* February Hopeful Hearts * FIRST CHECK-IN!!!

RunCC37 · January 2014

Welcome to the February Hopeful Hearts Check-in!!

Check-ins will be every Monday & Thursday.

This is a check-in for those who are doing IVF/IVM or FET with an ER/ET scheduled in February. If you are interested in joining, please fill us in on your cycle below (IVF cycle #, where you are in the process, relevant dates, etc). Be sure to update us along the way!

Check-in leaders for the month are: @jlr96 (Monday) & @RunCC37 (Thursday)

Siggy: https://tinyurl.com/kvx9d56

QOTD: The anticipation of starting a new IVF cycle brings a whole array of emotions. Which emotions are you feeling lately? Which is the strongest?

BFPs:

BFNs:

February Angels:

FET:

Ashris13 - FET #2

CallaLily30 - FET #1

ksgsmu - FET #1

Margritli - FET #1

MKateG - FET #2

mamakofoshi - FET #1

MrsC430 - FET #4

O2girl - FET #2

vpine - FET #1

In the 2ww:

Canceled/Delayed:

Between ER/ET:

Stimming/Priming:

Prep (BCP/Lupron/EPP):

Andrea2380 - IVF #1

carends - IVF #1 (Lupron Protocol)

ekc0630 - IVF #2 (Long Lupron Protocol)

FloandMark - IVF #2

healz413 + Manada - IVF #1

IFinTN - IVF #1

jertie - IVF #1

jlr96 - IVF #1

Lady2010 - IVF #2 (EPP & Antagonist Protocol)

LeggyJeggy - IVF #3 (Micro dose Lupron Flare Protocol)

Milagros315 IVF #1 (Lupron Protocol)

missmarypoppins - IVF #2

MrsZ816 - IVF #3

NYGiants2010 - IVF #1

pblge - IVF #2 (Antagonist Protocol)

Praying4Miracle17 - IVF #2 (Lupron Protocol)

RunCC37 - IVF #3 (Lupron Down Reg Protocol)

sorrellam30 - IVF #3

STBMrsMiller - IVF #2 (EPP & Micro dose Lupron)

SuperPsi - IVF #1

RunCC37 · January 2014

Yeehaw!! Kicking off IVF #3 over here. I am currently in the "Prep" stage. DH & I got our initial b/w done this morning and signed all of our consents with the new clinic. I am starting my first BCP tonight! I start Lupron on January 31st. Stims should begin on February 12th with an estimated ER date of Feb 23-26. We are hoping and praying to get at least one blast this cycle (as far as we know, that would be a first for us), and will most likely do a FET. Please, please, PLEASE let this be the one!!!

QOTD: My emotional palate pretty much has it all - excited, nervous, fearful, hopeful, hopeless... Today, I'm feeling mostly excited

I love getting the schedule! It makes me feel like things are happening!

MrsZ816 · January 2014

Thanks for doing the check-ins jlr96 and runcc37! I'm *hopefully* doing ivf #3 this February. I was all set to go when my saline sonogram that we all expected to be clear because it was at my old clinic. But, now I'm scheduled for a hysteroscopy on 2/5 and may have to push back a month. QOTD: I'm all over the place emotionally right now. I'm coming up on the first anniversary of a very difficult loss (see my signature for details). I'm excited to be at a new clinic. I'm anxious to find out if I'm cycling in February or March. I'm scared it won't work but also scared it will work because I'm apparently not so good at being pregnant. I'm excited to start really trying again because I want a baby we get to take home.

sorrellam30 · January 2014

Third fresh (4th total) ivf here! I finish birth control next week and start injections the day before my birthday (happy birthday to me haha). We are hoping to do a fresh transfer but if my progesterone is elevated at trigger again we will do a freeze all.
I'm feeling nervous-more nervous than my first, just because this is very likely our last attempt. Not knowing I can just try again if it doesn't work out this time makes me...well nervous. But we had brief success last cycle w a bfp so I'm trying to stay optimistic!! GL ladies

Lady2010 · January 2014

Thank you @jlr96 and @RunCC37 for coordinating and running the check-ins.

We had our WTF appointment this week - from our failed Dec IVF. We are going to go ahead with another stim cycle in Feb. We will use the same protocol - EPP with Antagonist. I have my first bloodwork next week and then will start the Vivelle patch. Then once AF arrives, b/w, u/s and then start stims - Menopur and Follitism or Gonal-F (starting on 300 iu of each since last time they had to up the Menopur after a few days.) Unless of course a miracle happens and we get pregnant on our own.... but not betting on it.

In terms of how i am feeling - frustrated that I have to go through this again (we have 1 frozen blast but since we want 2 total kids, she advised keeping this one on ice since in the future I will be older, etc). I am really hoping this is the last time we have to go through this (and I do realize this is only our 2nd time vs multiple for many of you ladies here - I don't know how you get through it! My hat is off to you - you are stronger than I am) But I am also hopeful that eventually this will work - hopefully this will work!

GL to all of you! Sending you best wishes.

NYGiants2010 · January 2014

IVF #1 study: I had blood work this morning and it showed that I ovulated last week after using the trigger to get rid of my cyst. I am currently talking Estrace till day one of my cycle, which should be the middle of next week. I will have blood work and ultrasound and hopefully start injections the end of next week. They estimate retrieval to be the first week of February depending on how I respond.
QOTD: I was very disappointed when my cycle was delayed due to a cyst last week. Now I am both nervous to start new injections and excited to get started.

carends · January 2014

Just starting IVF #1: Day 3 of BCP. Starting Lupron on Jan 27, then stims hopefully Feb 10 with Menopur/Follistim. Estimated ER Feb 19-21.

QOTD: Anxious, nervous, a little stressed, but mostly very excited. I am very hopeful today - we have a plan! Received some great news from the genetic counselor - negative for BRCA mutations. That's a lot of stress gone.

CallaLily30 · January 2014

Hi ladies! I am hoping to do a FET in February. I had me ER on Monday and we will find out Sunday if any made it to freeze. Since we have had 4 losses, we will wait for PGD results (expected in early Feb) to determine if we will do a FET. Right now, I'm hopeful that we will have at least one out of our 11. If we don't have any, we will likely do another cycle as soon as possible.

QOTD: Right now, I'm just nervous. I really hope we will have some "normal" embryos for transfer.

FloandMark · January 2014

Starting IVF #2 w/ ICSI. IVF #1 ended in chemical pregnancy but we did have one to freeze.

We decided to do another fresh this round for the same reasons as @Lady2010 (age and wanting more than one child).

Started Lupron last night which is a change from my first cycle. Stims will start with Aunt Flo (I'm guessing around 7 days from now), which going by my last cycle (haven't gotten our calendar yet) puts me at retrieval possibly Super Bowl Sunday! Luckily the clinic is close by so hubby won't miss any of the game

Feeling hopefull. I naively thought it would work our first round - we are unexplained (besides the more than likely scar tissue from my abdominal surgery last year) so I thought bypassing the scar tissue = baby. Just trying to quiet the voices that are questioning if something else may be wrong.

Looking to be more active on the board this cycle (mostly lurked last time).

@RunCC37 - I follow your blog and am hoping that the new clinic makes the difference! Good luck everyone!

FishyMom · January 2014

Hello ladies... I am hoping to be in the group. I had my Beta for my Jan FET and it came back at 3.9 I am hoping this is not considered a chemical pregnancy. My RE wants another blood draw tomorrow, so i am going to do one then and when she calls I'm going to see if I can start on FET #2.

QOTW: I am hoping that this is our cycle. I am doing pretty well about my BFN, but I a ready to try again.. Excited to be in the group.

healz413 · January 2014

Thanks to our check-in leaders and badge designer!

My partner, @Manada, and I are doing partner IVF. We'll be using my eggs and her uterus. (Our details are in our signatures, but she has DOR and we did 6 IUIs with her to no avail. I had a bilateral salpingectomy, so no IUIs for me.) We are using donor sperm and will be doing ICSI.

We had a cancelled IVF cycle in Nov/Dec due to poor response to stims for me. So we're upping the dose this time and I'm doing lupron. I'll be doing 300 Bravelle and 150 Menopur to start.

M just finished her BCPs and is waiting for her period to start estrace.

I'm taking BCPs and finish those on Sunday then wait for my period to start stimming. I started lupron on Monday and will keep doing that.

We are looking at a retrieval during the first week of Feb and then a transfer (hopefully) 5 days later.

QOTD: Right now I'm feeling tired. Outside of that, I'm feeling anticipation about our cycle. Since our previous IVF cycle was cancelled, I no longer have the same naive confidence that things will work out. We don't really have other options, though, since we're OOP and can't afford another cycle.
I'm excited because the knee socks that M bought me for the ultrasounds came in the mail today. One pair says "Science," one pair says "Dreamer," one pair is rainbow, and one pair is a few different purples (she went a little overboard).

Milagros315 · January 2014

Hi everyone! Thank you to the check-in leaders and badge makers!

I'm currently prepping for IVF #1 (Lupron Protocol). Right now I'm on BCPs and Lupron. Only 2 more days of BCPs and then I go in for my baseline u/s and E2 on the 22nd. Hopefully I'll start stimming in about a week!

QOTW: I'm feeling really anxious right now - about the medications and about whether I'm doing the injections correctly mostly. Of course, I'm absolutely terrified too. I have no idea what to expect physically or emotionally. I'm also having a hard time wrapping my head around the fact that this is actually happening. I'm trying to be hopeful, but those feelings aren't coming yet.

RunCC37 · January 2014

@healz413 & @Manada, those socks sound PERFECT!! You simply must mix and match. Left foot science, right foot dreamer. Boom! Love it!!

vpine · January 2014

I guess I'm in the 'almost prep' category, waiting on AF to arrive any moment now so I can start the BCP for FET # 1 (my siggy refuses to update). Have 8 frosties, grade 4AA 5 day blasts.

Emotion I'm feeling about upcoming FET: I'm so scared - scared that it will not work and I will be disappointed and in tears again.

Good luck to everyone !

pblge · January 2014

Hi Ladies! I'm hoping to be part of this group, but I'm still not certain. I'm waiting for AF to begin (should be in next few days!), at which point I'll start the BCP for IVF #2. I'll be doing an antagnoist cycle this time (not sure of more specific name). I need the clinic to tell me how long I'll be on BCP, as they said it could be 2-6 weeks. If it's six weeks I'll miss February entirely.

Good luck to everyone!

@Ashris13 - I hope you get a great second beta!

QOTD: (**loss mentioned) I'm not sure how I feel, as the last m/c was just a month ago, which means that my feelings are still pretty mixed up. Some days I feel hopeless, some days I feel totally determined. I think I'm a little numb and just going through the motions at this point.

MKateG · January 2014

Hello all! (*BFP and loss mentioned)

I would love to be apart of this group. My DH and I did our first IVF this past Sept and got a BFP but it ended in M/C, the embryo implanted but then just didnt develop. I was completely crushed! But I am ready to get started on this cycle of FET. We had 10 frozen from our fresh cycle which I am very thankful for. We will be transferring one 5d embie (as we did for IVF #1). I got my protocol which will begin on the first day of my next cycle (expected on Feb 1st-ish) I will take estrace for 12 days then start PIO (and other stuff), our ET will be around Feb 19th-20th.

QOTD: I am nervous, excited, scared (of being hurt again). The last loss was really hard because I was really expecting it to "just work" and I felt like more pressure was added when my brother-in-laws gf came up preg unexpectedly just before our last cycle. I am happy for them but it is still hard feeling like I "should" be preg also. But I am trying to put those feelings aside and just know that that was not the right embryo that was meant to be our baby. This go round I will be more reserved about sharing our journey with co-workers. It made the loss that much worse knowing that I had all these ppl to tell that my preg was over. But I am cautiously approaching this cycle with positive thoughts!

Praying4Miracle17 · January 2014

I *hope* I'll be included in this group!! Currently on CD48 and last day of my provera pill to help AF start. I guess I was on so much estrogen in December to try to help my lining thicken, which it did not and my FET was cancelled. Since then, we've changed RE's and instead of using our last two frosties, we will do IVF#2. Once I get AF, I will be on BCP's and lupron for 21 days, I will get AF again and then start stims. As long as everything cooperates, I think my ER and ET will be at the end of February. I guess this is a lupron protocol?

Thanks to the check-in leaders and good luck to everyone!!

QOTD: So many emotions. I'm excited to be with a new RE, however I'm so nervous about heartbreak. It is really, really important that I get a fresh transfer as that is the only time (ER) when my lining has been over an 8. Unfortunately for IVF#1, I had OHSS due to the 37 eggs retrieved. I also had 2 FET's cancelled (thin lining), so lots of waiting around last year. I'm so ready to get this show started.

ksgsmu · January 2014

As I posted on the snowdrops check in... 3 days of stimms (CD5 ) and not much to see at this point. We will be doing ER sometime the last week of January ( God willing), then PD testing and hopefully a FET end of February. I go in Monday for another monitoring appointment.

I am really trying to keep my worry/fears in check. There are just so many points of possible failure between now (stimms) and a FET...it is all so daunting.

Margritli · January 2014

I hope it is okay that I post here. We are still waiting for confirmation that we will be a February FET. I guess I will find out on Monday.

QOTW: Thanks for asking this. I am not in such a good place right now. I don't believe IVF is going to work for us. I know this is not the right way to start off a cycle, but I just can't bring myself around to believe in it. I guess you could put me in the "hopeless" category...

jlr96 · January 2014

Hi Ladies! I am on day 11 of BCP. Start stims on 2/1 with ER planned for week of 2/10.

Like all of you, I have several different emotions going on. Mostly I am worried about how I will respond to stims as I have a history of no response & with the new diagnosis of LOR, I'm freaking out. The next worry is egg quality due to age. I am excited but trying not to be too optimistic as I thought my first IUI was the answer to everything & of course 5 times later, still nothing. My husband always tells me I need to be more positive so I am trying really hard!

Lots of baby dust to all of us!!

jertie · January 2014

Hi everyone! Thanks to the check-in leaders & badge makers for keeping this going!

I'm also tentatively checking in for IVF cycle #1. AF should be arriving soon and as soon as that happens I'll be doing 30 days of estrogen, 26 of Testosterone and 10 of Progesterone to get me through a single cycle (no idea what that's called). After that I believe I've going to be on an antagonist protocol (sounds like the title to some Tom Clancy book - doesn't it?) - the stim meds will begin around 2/21 with ER to happen around 3/4. I got my delivery of meds and I'm completely floored - it fills an entire re-usable shopping bag (and there's still more meds in the fridge!) - unbelievable. It was delivered to the wrong house - so we had about 2 hours last weekend when we were freaking out - DH was walking up and down the street trying to find it, while I was on the phone with the delivery company. Stupid FedEx.

QOTD: I'm feeling oddly at peace. DH & I agreed that we're only going to take one shot at this. If we get a baby out of the deal - great! If not, we will move forward with life knowing that we did everything we could to make our dream happen. My grandpa always loved the song Que Cera, Cera (whatever will be, will be) - and I'm taking that to heart. That's not to say that I won't be sad if it doesn't work - but I'm going to try to deal with each bit of news as it comes and try not to anticipate every single outcome possible outcome - it's not helpful and I just need to focus on the present. I'm wishing for wonderful things for all of you - good luck on this next cycle!

O2girl · January 2014

I will be tentatively joiningg this group. So far I guess I am in the prepping stages to prep for hopefully my second and final FET in mid march. Right now I am currently on depot lupron to suppress my estrogen to suppress my adenomyosis.... Wow that was a lot. Anyway, I should begin priming for a march FET in mid February; if all goes well. Last week or maybe it was this week... Lupron makes me incredibly forgetful... I found out that my E2 level was 135 so the RE hopes that disappers completely for my third shot in a couple of weeks. If by chance my e2 level isn't wiped out, then I will probably have to do another month of depot lupron and then I might cry.

As for the lupron.... Holy moly! I know my e2 must be dropping at a rapid rate because I really just got a serious case of the "I don't give a damn" this week.... And it might just be my true self emerging. It's kind of like PMS but instead of being all emotional, I don't really give a shit. Now if I could just get rid of this persistent headache/body aches..I might start caring again but for now I will just sit here in my evil little world and blame the meds when I so bluntly tell people that they annoy the hell out of me!

GL ladies with all your priming!! FX this is it for all of us!

QOTD: right now I'm feeling pretty hopeless about this whole process. I can't imagine this FET working, so it leaves me feeling like the whole baby thing isn't in the cards for DH and I.

pblge · January 2014

I already have an update for me! I started my cycle this morning, and the clinic gave me initial marching orders. They said my ER will likely be the week of the 24th. So I'm in the club!

Now off to try to figure out how to add the badge....

LeggyJeggy · January 2014

Hi ladies! Could you add me to the list? We'll be doing IVF 3 on the micro dose lupron flare protocol. I started BCPs Wednesday and should start stims on the 8th. QOTD: I'm been feeling really anxious to get started. I'm so glad we're finally here after 5 months of waiting. I'm also really nervous that it's not going to work...

missmarypoppins · January 2014

I'm going to tentatively check in here. I really really hope I get to be a hopeful heart!
My nurse STILL (I am incredibly annoyed about this) has not gotten back to me with our treatment plan/schedule for IVF #2. I'm nearing my 5th week on bcp so I just want to get this show on the road already.
I had a hysteroscopy this week. It went smoothly and she removed a small amount of scar tissue.

QOTD: I've been in the IF dark place lately. I'm blaming the pill. I just can't shake the funk. Hopefully once I start stimming I'll be more excited.

ekc0630 · January 2014

Hey Girls! I'm waiting for AF to start to call and start my Long Lupron cycle. I think I will be a mix of Hearts and whatever March is. That seems to always happen to me. I will start cycling in February but I think my retrieval and transfer will be in March. This is IVF #2 IVF #1 ended in a chemical.

QOTD:I'm so scared to try again as this will be the last time we can try financially. Its easier to not try than to have the possibility of another BFN. I was going to cycle in January but backed out. I didn't feel ready.

SuperPsi · January 2014

Hi all,
We're kicking off IVF #1. Just started stims for ER at the end of January. Plan is freeze all for CCS, the FET towards the end of February. So far I'm feeling cautiously optimistic. I'm the sort who tries to never get too excited cause the disappointment just kills me, but right now I'm allowing myself to get just the littlest bit excited. First US and BW came back great, lots of little follicles in there just waiting to grow. Lots of supplements and meds and acupuncture and no carbs in weeks to help them grow strong. Of course yesterday, none of it was worthwhile and all I wanted was to sit on my butt in front of the TV with the biggest cake available at the store! But I didn't, so today it's all worth it again

STBMrsMiller · January 2014

Hi everyone! I'm excited to be a Hopeful Heart, and thank you to the leaders and badge makers (close race

).

We will be doing IVF with ICSI #2. We were hoping to bank during IVF #1 (no planned transfer) but did not have any healthy embryos on day 5 / after PGS. We are switching to an estrogen priming and micro dose Lupron protocol. I'll also be doing acupuncture and DH and I have made several diet changes: high protein, low carb, organic if possible, whole foods if possible, no alcohol, no caffeine. I'm estimating to start stims around 2/1.

We have also decided this will be our last treatment. We are out of pocket and out of time, so if this doesn't result in a take home baby we are planning to pursue adoption. That's basically causing me to be an emotional basket case, with no wine or brownies to help. But feeling some hope mixed in with the sadness and fear.

MrsC430 · January 2014

Hi ladies! Hoping it's okay if I join in. We are riding the late Feb / early March fence for FET #4. That's right.. #4. Good times! If AF cooperates, our transfer day should be late Feb.

QOTD: Our last FET was a chemical which gave me a glimmer of hope. Aside from that - feeling guarded and drained. Trying to tell myself that every cycle is different...

@RunCC37 & @jlr96Thank you for organizing the check ins!

@O2girlI feel the exact same way. Hoping this is finally it for us. Your furbabies are adorable, btw

@LeggyJeggy Happy to see you're back! GL lady!

KR250222 · January 2014

We are aiming for a February transfer for IVF#2. Just met with our doctor at a new clinic last week and he wants me to do a few tests first, also I'm not sure if insurance will cover without more notice. But when we left we decided on a February try so here I am! I am starting a mind/body program this week at my clinic with other women in our situation. It's a support group plus education on how to get through this process emotionally and tools to relax.

QOTD: I am super nervous this time around because I'm afraid the tests will uncover another issue. I am also scared a little about the endometrial scratch my dr. suggested but I know I have to try it out. Additionally I am a ball of nerves because I'm worried we will never have our take home baby. Basically, I'm a wreck!

Margritli · January 2014

Well, it looks like I am not going to be a Hopeful Heart after all. AF started yesterday and I had my WTF/planning appt. today. Since they can't delay my cycle this month, I have to wait a whole other month for my FET.

It sucks majorly, because I have a break from school right now, so I could have concentrated on the cycle, but now the FET is going to coincide with school starting again. Super. Just my kind of luck. I hope that the Hopeful Hearts have a lot of luck. I will be keeping my fingers crossed for everyone of you. Lots of luck to all of you.

RunCC37 · January 2014

Sorry to hear that, @Margritli. I wish you the best for your future FET!

MKateG · January 2014

Got half of my meds from my local Pharmacy! And Insurance paid for all but $16, WOW! This is so much different than the fresh cycle

Ill be expecting AF next week to begin!

MKateG · January 2014

mamakofoshi: thats great our insurance will not pay for any of the treatment costs for any IF treatments. They are paying for those meds because only two of my meds for FET are "fertility" drugs. I had freedom fertility pharm send the other prescripts to my local pharm so insurance would pay. Kind of a round-about-way of getting them to pay for them but whatever works

girlgamer07 · January 2014

We are between ER and ET cheering on our one little Embryo.

I've been feeling okay although I find I am jealous of anyone who they were able to retrieve more than one egg. Then I realize I'm being stupid because they are in the same boat I'm in. I'm also cautiously hopeful I guess and I keep telling myself it only takes one.

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