Going to see my OB about PPD tomorrow

conradtn · January 2014

Mini-Vent:

I tried to work through it on my own, especially since DD has dr appts all the time and I have to work. But I can't handle it anymore. I cry all the time and have major anxiety issues. I can't even sing to her without crying. This morning at work I felt so anxious about my daughter, but she was with my mom who watches her 4 days a week! I know she's fine, but why was i worrying?

I guess since I had to deliver her so early, then the NICU, then her Laryngomalacia and now the heart...it's a lot and I'm breaking down.

Since we're all preemie moms....did anyone else see their OB about post partum? Obviously the birth's weren't how we planned.

Throw3ks · January 2014

I haven't dealt with PPD but I am a very anxious person with OCD. I always have to be in control and when I'm not madness insues. I think it's great you are seeking help and acknowledging your concerns. I support you and hope you feel better soon.

conradtn · January 2014

I'm thinking it's PPD or else I'm just an emotionally worn out mommy. But I've dealt with it for the last few months and it isn't improving.

conradtn · January 2014

BostonKisses2 said:

Getting help is a fantastic step. PPD is common, but even more among preemie and SN parents. I didn't have PPD, but I have anxiety issues and PTSD because of the NICU and the CF dx. Talk therapy helped for a while, but I'm looking into getting meds for additional help. See what your OB recommends for options, but meds can often make a big difference in addition to talking with a therapist if you want to do that as well. ::hugs::

I think it would be wonderful to have someone to talk to. Guess I'll see what my OB recommends.

conradtn · January 2014

CeeBug said:

I think you are making a great first step. I agree that it is hard to distinguish between PPD, PTSD, PPD OCD, and NICU mommy emotions. I am struggling with distinguishing between them as well. I hope that you have a good appointment tomorrow!

Have you gone to see anyone?

jbranden12 · January 2014

((hugs)). It has been hard. With my first daughter's death and Anna's prematurity and brain issues, I wasn't sure I was going to make it. I used to look at her and cry all the time and had a hard time enjoying even the good moments. I finally decided to see someone over the summer but like you, I had a hard time taking time off from work to go when Anna had SO many appointments and I didn't want to do evenings or weekends because I wanted to be with her! I only went a few times before I decided it wasn't worth the additional stress of going to the appointment.

Online support groups and blogging have helped me. As has getting more sleep. How much sleep are you getting?

conradtn · January 2014

jbranden12 said:

Online support groups and blogging have helped me. As has getting more sleep. How much sleep are you getting?

Starting to get more, but last night her Laryngomalacia was pretty bad that she was even grunting in her sleep. Usually I know she's resting well when you can't hear her. I was just laying there (I'm currently in a bed in her room) listening to her breathe. I know people say you get better sleep when you aren't in the same room, but after she choked once because of this I prefer to be there with her...just in case.

This group does help because none of our friends have any experience with a preemie. Half of them aren't even parents yet.

LaciJaxx · January 2014

Awwww ... Can't say much other than I'm glad you're getting some help. And t's and p's!!!! Keep us posted

conradtn · January 2014

I just got back and he was very sweet. He asked me everything Naomi is dealing with and when I laid it all out he understood why my anxiety is through the roof. He did prescribe something to help me even out. He is reporting everything to my primary care because he wants him to monitor me.

I told him I had an anxiety attack yesterday for no good reason and he said I absolutely did have a good reason.

Kelly_12 · January 2014

I didn't deal with it, but my husband had severe anxiety caused by our little preemie. He was having full blown anxiety attacks that landed him in the ER just because he was so worried about our LO. He went on meds for a little while and they really helped. I also MADE him talk to me about his emotions which is not something he's a fan of.
What we've all been through is unlike anything anyone else could understand. It's great that you're reaching out for help and acknowledging these feelings and emotions. Don't stop talking about it and know that it is common and normal to go through.
Hope the meds help you as well

you'll get through this!

Kelly_12 · January 2014

Also...my husbands anxiety was worse once we got home as well, and once he went back to work (he took 2 weeks off when we first got home) his anxiety was at it's peak. Even though he knew I was at home with LO and we were fine he couldn't stop the anxiety attacks from worrying about him because he wasn't with him. So the fact that you're finding it worse now, seems normal to me as that's what happened to my hubby!

staceymack · January 2014

I just saw my doctor about this yesterday. I thought I could deal with it too. It's been almost 5 months and I'm not better. I'm having terrible anxiety and depression. I know cardio exercises will help but I just don't have a minute to work out. So, medication it is. I'm also looking into finding therapy .

conradtn · January 2014

Thanks ladies. It helps to know I'm not alone/crazy.

I went to the pharmacy yesterday to get my meds and for whatever reason they had to confirm with my OB. So I will pick them up tonight and get started.

staceymack · January 2014

I still have not made it to the pharmacy! I hope it goes well for you!

kobicou · January 2014

I think its great you are getting help. With DD1 I had/have PTSD. She is almost four and now its less about her birth and now more about her getting hurt. I spoke to a psychiatrist who told me I need to 'meditate' and 'go for long walks'. That was the end of that. With DD2, I think its more PPD which shows up as impatience and anger. I haven't been able to see anyone as DD2 wont take a bottle and frankly I have issues leaving DD1 with anyone but MIL or my sister.

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