I think I may have PPD.

Princess_Lily · December 2013

I am 6w post-partum.

For the past 2 weeks I have been very quick to anger with our 4.5yo and short tempered with DH - no matter how much he tries to help, its not good enough. Even though DD is sleeping longer, I wake up tired and grumpy. I don't want to harm myself or others, but pre-DD I was never short with my family unless it was PMS.

I am very quick to cry over silly stuff, and serious stuff too. I panic (my throat closes up) when I get overwhelmed now. I find myself insecure talking with friends, and my appetite is endless, I am consuming well over 2,000 calories a day in junk foods or I don't want to eat at all.

Aside from limited help from DH since he works 50+ hours a week, I don't have much help (even though my family is in town). My mom who lives 10min away (who also was very supportive & helpful with our first child) sadl has now disappeared since DD came home from the hospital. She also doesn't believe PPD is real - and "I need to go to church" instead of seeking medical help; even though as a young mom herself, she had such severe PPD that she needed a nurse to help her. I don't want help (with a nurse), but I need understanding that I may/may not need medical intervention, and support.

I am visiting with my doctor on the 3rd, so I plan on bringing it up with her. I had untreated PPD with DS for the first 6mo of his life, and so I am hyper-vigilent of my emotional state now. DH and I discussed last night how I plan to speak with my OB, and he said he was happy that I plan on speaking with her, and he would help whenever needed, when he can.

McJen715 · December 2013

Huge, huge hugs to you. I completely feel you, I'm having nearly the exact same issues/feelings (snappy with H/older DD, extreme fatigue, over eating, high anxiety, crying constantly, and just generally feeling disengaged with people).

I have my 6 week appointment today and plan on talking with my doctor. I hope speaking with your doctor next week helps, I'll be thinking of you!!

SharonB222 · December 2013

My mom is similar in the mental isn't medical area. My therapist likens depression to poor eyesight. If you couldn't see clearly, would church give you 20/20 vision? God made doctors for that. I suppose church could help if you were referred to a good optimologist! During my years of pg loss, my mom told me I just needed to really want a child and believe - uh, how does that fix my uterine anomaly? I think the surgeon was more helpful that way. Wishing you wellness and joy again!

Zilly13 · December 2013

I'm glad that you were able to reach out to your doctor for help. Sending creepy internet hugs your way.

artistlife · December 2013

I'm sorry you are dealing with this but you are not alone. I felt very much lime you do. I was very short and almost mean with DS. I started Zoloft last week after talking to my OB. I can already tell a difference in my patience. Its not a quick fix, but its starting to work. Good Luck!

cagoldi · December 2013

Hugs to all the ladies in this thread dealing with PPD/PPA. I've not started Zoloft but have been doing group therapy.

It's a terrible feeling. I'm glad your husband sounds warm and supportive. Please do talk to your OB. You and your family shouldn't suffer any longer than you already have.

Princess_Lily · December 2013

Thank you so much ladies for the words of support!

The bizarre thing is that, one day could be great, like today - today is a good day. I could have several days in a row like this, and then one day it will hit me like a ton of bricks. Or vice versa, several really sucky days, and then a great day. Its like PMS, but you don't know what day or how it will hit ya.

Oh, the good days are wonderful...like its as though I've never had a rough time, which can be quite confusing. Either way, I still think it should be brought up at my 6w mark.

ximenita003 · December 2013

I definetly have ppd, and at 6 weeks I'm just now admitting I have it. It took a good friend to point some stuff out. I'm making an appointment on Monday with PCP, getting counseling and still waiting on 6 week appointment with midwife. Thank God for good friends and family support!

babymama619 · December 2013

Yikes, I'm sorry you're feeling this way. I'm surprised with your history they didn't want you on meds immediately after birth of #2. Thank god you realize you need some help and that is where to start. Perhaps you can ask your mom directly for some help. Sometimes I come off so competent that people forget I need help, maybe it's the same for you? Good luck and hang in there.

artistlife · December 2013

Princess_Lily said:
Thank you so much ladies for the words of support!

The bizarre thing is that, one day could be great, like today - today is a good day. I could have several days in a row like this, and then one day it will hit me like a ton of bricks. Or vice versa, several really sucky days, and then a great day. Its like PMS, but you don't know what day or how it will hit ya.

Oh, the good days are wonderful...like its as though I've never had a rough time, which can be quite confusing. Either way, I still think it should be brought up at my 6w mark.

You and I are having very similar experiences. I was having the here today gone tomorrow issues too. My doc said that is very common and a big reason why ppd goes untreated. Most women feel if they are having good days it isn't depression, but PPD is different and hormonally driven.

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