; beta #2 1600; first u/s 4/3 - measuring 5w5d, no hb yet!; 2nd u/s 4/10 - hb 132, measuring 6w6d - EDD 11.29.14     **TEAM GREEN!**

  Beautiful baby girl born 11.24.14

   

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• mdiblasi10 member

  January 2014

  Like everyone else said, it's early! Fingers crossed for a BFP

  Dx: Unexplained Infertility

  
  

  TTC #1 

  IUI's #1 - #3 Clomid = BFN's, IUI #4 Follistim = BFP

  Grayson arrived via emergency c-section on 7/28/12!
  
  TTC #2 

  IUI's #1 - #4 Follistim = BFN's

  IVF #1 w/ ICSI + PGS: Lupron/Follistim/Menopur

  ER 4/13 - 19R, 13F, 4 PGS tested embryos, 1 normal

  5/14 FET: BFP. Beta #1: 123, Beta #2: 327, Beta #3: 854

  Cora arrived 1/23/15 via RCS!

  
  

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• mcgeeva member

  January 2014

  Still early!!! Hang in there!

  Married: 5/09 ~ TTC Since: 10/10 ~ PCOS ~ Progesterone from 10/10 - 2/11 ~ HSG on 3/18 - Clear ~ Started Metformin 1000mg & Clomid 50mg 2/11 ~ Metformin upped to 1500mg 4/6 ~ 6/7 Now going to SG and put on Clomid, Ovidrel, Gonal F, Prometrium, Estrace ~ IUI #1 7/2 = BFP!!!!!! March 6th our little man was born. 

  6/17/13 - Ovidrel, Follistim, Prometrium ~ IUI #1 7/2 = BFP! March 17th our St. Pattys day baby arrived

  10/29/17 - Started process for IVF, got pregnant & miscarried a 2nd time since summer. 2/22 started stims - Menopur, Gonal F, Cetrotide - retrieval 3/6 - , PIO, estrace 3xday - FET 4/18 = Beta 1: 616; Beta 2: 1342 = BFP 

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• TJ1979 member

  January 2014

  Hugs. I hate to see a bfn. Praying at just too early and holding out hope for your miracle!!

  TTC with PCOS since November 2009
  

  IUI#1 Femara/Ovidrel (cd 3-7) = BFP, m/c
  IUI#2 Femara/Ovidrel (cd 5-9) = BFN
  IUI#3 Femara/Ovidrel (cd 3-7) = BFP!
  beta #1 11/23 = 270, P4 = 75
  beta #2 11/28 = 2055
  Our daughter E was born 7/29/2012!
  Surprise, our 2nd daughter P was born 5/22/14!
   
  

  
  

  

  

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• JBDamonM member

  January 2014

  Too early!!!! Although BFN's still suck. FX for you!!!!!

  
  

  "I won't give up on us, even if the skies get rough, I'm giving you all my love, I"m still looking up."
  TTC #1 since August 2011 MFI Diagnosis - April 2012
  IVF #1 - July 2012 - Stims start 7/2, ER 7/12, 20 retrieved, 16 mature, 13 fertilized!
  ET - 7/17 - 1 blast transferred. Beta - 7/26 273, Beta 2 7/30 - 1143. Beta 3 8/6 - 11,597
  12/25 - Santa tells us "IT'S A GIRL!" EDD - April 4th
  
  Our Little Easter Bunny has arrived!

  Molly Mildred born 03/31/13
  

  
  

  TTC A Sibling....... FET #1 11/14/14, Transferred one beautiful blast

  Remaining four frosties arrested due to "embryologist error"
  

  Plllllleasssee stick little icicle.....Beta 11/23...BFN

  Starting ALL over with a fresh IVF cycle

  Stims start 11/28/14, ER December 10th, 13 eggs retrieved, 11 mature, only 4 fertilized 

  1 Blast Transferred on December 15th..... Beta Christmas Eve... Please Santa, bring me a baby!

  Beta #1 345.....Beta #2....750/ First U/S 1/13/15/HB 131....EDD 9/2/2015

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• Mrs.AmyDylan member

  January 2014

  Oh kaf, that is hard to see. I'm voting too early. Fx that the news changes this weekend!

  TTC Since 3/2010
  Me-36, Unexplained Infertility, DH-35, all clear
  Clomid 50mg 12/2011 = BFN
  Clomid 100mg 1/2012 = BFN, with Cyst
  IVF #1 Lupron/Menopur/Gonal-f/HCG Trigger
  ER 4/19/12 = 11 retrieved, 6 fertilized,
  ET 4/22/12 = 2 transfered (day 3), remaining 3 weren't good enough to freeze
  Beta 5/3 = BFP, 87 Beta #2 5/7 560.9 Beta #3 5/9 1376.5 First u/s One Baby, 125bpm!
  Second u/s, 176bmp! Kicked over to the OB by the RE at 8w. Team Green!! 

  Baby girl J arrived two weeks early! Born into water, med-free. Hooray for Team Pink!

  
  

  TTC #2 - back to the RE, treatment started 12/2014. 
  
  
  

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• Millie1984 member

  January 2014

  Its still early!! FX for you!

  
  

  After 1.5 years TTC, IUI #2= BFP 12/2/12

  
  

  

  
  

  
  

  
  

  "And the dream that you dare to dream really do come true"
  

  
  

  
  

  
  

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• laura1 member

  January 2014

  Still early!!  I tested early with my DD#2 - I KNEW I was pg, had all the symptoms, etc.  I tested at 10dpo, and it was negative.  I waited until 14 dpo and retested and it was bfp.  You are still in it!

  TTC#1 = Success on Cycle#19 with Clomid/trigger/b2b IUIs; beta#1 (15dpiui) 200, #2 (18dpiui) 433, #3 (22dpiui) 2356; TTC#2 = Surprise BFP 9/2009; TTC#3 = m/c at 6 wks, 10/29/11; BFP#2 4/1/2012...

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• imoverit member

  January 2014

  Hugs. Hate seeing those. You are still early. Hang in there.

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• Mayzie15 member

  January 2014

  I'm sending positive thoughts and hoping its too early. Last time I tested at this point and it wasn't positive a day or two later it was hoping the same for you.

  Me 38 MH 41 - TTC since June 2010 - dx with Severe MFI. Straight to IVF with ICSI. IVF #1 - ER 06/13/12 - 9 Eggs Retrieved - 4 ICSI'd - only 2 fert. 06/15/12 - 2DT - 3 cell & 6 cell with fragmentation. Beta 06/29/12 - IVF #1 = BFN. 07/20/12 - WTF Appt -Told by our RE to quit IVF. Second Opinion from RE is good. IVF#2 - November 2012. Estradiol Pills Started 11/6. Stims start 11/16. ER 11/26 - 7 eggs retrieved - all mature. 4 fertilized with ICSI. ET 11/29 Transferred 3 embryos. Beta is 12/10. 1st Beta 81 2nd Beta 160 and 3rd beta 360!!! First U/S 12/21/12 - We saw one beautiful gest. sac. 2nd U/S is 01/04/2013 - H/B 183 02/05/13 - NT Scan - everything looks good and IT'S A BOY!  Aiden was born 08/20/2013.
  

  IVF #2 is in progress.  ER was 05/12/14 - 11 eggs retrieved, 8 fertilized with ICSI.  ET was 05/15/14 - we transferred 3 embryos as we did on the cycle my son was conceived.  We were able to freeze 3 embryos. Beta is scheduled for 05/26/14.  1st beta - 111.  2nd beta - 159 didn't double 3rd beta Friday 5/30) - not a lot of hope left. Beta # 3 is 247 - probably ectopic.  Beta # 4 is 813 - possibly vanishing multiple sydrome?  06/05/14 - 5w4days - first U/S - we see a gestational sac and yolk - still have hope!  06/17/14 - 7w1day - U/S and saw and heard the heartbeat - Finally!  06/27/14 - 8w4days - Baby and heartbeat look and sound great   EDD 02/01/14 and It's a boy!
  

  
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• Dragonfly1226 member

  January 2014

  Too early! I know that BFN sucks but I have everything crossed that it will be a BFP soon!

  
  Unexplained Infertility
  
  After two Clomid cycles, three injectable IUI cycles, two IVFs, two miscarriages, and one lap surgery, IVF #2 has brought us our little boy!
  
  
  
  TTC #2
  After months of being postponed or cancelled, FET #1.3 (Natural FET) brought us twin girls!
  
  

  
  
  

  Surprise! Baby #4 is due in March!

  
  
  

  

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• kaf7 member

  January 2014 edited January 2014

  Thanks so much everyone. I am doing ok and won't test again (I only bought a 2 pack) until Sunday or Monday. I think testing got the urge out of my system...for now at least. I am so grateful for all of your support.

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• PrettyAccountant member

  January 2014

  Like pp said - too early! Keeping my fx for a positive surprise for you.

  TTC 1/2010 DH Dx - Azoospermia 2/2011
  Hysteroscopy 3/2011 2 Polyps removed 4/2011
  DH on Clomid / Arimidex to address hormonal issues - Sperm found July 2011!
  IVF #1 September 2011 - ER 9/8/2011- 8R, 5M - icsi - 1 made it to transfer - BFFN :-(
  IVF #2 Lucky November 2011 - ER 11/25/2011 - 15 eggs!, 13 mature, 10 fertilized with isci - 7 made it to transfer! Transferred 1 - 8 cell and 2 - 7 cell. BFP!!!!
  1st U/S - Twins! 2nd U/S - 3 heartbeats!!! - HOLY COW!!!
  Prayers for our take home babies!
  2 babies born on 3/27/12 and lost. Last baby born on 3/29/12 and lost at 20 weeks.
  My angels grew wings shortly after birth.
  Ahava Raisel, Matisyahu Nissim & Zev Chaim - Mommy and Daddy will always love you.
  IVF #3 July 2012 - ER 7/17/2012 - 10 R. 5 F. 4 made it to ET
  Transferred 2 on 7/20/2012 no snow babies :-(
  Beta on 7/31/2012 = BFMFN
  A miracle gift expected to come to us through adoption around 9/2012
  Baby girl adopted - Birth Mother changed her mind and took the baby back
  IVF #4 October 2012 - New RE. Doing PGD Testing. 8 R, 7F, 2 made it to 5 day blast for PDG testing. Both Normal (Thank you G-d!!!) 1 boy and 1 girl
  transferred one beautiful 5day blast (girl)
  Please G-d the almighty one - let this be our take home baby!
  Beta #1 158, Beta #2 318, 1 Absolutely magnificent HB at 175! Thank you G-d!!!
  Baby Girl born August 5th. Thank you G-d for our precious miracle.
  AMA. PAIF & SAIF always welcome - I need all the prayers I can get!
  
  

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• PrettyAccountant member

  January 2014

  Like pp said - too early! Keeping my fx for a positive surprise for you.

  TTC 1/2010 DH Dx - Azoospermia 2/2011
  Hysteroscopy 3/2011 2 Polyps removed 4/2011
  DH on Clomid / Arimidex to address hormonal issues - Sperm found July 2011!
  IVF #1 September 2011 - ER 9/8/2011- 8R, 5M - icsi - 1 made it to transfer - BFFN :-(
  IVF #2 Lucky November 2011 - ER 11/25/2011 - 15 eggs!, 13 mature, 10 fertilized with isci - 7 made it to transfer! Transferred 1 - 8 cell and 2 - 7 cell. BFP!!!!
  1st U/S - Twins! 2nd U/S - 3 heartbeats!!! - HOLY COW!!!
  Prayers for our take home babies!
  2 babies born on 3/27/12 and lost. Last baby born on 3/29/12 and lost at 20 weeks.
  My angels grew wings shortly after birth.
  Ahava Raisel, Matisyahu Nissim & Zev Chaim - Mommy and Daddy will always love you.
  IVF #3 July 2012 - ER 7/17/2012 - 10 R. 5 F. 4 made it to ET
  Transferred 2 on 7/20/2012 no snow babies :-(
  Beta on 7/31/2012 = BFMFN
  A miracle gift expected to come to us through adoption around 9/2012
  Baby girl adopted - Birth Mother changed her mind and took the baby back
  IVF #4 October 2012 - New RE. Doing PGD Testing. 8 R, 7F, 2 made it to 5 day blast for PDG testing. Both Normal (Thank you G-d!!!) 1 boy and 1 girl
  transferred one beautiful 5day blast (girl)
  Please G-d the almighty one - let this be our take home baby!
  Beta #1 158, Beta #2 318, 1 Absolutely magnificent HB at 175! Thank you G-d!!!
  Baby Girl born August 5th. Thank you G-d for our precious miracle.
  AMA. PAIF & SAIF always welcome - I need all the prayers I can get!
  
  

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• jmorta04 member

  January 2014

  Agree that it is definitely early. FX for you!

  Married July 2011; TTC since April 2011; DX: MFI
  IVF #1 in August 2012: BFP!
  L was born on May 5, 2013, 8lb. 6oz.
  PAIF/SAIF welcome!

  Our Project Make A Baby

  

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