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Moving on to Christmas (loss mentioned)...

Mom2anAngel2Mom2anAngel2 member
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After a long week of waiting I finally miscarried in the very early hours this morning. I think that I can really sum up my feelings as being relieved. Don't get me wrong, we are sad, but it is different than last time. I don't know if it is because I never felt good about this pregnancy, if it is because last time we were 19 weeks as opposed to being first tri this time or if it is because I can hear DS "cracking himself up" in the next room (he currently thinks everything is hysterical). I just can't help but smile when I hear him laugh.

Anyway, I am looking forward to enjoying DS's first Christmas and his 1st birthday just a few days later. Now I feel like I really can focus on celebrating and enjoying every second with him. It makes me feel a little bad that I am feeling okay about this. After we lost DS1 I felt as though my world had come crashing down.

There really is no point to this post. I just really needed to get this off of my chest, and since no one knew we were pregnant, I figured you ladies would understand.

I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas (if you celebrate Christmas) and happy new year!

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 TTC since 11/2009; Lap/HSG/Hysteroscopy: 5/2011 (endometriosis - removed; endocervical polyp - removed; high pressure in bilateral tubes - cleared)

BFP #1: 8/4/11; DS1 born sleeping on 11/16/11 at 19w1d

BFP # 2: 5/7/12, EDD 1/10/13, DS2 born 1/4/13

BFP # 3: 11/8/13, EDD 7/17/14, mmc 10wks

BFP # 4: 5/16/14, EDD 1/15/15, praying for our 2nd rainbow baby 

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    KikiCohenKikiCohen member
    (hugs)  I'm so sorry for your loss, but glad you have found peace.

    A very Merry Christmas to you and a happy birthday to your DS!
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    MJM3108MJM3108 member
    I am so sorry for your loss, mama. I'm glad you have a sense of peace about it, though.  Big (((hugs))) to you, and hope you and your family have a Merry Christmas. Happy 1st Birthday, little man! 
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    Missa_gMissa_g member
    I am so sorry for your loss.
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    Married 9/22/07, began TTC 8/10
    Diagnosed with DOR, LP defect, mild endometriosis and cysts
    BFP #1 EDD 9/10/11, natural miscarriage at 6w
    BFP #2 Medicated cycle, twin boys born 4/4/12 at 29w4d
    BFP #3 EDD 8/8/14, D&C for missed miscarriage at 8w, baby boy with triploidy
    BFP #4 June 2014 CP
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    FmrAFBratFmrAFBrat member
    edited December 2013
    I am so sorry for your loss, but I think you are AMAZING to have such strength & perspective during the holiday. ((HUGS)) to you & your little one. I hope his birthday and Christmas are wonderful for you both.
    TTC January 2010
    BFP #1 10-11-10 ectopic discovered 10-22-10, 10-23-10 methotrexate & emergency surgery, lost right tube BFP #2 12-1-10 Found to be tissue dropped from salingectomy or missed heterotopic pregnancy from BFP #1 BFP #3 1-30-11 DS arrived on due date 10-10-11 BFP #4 Surprise 9-3-12 EDD 5-9-13 DS2 arrived 5-5-13 BFP #5 5-14-14 Emergency D&C 6-16-14 9 weeks
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    morkmork member
    Grieving is a weird process, with unexplainable moments. However it goes for you this time is how it needs to go. Hugs and merry christmas!
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    Mama to 5 angel babies, 1 rainbow baby, and 2 more angel babies. 
    My beautiful Ella/ToT arrived 10/10/12. 
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    bethLenellbethLenell member
    So sorry for you loss! 
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    adoxyinherearadoxyinherear member
    I am so glad that you feel like you are in a good place. Lots of hugs. Enjoy your holiday and your sweet little fella :)
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    hungryhippohungryhippo member
    Big, big ((hugs)). I'm so sorry.
    TTC #1 since January 2011
    BFP#1 April 12, 2011, EDD December 24, 2011, strong heart beat at 7w3d, d&c at 10w6d
    BFP#2 Oct 24, 2011, natural miscarriage, EDD unknown
    After RPL testing my losses and subsequent infertility are considered unexplained.
    Cycle #22: Femara, TI, and progesterone = BFP!! 
    BFP#3 Dec 21, 2012. Beta #1 @14dpo = 134, progesterone 67.8. Beta #2 @ 17dpo = 664! Team green, EDD 9/1/13, healthy baby boy born 9/12/13!
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    FmrAFBrat said:

    I am so sorry for your loss, but I think you are AMAZING to have such strength & perspective during the holiday. ((HUGS)) to you & your little one. I hope his birthday and Christmas are wonderful for you both.

    All of this. ((Hugs)).

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    BFP #2 2/2011
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    Junebug060609Junebug060609 member
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    Just wanted to send you a big hug. I had a second loss over Thanksgiving last year, and so much of what you wrote was true for me, too.

    Having a LO here in our arms makes a huge difference. It doesnt take away the hurt, but it sure does help.

    BFP#2 2.5.11 (EDD 10.15.11) DS born 9.28.11

    BFP#4 8.27.13 (EDD 5.6.14) DD born 4.23.14

     

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    BrandyD06BrandyD06 member
    Mom2anAngel2 said:
    After a long week of waiting I finally miscarried in the very early hours this morning. I think that I can really sum up my feelings as being relieved. Don't get me wrong, we are sad, but it is different than last time. I don't know if it is because I never felt good about this pregnancy, if it is because last time we were 19 weeks as opposed to being first tri this time or if it is because I can hear DS "cracking himself up" in the next room (he currently thinks everything is hysterical). I just can't help but smile when I hear him laugh. Anyway, I am looking forward to enjoying DS's first Christmas and his 1st birthday just a few days later. Now I feel like I really can focus on celebrating and enjoying every second with him. It makes me feel a little bad that I am feeling okay about this. After we lost DS1 I felt as though my world had come crashing down. There really is no point to this post. I just really needed to get this off of my chest, and since no one knew we were pregnant, I figured you ladies would understand. I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas (if you celebrate Christmas) and happy new year!
    I am so sorry for your loss but like the other PP I am happy that you have found that peace. It has been for years since my daughter passed and seven since my miscarriage and I am still looking for that kind of peace.
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    melly918melly918 member
    I am sorry for your loss. Hugs! 
    DS born 2009
    BFP#2 ~ 8/2/11, EDD 4/11/12, D&C 9/12/11 at 9w5d
    BFP#3 ~ 4/15/12, EDD 12/21/12 ~ DD born 12/22/12
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    ksyknelvr73ksyknelvr73 member
    I'm so sorry for your loss.
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    BFP # 1 - 12/19/09 EDD 08/27/10 - D&C 1/26/10 @ 9w5d

    BFP # 2 - 06/05/10 EDD 02/17/11, DS1 born on 2/14/11

    BFP # 3 - 04/10/13 EDD 12/21/13 - D&C 05/15/13 @ 8w4d

    BFP # 4 - 07/27/13 EDD 04/08/14 - CP 07/29/13

     

    BFP # 5 - 09/14/13 EDD 05/28/14, DS2 born on 5/22/14 

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    Gknauff79Gknauff79 member
    Big Hugs. I'm really saddened to hear of your loss, but I am happy that you hAve DS to give you comfort.

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    BFP 07/27/2012 - Beta 1 - 169 @ 11 DPO, Beta 2 - 419 @ 13 DPO, DD Born on 04/04/2013.


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