Hi ladies. First I want to say how sorry I am for all of your losses. This was my first pregnancy and my first loss and I have been devastated. Reading the posts on this board since I found out last Thursday that I had a blighted ovum has helped me tremendously. I'm sorry for all of your pain and grief, but your sharing is such a gift.
After having another ultrasound today to confirm what we discovered last week at 8w, we decided to take the Misoprostol to speed things along. It was a difficult decision but I think and hope this is the right choice. I'm very nervous and scared, but ready to get this over with and move on so we can try again.
I really wanted to post over the weekend when I was in throes of the devastation but I could only bring myself to read your posts over and over. I cried so much but with each day it has gotten a little bit easier. Today was hard since it opened the wound to see that empty sac on the ultrasound screen again, and it was very hard to take this medicine, but I'm trying to keep my faith and believe this is part of God's plan. I will keep all of you in my thoughts and will update tomorrow on my experience with the meds.
Re: Intro & Taking Misoprostol Tonight
Now that my d&c is over, I feel like myself again. And even though I'd do anything to have my baby back, I just repeat to myself again and again that this little one wasn't meant to be. Not in this life. I take comfort in knowing that he's in heaven, being rocked in the arms of all of his great grandparents. They'll keep him so warm and loved until I get to see him.
You will get through this. As someone else said recently, you may not ever really get over it, but you will be able to accept that it happened and start to find the joy in life again. I promise.
My mood this week has fluctuated rapidly between depression and optimism. It makes me feel better that a blighted ovum generally has to do with a chromosome defect and not a woman's fertility. Right now I am optimistic that I will get pregnant again soon.
Thanks for sharing your story. Makes me feel so much less alone.
BFP #2 6/12/14, DD born 2/21/15
I will write a separate post about my experience with the Misoprostol. Although it was really rough for a few hours, I'm glad I made the choice I did.
T&P for everyone here.
*** siggy warning- losses mentioned- everyone welcome *****
Me: 36
DH: 42 (w/ 2 children from prior marriage)
Us: TTC for our 1st together since August 2013
1st BFP: November 2013 (m/c at 7 wks)
2nd BFP: February 2014 (m/c at 6 wks)
RPL Panel started in March 2014
3rd BFP: May 2014 (m/c at 5 wks)
4th BFP: June 2014 (CP at 4 wks)
RE appt in June 2014 (all RPL panel tests are normal...it's likely egg quality due to my age and borderline DOR)
Baseline AFC: 8 follies
2 IUI cycles (July and August 2014- both BFN)
IVF #1 w/ ICSI & PGS- October 2014 (AFC: 8 follies; ER Oct 20: 5R/3M/2F; the 2 only made it to day 3 and stopped growing before biopsy)
key supplements: DHEA (25mg- 3x/day); CoQ10 (300 mg/day) ISWTE believer here!
IVF #2 EPP w/ ICSI & PGS- AFC: 13 follies! 10R/6M/6F- 5 biopsied for PGS- 1 normal embryo
FET scheduled for February 2015 delayed in order to do one more ER in hopes of getting at least 1 more normal embryo
IVF #3 EPP w/ ICSI & PGS: 7R/5M/5F- 2 biopsied for PGS- 1 normal embryo
FET #1 April 23, 2015: 1 PGS tested embryo transferred - BFN
FET #2 June 30, 2015: 1 PGS tested embryo transferred- BFP!!