TTC After a Loss

An actual intro this time (2nd tri loss mentioned)



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I posted a few weeks ago but I think I'm in a good place now to do a formal intro. I'll probably just hang out on the TTA and Ladies in Waiting Check in's for awhile but I'd like to come over if you'd all have me??

Anywho.... you can see in my siggy we've had a lot of trouble getting our Jack. We lost him 4 weeks ago today. He was diagnosed with Dandy Walker 5 weeks ago today and within a week I quickIy developed preeclampsia /HELLP and had to deliver him at 20w1d. We're not sure if it was the DW that caused the Pre-e or if it was just coincidence. Still waiting for his autopsy results. Not only was it already the saddest day of my life but I had to spend Xmas in the hospital. Total suckage.

DH and I started seeing a grief counselor and we've been doing really good with her so far. He was immediately anxious to start trying again once I was physically recovered....we've since had a heart to heart and have agreed to take it slow. We'll start getting our ducks in a row now and hopefully start trying again after Jack's EDD (which happens to be Mothers Day this year....ugh). We're going to get genetic testing done, depending on the results we may do another fresh IVF cycle to use with our frozen embryos and PGD them. Plus I'm trying to get in with an MFM that specializes in a lot of the issues we had, but he's booked for months as it is. To kick off trying again, in May, we're running a 5k and fundraising for preeclampsia. I feel that is a good way to honor my son.

Well, thats me in a nutshell. I'm pretty active on the boards I belong to and I'm looking foward to getting to know you all over here :)
Me: 33, Endocrine issues & FVL       DH: 32, Nothing 
NTNP 2009-2012         TTC since 2012:
  • Clomid, 2 IUI cycles, and 5 IVF cycles = BFN
  • FET #1   August 2013 = BFP!     EDD 5/11/14
  • Jack dx at 19w1d with Dandy Walker on 12/16/13
  • Severe Pre-e /HELLP set in Jack born sleeping at 20w1d on 12/23/13
  • FET #2 --July 2014  BFP!  ---  EDD  4/5/15

Jack has handpicked his sibling up there :)

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Re: An actual intro this time (2nd tri loss mentioned)

  • K you know I've been thinking about you and Jack constantly. I am glad you and yh have a plan. (((hugs)))

    TTC since July 2009. Dx MFI & LPD. 
    IUI#1&2&3 (2011 & 2012) BFN
    IUI#4 1/23/13 on 75iu x9 Follistim = BFP then chem preg m/c (Feb 2013)
    IUI#5 BFN (April 2013)
    IVF w/ICSI Oct. 2, 2012 - 13R, 11M, 7F, 1 frozen blast 4BB grade - - - FET Nov 15, 2013
    BFP! Beta 1:104 @ 10dp6dt, Beta 2:178 @ 12dp6dt,  beta 3:366 @ 14dp6dt
    Saw heartbeat twice before missed M/C at 8w3d on 12/27/13, missing my little angel boy
    JUNE 2014 IVF#2;  5R, 2M, 1F Three day transfer 6/7.  Beta 6/18 - BFN
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  • Huge ((hugs)).  So sorry for your loss. I'm sure you'll find an abundance of love and support here.
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    US 12/9 found 2 Gestational Sacs, MC 12/10/13 6w3d
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  • All the best to you going forward. Happy to have you here.


    BFP #1 11/02/13, EDD 07/04/14, BO diagnosed 12/12/13 at 9w5d
    BFP #2 6/12/14, DD born 2/21/15

  • I'm glad that you and DH have a plan and that you're in somewhat of a better place now

    4 Losses (2003, 2008, Apr 2012, & Oct 2012)
    All RPL and IF testing with multiple REs = normal

    5 IUIs = BFN

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  • Thinking of you and DH. I'm so sorry for your loss.

    Married 11/21/2018

    Me: 33 / DH: 33

    TTC #1 since 2012, finally successful in 2016

    BFP 11/29/2013 - EDD 8/9/2014 - MMC 12/31/2013 8 weeks 2 days - Tried to MC naturally for 4 weeks, D&C 2/2/2014

    IUI 01/25/2016 - BFP 2/5/2016 - Natural Home Delivery to our DD 10/8/2016

    IUD removed 10/3/2018 

    Ready to TTC for #2

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  • I'm so sorry for the loss of your Jack. I'm glad you and YH have found talking with a grief counselor to help. We're always here for you too! ((Hugs))

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  • Welcome...I am so sorry for your loss. I hope you find some comfort here.

    Me-33 DW-29
    together since 2009
    Married since 6/14/13 
    1st IUI (clomid+ovidrel) 10/14/13... BFP 10/26/13...                                                         
    EDD 7/1/14 ...MMC 11/22/13...D&C 11/25/13
                                                   
    2nd IUI (clomid+ovidrel) 1/15/14...BFN 
             
    3rd IUI (unmedicated) 2/12/14...BFN
    4th IUI (clomid + ovidrel) 3/10/14...BFN
    home ICI (unmedicated) 4/4/14...BFN
    home ICI (unmedicated) 5/2 & 5/3...BFN
    5th & 6th IUI (clomid + ovidrel) 5/28 & 5/29...BFN
    7th & 8th IUI (follistim & ovidrel) 6/24 & 6/25....BFN
                     
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  • So sorry for your loss. Big hugs!
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  • I am so sorry for your loss. Welcome to the board :)








  • ((Hugs)) So sorry for your loss of precious Jack. 



    IVF #1 canceled due to poor response
    IVF #1.2 all embryos arrested
    IVF #2 BFP Beta 1 33 Beta 2 99. EDD 11/20/2013
    Lost Baby Richard James 7/11/2013 @ 21 weeks gestation. Unknown


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  • I'm so sorry for your loss of your sweet Jack ((((big hugs)))).
    Began trying for a baby January 2012
    BFP 4.25.2013  EDD 1.3.2014  MMC 6.3.2013  D&C 6.19.2013
    BFP 11.3.2013  CP 11.6.2013
    BFP 3.31.2014 EDD 12.10.2014 Baby boy Carlson born 12.19.2014 
  • I'm so sorry for your loss of Jack. Many (((hugs)))

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    BFP #1: April 5, 2013; EDD December 11, 2013; Missed M/C May 15, 2013

    BFP #2: February 17, 2014; EDD October 30, 2014; M/C March 15, 2014

    BFP #3: August 1, 2014; EDD April 14, 2015 - Praying for our RAINBOW!

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    I am so sorry for the loss of precious little Jack. You seem to be a very strong and positive person. I love the idea of running the 5k to honor your son.

    Missed M/C natural cycle 10/2013

    DX PCOS 3/2014

    2 cycles Clomid 50 mg + Ovidrel + TI

    1 cycle Clomid 50 mg + TI - no response stair-stepped to Clomid 75 mg + Ovidrel + TI

    1 cycle Clomid 50 mg + Ovidrel + IUI

    1 cycle Letrozole 7.5 mg + 150 mg Follistim + Ovidrel + TI

    1 cycle Letrozole 7.5 mg + 150 mg Folistim + Ovidrel + IUI

    1 cycle Letrozole 7.5 mg + 150 mg Follistim  - no response, repeated Letrozole 7.5 mg + 150 mg Follistim + Ovidrel + IUI = success! 12/2014

    Beta 1 - 15 dpiui, 324, Beta 2 - 17 dpiui 750. Twins!!

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  • So sorry for your loss! ((hugs)) Glad that YH and you could have that heart to heart, but so sorry your EDD comes on Mothers Day. Will be T&P for you and will especially more on that day. ((HUGS))!
    BFP @ 1/26/13 - Natural M/C @ 2/16/13 
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  • So sorry for the loss of your sweet Jack.
    I'm glad you and YH seem to be back on the same page and the grief counselling is benefiting you both. I think the 5k run is a great way to honour your son. Sending you lots of ((hugs)).

    EDD 5/2/14, NMC 9/11/13
    EDD 10/15/14, CP 2/8/14

    IF Diagnosis: PCOS, MFI 

    Current Cycle: 5 mg Femara/1000mg Metformin + TI = BFP, EDD 4/23/15 Please be our RAINBOW

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  • Huge ((HUGS)).  I'm sorry for the loss of Jack.  I'm glad that you have a plan going forward and running a 5K is a great way to remember your son. 
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    6/2010
     BFP - 10/18/2012, EDD - 6/26/2013, Baby Girl lost at 22 weeks (T21), D&E 2/15/2013
    BFP - 4/23/2014, EDD - 1/2/2015 Twin Boys lost at 12 weeks, M/C 6/25/2014

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  • welcome. so sad to have you here!
    it sounds as though you are in the best place you possibly could be after losing Jack.
    hang in there.
    TTC #1 since 12/2010 DH: MFI, cancer survivor Me: Resected septate uterus, lap treated mild endo, tubes open, ovulate on own, autoimmune disease 3 Failed IUI's (2/2012, 4/2012, 6/2012) 
    IVF #1 August 2012. BFP! Beta #1 56.7 Beta #2 150 One baby, one heartbeat on 9/20/12! no h/b @7w6d. dandc @8w0d
    FET #1 December 2012, BFN
    FET #2 February 2013, no embies survived thaw
    IVF #2, BFP #2, Loss #2 March 2013, Scar tissue discovered, RPL testing,
    IVF #3, BFP #3, Loss #3 (twins) September 2013
    Hostile ute, moving onto Gestational Carrier!

    GC/FET #1 of 1 5AA blast and 1 compacted blast, February 2014, BFP #4 on 3/1/2014!
    6w u/s 1 bean with h/b of 145 bpm, 8w u/s 187 bpm
    EDD 11/7/14. Please, please, please stick little one!

    Praying unceasingly for a miracle. ALL welcome!

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  • I'm so sorry for the loss of your Jack.  It sounds like you and YH have a good plan in place. I think the fundraising and 5K sound like a wonderful way to honor Jack, as well as something positive for you to focus on in the meantime.  (((HUGS)))

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    TTC since March 2012 
    BFP #1 1/29/13, EDD 10/9/13 
    MMC discovered at 10 weeks (baby measured 9 weeks) D&C on 3/16/13 
    BFP #2  CP on 3/31/14
    BFP #3  8/11/14  EDD 4/22/14
  • I'm so sorry for your loss ((big hugs)) glad counseling is working for you and your husband.


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    TTC since Jan '13

    BFP#1 - EDD 3/24/14 - d&c 7w5d

    BFP#2 - EDD 6/14/14 - cp 4w2d

    BFP#3 - EDD 10/28/14 - It's a BOY!!! - Born 10/26/14

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  • I am so sorry for your loss.  I just saw my first grief counselor this morning and I wished I had started sooner.  ((hugs))



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    TTC #3 since June 2013
    BFP #1 7/21/2013--EDD 3/30/14--D&C 9/24/13
    BFP #2 1/28/14--MC 2/7/14

    IUI #1 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN
    IUI #2 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN
    IUI #3 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN
    IVF #1, Stimmed for 12 days, ER 8/22/14, 9 retrieved, 7M, 7F!!  Freeze all due to fluid in uterus.
    FET end of October 2014 cancelled due to fluid in uterus due to possible c-scar defect
    Surgery scheduled 12/12/14 to fix possible isthmocele
    3/26/15 transferred one 8 cell grade 4 embryo and one 6 cell grade 3 embryo = slow rising betas for 2+ weeks = ectopic MTX shot 4/29/15
    Repeat c-scar surgery June 2015
    2nd and last IVF cycle August 2015, stimmed for 12 days, 2 egg retrieved, both mature and both fertilized.  Transferred both 8-cell embryos on Day 3, beta 9/5/15 = BFFN
    MOVING TO ADOPTION!  


  • I am so sorry for the loss of your precious Jack.  I love your idea of running a 5k and fundraising for preeclampsia - that is such a beautiful way to remember and honor your son.  Welcome.

    Married Aug. 2011

    BFP #1: 6/9/13; (EDD: 2/14/14); M/C: 6/22/13; confirmed ectopic: 7/8/13 (3 doses MTX: 7/8/13, 7/15/13, 7/22/13)

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  • I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet Jack. So many ((Hugs)) and I am glad you and YH have a plan moving forward. GL with your 5k! It sounds like a fantastic way to honor your sweet baby. 
    Multiple TTCAL 1IF 3
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    DX: stage 2 Endo 2012, PCOS 7/2/14,  HSG 6/11/14, Lefty open!!
    BFP#1, EDD: 4/27/14, Missed EP confirmed: 9/23/13, R tube removal: 9/25/13 
    Clomid/TI #1=BFN, 
    Clomid/TI#2=BFN, Clomid/TI #3=CP
    BFP #2 CP, EDD 7/12/15
    On a treatment break: 2 natural cycles. Saving money, sigh*

    Goodbye my sweet babies. We miss you so much
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  • I'm so sorry. It sounds like you have a plan and it's wonderful that you are fundraising in memory of Jack. GL with your 5K!

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    beta @ 5w0d = 12,026! u/s 4/22/14 @ 8w1d it's twins!

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  • I'm so sorry for your loss and for all the horrible timing and grief.  It's moving that you are honoring Jack with the 5K, and I'm so glad you've found some comfort in grief counseling.  Sending strength and ((hugs)). 
  • I am soo sorry for your loss. Big ((Hugs)) to you.
    Me- 27 w/PCOS     DH - 28
    TTC since December 2012 
    BFP 6/29/2013 - EDD 3/16/14 - MMC 9/5/2013
    Diagnosed with PCOS and taking metformin 750 mg  twice a day
    April 2014 -  - 1st ICI Cycle - BFP 5/15/14 EDD: 1/20/15
    A/S 8-22-14 - Its a BOY!!
    12/15 Checkup & heard his beautiful heartbeat
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  • Thinking of you and your DH during this difficult time. Many ((((hugs))))!!!

    BFP #1 - 7/24/2013 (EDD: 3/31/2014) - mmc 8/12/13 - D&C 8/15/2013

    BFP #2 - 3/6/2014 (EDD 11/14/2014) - Beta #1 (17dpo): 1400 - Beta #2 (19dpo): 3170

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  • I'm so sorry for your loss. Big ((hugs)).

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  • Welcome I am sorry for your loss. There are some of the most amazing people on this board.  >:D<

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