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Welcome to TTCAL CheckIn!
I hope I can find you all well and positive this week! Please don't be shy in asking the PGAL/PAL ladies questions if you have them. Lots of baby dust on all of you!
Where are you in your TTCAL journey?
Do you have any relevant appointments upcoming?
QOTW: Do you have a time frame for wanting to be pregnant or not pregnant again? Would you stop TTC, if it meant your rainbow would be due around the same time as your angel baby (either when they were due, or their angelversary?)
Open Topic. What is on your mind this week?
"Elsie Irene was born sleeping at 35w 6d on December 8, 2012. Mommy and Daddy miss you sweet girl."
Re: TTCAL Check-In
Do you have any relevant appointments upcoming? Not at this time. We're still waiting for our autopsy results and I think that will determine if we need to do anything differently for a future pregnancy or go back in.
QOTW: Do you have a time frame for wanting to be pregnant or not pregnant again? Would you stop TTC, if it meant your rainbow would be due around the same time as your angel baby (either when they were due, or their angelversary?) Honestly- I got pregnant easily with Brynn, so I felt like I would have luck with planning my second pregnancy. I was hoping not to have another winter baby with a birthday too close to hers and I live in Houston and was worried about being hugely pregnant in the hot summer, so I specifically tried to get pregnant with a Spring due date to avoid those things. I was thrilled when our Baby Boy was due on April 2nd. Then we lost him in November and now- I just want to be able to have a healthy baby again no matter when they are born. If we're able to get pregnant again quickly once we get the ok, I will likely be big and swollen over the summer and the due date will be close to our loss date and Brynn's birthday (3 weeks apart) and I won't give a damn, I'll just be so thrilled to bring that sweet baby home.
Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? Feel like I'm pacing with waiting on these autopsy results. I think having those will really help my husband with whatever closure is possible and I want him to have that so badly.
BFP #1- 4/2011; DD Brynn born 12/2011
BFP #2- 7/13; EDD- 4/2/14; Lost DS at 20 weeks (11/16/13) due to cord accident
BFP #3- 3/14; EDD- 11/28/14; Lost DD at 15 weeks (6/7/14)- cause unknown
To my angels- I held you every second of your lives and I'll love you every second of mine.
Where are you in your TTCAL journey?
We are in our second month. I am in day 7. I also get a little testy now. And become a bit of a 'scheduler' I try not to do, but it is always in the back of my head.
Do you have any relevant appointments upcoming?
QOTW: Do you have a time frame for wanting to be pregnant or not pregnant again? Would you stop TTC, if it meant your rainbow would be due around the same time as your angel baby (either when they were due, or their angelversary?)
I won't try in March. December is full of birtdays, as well as the angelversaires of our first two loss. Its overall a rough month.
Open Topic. What is on your mind this week?
Thanks for posting Neothola!
Where are you in your TTCAL journey? YAY I'm off the bench...CD 7. Now just waiting to O. I had some weird O like pain this AM for a few hours...but way early to O. No clue what that was
Do you have any relevant appointments upcoming?
No. If we're not pregnant by March we'll prob make an appointment with my OB for my annual and talk about fertility.
QOTW: Do you have a time frame for wanting to be pregnant or not pregnant again? I wanted to be pregnant immidiately. We tried for 6 months after Ana, and nothing happened. Went on BC for 3 months to regulate, and now trying again. I want to be pregnant yesterday.
Would you stop TTC, if it meant your rainbow would be due around the same time as your angel baby (either when they were due, or their angelversary?) Nope. We tried through June (when I got preg with Ana). It would be weird and hard, but wouldn't stop us from trying
Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? I want to be pregnant. I want a 2014 baby. I'm ready, and I deserve it!
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Benched until March. Trying to decide if we will be ready to start trying right away or wait a few months.
Do you have any relevant appointments upcoming?
I have an appointment with my OB on Thursday. Besides a regular physical, I also want to go over a bunch of questions I have and set up a plan for another pregnancy so that when we get off the bench, I'll have an idea of what to expect.
QOTW: Do you have a time frame for wanting to be pregnant or not pregnant again? Would you stop TTC, if it meant your rainbow would be due around the same time as your angel baby (either when they were due, or their angelversary?)
I think it would be difficult if another baby was due right around the time of Colton's angelversary. I feel like the EDD is less hard, but sharing the month of his angelversary would be hard.
Open Topic. What is on your mind this week?
Getting ready for my OB appointment. I've had some anger towards my doctor so I want to talk to her about that and I hope that I can come away from the appointment feeling like I've had some closure on those feelings and also with a plan for another pregnancy.
Do you have any relevant appointments upcoming? I need to go in and get my progesterone level checked. My md wanted to do it last summer but I keep putting it off. I need to go though.
QOTW: Do you have a time frame for wanting to be pregnant or not pregnant again? Would you stop TTC, if it meant your rainbow would be due around the same time as your angel baby (either when they were due, or their angelversary?) Way before now. Just yesterday I was thinking to myself how long we've been trying for and man, it really depressed me. We never had any trouble with this before. You feel like such a failure. I'm just hoping my md will still just give me clomid anyways, even if the bloodwork shows that I have ovulated, since it's been so long.
Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? How crazy I feel. Still not pgal. If Bri had stayed with us we most likely would be done now, if I do get pg I know I'll be so, so, so overly cautious and scared. But maybe deep down I kinda don't want another one. I want my dd not another baby. What if, and this one I know will seem selfish and monsterish, but I have been wanting my little girl for years and especially with all the trouble of getting pg now I honestly don't think we'd have anymore even though my dh does, what if we don't get another little girl? I know I'd fall in love with our future baby as I did with our last son. But then there's that nagging thought still, I don't want another baby that's not my dd that I lost. I'm really scared that I still won't be happy with another baby and not feel a connection. I know that's stupid. I know I would love another baby, but what if we really don't connect? Idk, maybe I'd feel differently once I (hopefully) become pgal and have my baby. Sorry for the crazy rant.
Where are you in your TTCAL journey? I ready to start trying now but my DH needs a little more time. He said he is closer to being ready so I hope that means soon. I wanted to be pregnant again before Brooke's 1st Birthday but that is next month and don't see it happening before then. Currently only using the Pull-Out Method so I guess it is always possible.
We would not stop trying if that meant our rainbow would be due around Brooke's Birthday or Angelversary. It might make those times a little tougher but it would also make those times a little more brighter. No one could ever replace Brooke or take the love we have for her away.
Do you have any relevant appointments upcoming? No appointments.
QOTW: Do you have a time frame for wanting to be pregnant or not pregnant again? Would you stop TTC, if it meant your rainbow would be due around the same time as your angel baby (either when they were due, or their angelversary?) I wanted to be PG again by Brooke's 1st Birthday. Now I just want to get PG this year. I really hope to give birth to Brooke's sibling this year but that chance is quickly coming to an end since Oct due dates are now starting to show up.
Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? Always our sweet angel Brooke. Also, wanting to be pregnant again so bad but having to wait just a little while longer. Needing hope for the future.
Brooke Elizabeth born Feb 17, 2013 grew wings May 9, 2013 @ 11 weeks & 4 days old from SIDS