For those who didn't read my previous posts we have been undergoing testing for abnormal results regarding lo possibly having cystic fibrosis. We heard yesterday from her pulmonologist that her DNA results did find 2 defective genes which means she has cf. the silver lining is one of them is a more mild mutation so she could be symptom free for many years. However, she will require monitoring her entire life and this could still be a big problem later in life. I'm just so devastated an feel so much guilt for passing this gene to her. My DH and I will have to undergo genetic counseling to see who gave her what so we can let other family members know who may be at risk and determine exact risks for future children. Every time I think I am doing okay I just take one look at her perfect little face and start to cry. Even though I knew this was a possible outcome and the results could be far worse I just kept expecting to here she was just a carrier with only 1 mutation and is just fine. Thank you for all of the kind words you all have provided, it has really meant a lot.