December 2013 Moms

Depression/Anxiety Check-In *1/10/14*

notthecheatnotthecheat member
edited January 2014 in December 2013 Moms

How are all my postpartum ladies and your LOs??

 

My first week postpartum was very difficult, but thanks to my antidepressants, I'm back on track. I'm a little nervous about the next big change- maternity leave ending and entering the "real world" as a full-time working mom. For now, I am soaking in every minute I get with my precious daughter- even the 4am feedings like this one.

 

Hope you all are are hanging in there, *hugs*

 

(pic of my motivation; my miracle Michelle. 1 day old in NICU)

Re: Depression/Anxiety Check-In *1/10/14*

  • Have had the sads come on strong in the past couple of days. Felt a bit like drowning. :(
    There's an assortment of crappiness going on and probably doesn't help the hormonal bath I'm in.
    Anyways, talked to mum and talked to H to keep lines open.
    It helped somewhat.
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    Girl #1 (2/1/03); Girl #2 (8/4/08); MC (2/28/07); MC (10/16/07); Girl #3 (7/21/08); MC (12/8/10); MC (9/5/12); Baby EDD (12/5/13).
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  • I keep crying on and off. Still have no appetite and am force feeding. Sometimes I feel okay and other times I feel totally lost and scared. Also the winter and being cooped inside isn't helping at all. I think if I could get out more and get some sunlight and exercise that would help. I did get out to a wuick dinner with the girls last night but I still didn't feel myself. I hope this ppm stuff regulates itself soon. I also have been honest with my dh and
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  • Hit an all time low tonight. I feel so alone lately and that I never get time for myself. So I'm going to force myself out of bed today and have DH watch LO and go out for a drive. Still have loads of anxiety about talking to my doctor about this. I wouldn't even know where to start. DH has been no help and we hardly even talk anymore, our marriage has been going down hill since we had her.
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  • Doing okay. Focusing on what I can control and not what I can't has been key. The sads only come on at times where they feel appropriate so, at 6 weeks pp, I think I have kept PPD/PPA at bay.

    I'm so glad I was already in therapy before the pregnancy. It's truly a comfort knowing there's always another appointment around the corner.
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  • swirl25swirl25 member
    edited January 2014
    Hit a new low yesterday. DD1 was being horrific and I just felt like I couldn't take anymore -- like I just wanted to run away and leave. I feel terrible that I feel like I can't handle the children I wanted so badly to have, and I can barely keep my head above water. And now LO seems to have a cold, the one thing I was trying so hard to avoid. If it's not one thing it's another. :( Thank God today is therapy day...I so need to get this off my chest. I just feel like I'm not making any progress in that department these days.
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  • Hit an all time low tonight. I feel so alone lately and that I never get time for myself. So I'm going to force myself out of bed today and have DH watch LO and go out for a drive. Still have loads of anxiety about talking to my doctor about this. I wouldn't even know where to start. DH has been no help and we hardly even talk anymore, our marriage has been going down hill since we had her.

    I would say everything you just said to your doctor. Is there something in particular you are anxious about that is keeping you from reaching out? Do you have any friends or family support that you can talk to? It is so important to not be alone in this, even if you feel alone.
  • I just thought I'd throw this out here. Several years ago I suffered a bout of severe depression and anxiety. I was very much not interested in taking any sort of meds for it though because I thought, 'ill get addicted' or 'ill feel high' or 'it will make me emotionless'.. well I talked to my older brother who did go on medication for it and he convinced me to give it a try. Talked to my General Practitioner and Ill tell you it is the best decision I ever made. Not only did it ease my worries and depression but I also noticed that I eventually stopped flying off the handle at everything little thing that bothered me. I take one little pill a day and the best part was that instead of the meds making me feel bad they made me feel like myself again.
  • KriloloKrilolo member
    edited January 2014
    @Heaven802002 I started out on the generic Lexapro and then when I got pregnant my doc switched me to the generic Zoloft. They felt Zoloft was safer because it has been around longer than Lexapro. I didn't notice a difference at all when I switched.
  • HUGS to all of you!

    @aundrea1225 How old is your baby? For me--- getting out of the house causes great anxiety... but I have felt so much better after I force myself to do it. It helps! I hope things get better for you. There is a lot of support here. Hugs.

    ETA: saw that you are going to talk to your Dr.

    She's a month old. I have no problem leaving her with DH. So iI'm really hoping getting out will let me breathe and relax. Thanks
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  • @aundrea1225 I'm so sorry you're feeling so low. Please talk to your dr. I see how kids can put a strain in your relationship. They're stressful! I feel like my H and I are kinda drifting apart too. I hear it gets better so don't give up. You're a team! (((Hugs)))

    Not giving up just yet. Thanks :) I'm looking forward to seeing my Dr.
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