So, AF came today. Three days late, and a TON of pregnancy symptoms... needless to say I left work early and had a huge cry fest. I don't know why I get so hopeful... this time felt so different than the others when we first tried IF last year that I guess I couldn't help myself. I had nausea, sensitivity to smells, pressure in my abdomen, fatigue, swollen and tender breasts, strange dreams for the past week - even my cat was being all clingy around me which has never happened in the six years I've had her. And AF being late - well, it's never ever late, except (it seems) when I'm on Clomid.
Sorry, I just had to vent to someone. My DH is ultra supportive but he just doesn't quite get it, you know? I mean, it's not quite the same for him.
Anyway, not a great way to be ringing in the New Year... but I'm going to try and think positive and hope that this cycle works - we're going to be doing Clomid and IUI with Ovidrel this time, so... Maybe all those symptoms mean that my body is ready? Trying to stay positive..... >.<
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* February Siggy Challenge*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
Married 2008 - DH (44) ME (30) DH: Normal | ME: Hypothyroidism, hypertension, unexplained IF Tried on our own 2010 & 2011 Started seeing RE early 2012; laparoscopy May 2012 (then took a year off) Infertility Treatment Reboot (2013/2014) Dec 2013 | Back with the RE after a year and a half off. Clomid/TI. BFN Jan 2014 | Clomid, IUI #1. BFN Feb 2014 | Break (focusing ongetting healthy!).
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* I believe that imagination is stronger than knowledge. That myth is more potent than history. That dreams are more powerful than facts. That hope always triumphs over experience. That laughter is the only cure for grief. And I believe that love is stronger than death.
― Robert Fulghum, All I Really Need to Know I Learned in Kindergarten) ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
I'm sorry! ((Hugs))! The only thing that has helped me through this journey is the support of DH and having a positive attitude. It's very hard, but I think has made me stronger. GL!
**All welcome**
Me: 33 Hypothyroid, HBP, Low Vit D Anemic, Stage 2 Adrenal failure. Unexplained Infertility
Thanks @WA1215 - I appreciate it. Yes, my DH has been wonderful and I couldn't ask for better! He even goes with me to all my RE visits I love him dearly. And I usually let myself have a few hours of self-pity, then I brush myself off and I think toward the future and never get stuck in what-ifs and could-have-beens. It keeps me from going insane.
Good luck to you, too!
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* February Siggy Challenge*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
Married 2008 - DH (44) ME (30) DH: Normal | ME: Hypothyroidism, hypertension, unexplained IF Tried on our own 2010 & 2011 Started seeing RE early 2012; laparoscopy May 2012 (then took a year off) Infertility Treatment Reboot (2013/2014) Dec 2013 | Back with the RE after a year and a half off. Clomid/TI. BFN Jan 2014 | Clomid, IUI #1. BFN Feb 2014 | Break (focusing ongetting healthy!).
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* I believe that imagination is stronger than knowledge. That myth is more potent than history. That dreams are more powerful than facts. That hope always triumphs over experience. That laughter is the only cure for grief. And I believe that love is stronger than death.
― Robert Fulghum, All I Really Need to Know I Learned in Kindergarten) ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Hugs! Yeah clomid does have a way of getting our hopes up, doesn't she? I'm sorry you're having a bad day! But we are gonna kick 2014's ass! Whoop whoop!
DH= burn vic, abn sa MFI|| ME= PCOS, Sarcoidosis, Hypohyroidism HSG-OK
tried naturally 2011 & 2012-
TTC with nurse practitioner 2013
2 clomid cycles- both bfn, started seeing RE 2013
FEBUARY PLAN-HSG||March Game plan-FEMARA IUI+TRIGGER
Hugs!! Good luck with your next cycle. I'm in a slump waiting for AF, but I find that once I get the go-ahead after my CD3 appointment, new cycle excitement sets in.
July 2006: started TTC 2008: HSG (normal), couple rounds of clomid through gyno 2008 - 2010:dragging my feet out of fear and procrastination October 2010: first consultation with RE, dx PCOS and fibroids (DH slightly low count/motility) Oct. 2010 - Dec. 2012: In DENIAL! avoided the issuebecause I was scared of surgery January 2013: returned to RE, fibroids grew significantly February 2013: second HSG, fibroids pushed on tubes which blocked them somewhat March 2013: MRI to determine what type of surgery may be necessary July 29, 2013: fibroids (5) removed via robotic laparascopy August 2013 - Nov 2013 : benched due to recent surgery
IUI #1, Dec. 24, 2013, BFN
IUI #2, Jan. 25, 2014, BFN IUI #3, Feb. 25, 2014BFN IUI #4 canceled due to lack of response to letrozole IUI #4.1April 28, 2014, BFN May 16, 2014:wtf consult, start prepping for IVF in June and add injects for one last IUI in the meantime IUI #5 started letrozole and bravelle but canceled after HSG led to new diagnosis May 21, 2014: third HSG, tubes blocked, one at the beginning, one hydrosalpinx??
June 11, 2014: consult, approved to move on to IVF because the hydro is not completely blockedtherefore allowing fluid to move through slowly rather than backwards IVF #1 August 8, 2014 - 3dt of 2 embryos, BFN September 17, 2014 - 4th HSG, the right tube is very patent (open!!) dye went straight through this time. Weird! October 2, 2014 - started metformin treatment November 14, 2014 - blood work, brought A1C down from 5.8 to 5.5 November 26, 2014 - RE finally back from vaca and reviewed my chart, no more IVFs for rest of calendar year December 1, 2014 - Right after Thanksgiving, I called a new clinic and got in right away! Plan for IVF December 17, 2014 - ER! 29 retrieved (!!), 16 mature, all 16 fertilized (ICSI) IVF #2 December 20, 2014 - 3dt of 3 embryos, BFN
Thank you ladies, y'all have really made me smile all I have to say is bring on 2014!!! I have good feelings for us all
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* February Siggy Challenge*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
Married 2008 - DH (44) ME (30) DH: Normal | ME: Hypothyroidism, hypertension, unexplained IF Tried on our own 2010 & 2011 Started seeing RE early 2012; laparoscopy May 2012 (then took a year off) Infertility Treatment Reboot (2013/2014) Dec 2013 | Back with the RE after a year and a half off. Clomid/TI. BFN Jan 2014 | Clomid, IUI #1. BFN Feb 2014 | Break (focusing ongetting healthy!).
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* I believe that imagination is stronger than knowledge. That myth is more potent than history. That dreams are more powerful than facts. That hope always triumphs over experience. That laughter is the only cure for grief. And I believe that love is stronger than death.
― Robert Fulghum, All I Really Need to Know I Learned in Kindergarten) ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Re: First disappointment since returning to RE...
Good luck to you, too!
Married 2008 - DH (44) ME (30)
DH: Normal | ME: Hypothyroidism, hypertension, unexplained IF
Tried on our own 2010 & 2011
Started seeing RE early 2012; laparoscopy May 2012 (then took a year off)
Infertility Treatment Reboot (2013/2014)
Dec 2013 | Back with the RE after a year and a half off. Clomid/TI. BFN
Jan 2014 | Clomid, IUI #1. BFN
Feb 2014 | Break (focusing on getting healthy!).
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I believe that imagination is stronger than knowledge.
That myth is more potent than history.
That dreams are more powerful than facts.
That hope always triumphs over experience.
That laughter is the only cure for grief.
And I believe that love is stronger than death.
― Robert Fulghum, All I Really Need to Know I Learned in Kindergarten)
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PAIF/SAIF/PGAL/PAL ALL WELCOME!
TTC since 08/2012
DX: DOR
2008: HSG (normal), couple rounds of clomid through gyno
2008 - 2010: dragging my feet out of fear and procrastination
October 2010: first consultation with RE, dx PCOS and fibroids (DH slightly low count/motility)
Oct. 2010 - Dec. 2012: In DENIAL! avoided the issue because I was scared of surgery
January 2013: returned to RE, fibroids grew significantly
February 2013: second HSG, fibroids pushed on tubes which blocked them somewhat
March 2013: MRI to determine what type of surgery may be necessary
July 29, 2013: fibroids (5) removed via robotic laparascopy
August 2013 - Nov 2013 : benched due to recent surgery
IUI #3, Feb. 25, 2014 BFN
IUI #4 canceled due to lack of response to letrozole
IUI #4.1 April 28, 2014, BFN
May 16, 2014: wtf consult, start prepping for IVF in June and add injects for one last IUI in the meantime
IUI #5 started letrozole and bravelle but canceled after HSG led to new diagnosis
May 21, 2014: third HSG, tubes blocked, one at the beginning, one hydrosalpinx??
IVF #1 August 8, 2014 - 3dt of 2 embryos, BFN
September 17, 2014 - 4th HSG, the right tube is very patent (open!!) dye went straight through this time. Weird!
October 2, 2014 - started metformin treatment
November 14, 2014 - blood work, brought A1C down from 5.8 to 5.5
November 26, 2014 - RE finally back from vaca and reviewed my chart, no more IVFs for rest of calendar year
December 1, 2014 - Right after Thanksgiving, I called a new clinic and got in right away! Plan for IVF
December 17, 2014 - ER! 29 retrieved (!!), 16 mature, all 16 fertilized (ICSI)
IVF #2 December 20, 2014 - 3dt of 3 embryos, BFN
We are done with treatment unsuccessfully.
Married 2008 - DH (44) ME (30)
DH: Normal | ME: Hypothyroidism, hypertension, unexplained IF
Tried on our own 2010 & 2011
Started seeing RE early 2012; laparoscopy May 2012 (then took a year off)
Infertility Treatment Reboot (2013/2014)
Dec 2013 | Back with the RE after a year and a half off. Clomid/TI. BFN
Jan 2014 | Clomid, IUI #1. BFN
Feb 2014 | Break (focusing on getting healthy!).
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I believe that imagination is stronger than knowledge.
That myth is more potent than history.
That dreams are more powerful than facts.
That hope always triumphs over experience.
That laughter is the only cure for grief.
And I believe that love is stronger than death.
― Robert Fulghum, All I Really Need to Know I Learned in Kindergarten)
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PAIF/SAIF/PGAL/PAL ALL WELCOME!