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Needing some support

lmc28lmc28 member
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Well, turns out IUI#2 is a bust. Had my beta today and it was less than 1. IUI #1in October was 4. I am quickly going through the stages of grief in my office and cannot wait to leave to cry in my car. I am just so mad at myself for thinking this could be our month. I figured it was negative, because well it always it, but it stings to hear those words from the nurse. It was also great to hear a story about another couple who got pregnant in the year of the horse, so maybe 2014 is our year...

**loss mentioned**
Me: 30 DH: 31
We are unexplained
Married since 2009
TTC since 2010
RE since 9/2013
10/13 IUI#1 BFN
11/13 removed 6 polyps
12/13 IUI#2 BFN
1/14 IUI#3 BFN
Moving onto IVF 2/14
ER: 3/1 24 R, 16 M, 11F, 4 frosties ET: 3/6
C/P at 5w1d
FET#1 6/27/14 transferring 2 frosties
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Re: Needing some support

  • KR250222KR250222 member
    *hugs* I am so sorry. I have been in your shoes more than once. This journey is a struggle, for sure. But you will have your take-home baby someday. Keep trying to stay positive! I know it's hard to do that but I have found that it helps.

    In the meantime, if you celebrate Christmas please enjoy your holiday and drink some well deserved wine!

    TTC since 4/12 
    Me: 32, All clear, DH: 34, low count  
    IVF /ICSI: 4/18/13~ OHSS~Freeze-all 
    FET #1  6/28/13 BFN 
     FET #2  7/29/13 BFN
    FET #3  12/16/13 BFN
    *NEW RE*
    IVF/ICSI #2  3/18/14 BFP, twins m/c 9w4d
    IVF/ICSI #3 08/25/14 BFN
    FET #4 10/14 BFN
    IVF/ICSI #4 1/23/14 BFP Twins!
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  • BRaven985BRaven985 member
    I am so sorry!  It is a horrible feeling....and I swear emotions seem to run so much higher when there is no where to go release them.  But please don't be angry with yourself....thinking positive can do wonders.  You shouldn't stop believing that each cycle is gonna be the one....cause one day it will be!
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    Me: 36, unexplained 
    Him: 36, slightly low count 
    TTC since May 2011 
    IUI #1 w/Clomid - 10/2012 BFN 
    Break for cysts 
    IUI #2 w/Clomid - 12/2012 BFN 
    Break for cysts 
    IUI #3 w/Clomid - 2/2013 BFN 
    Break for sanity and to work on health with diet, exercise, and acupuncture 
    IVF/ICSI #1 - BCP, 150 Follistim, 150 Menopur, and Ganirelix
    Retrieval 9/11/2013 - 31 eggs, 17 fertilized, 3 blasts frozen 
    Transfer cancelled - Moderate OHSS 
    FET #1 - 10/22/2013 Transferred 2 (1 did not survive thaw) BFP resulted in CP 
    IVF/ICSI #2 - EPP - Starting stims 1/5/2014 (100 Follistim, 150 Menopur)
    All welcome!


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  • mmhopefulmmhopeful member
    I'm sorry.....

    You are not alone....You SHOULD have had every hope that this cycle would work.  Why not you?  Your turn IS coming!  Don't give up and totally rely on us all here....be good to yourself and let your DH support you when you get home from work.  

    Hugs....

    ************** Siggy Warning************


    Married August 2012 -- Me (40 yrs old) My husband (45 yrs. old) 

    RE referral from ObGYN in late Jan. 2013 -- Testing Confirms Unexplained IF 

    IUI #"s1 - 3 (Femara + IUI) April - June 2013 - all BFN

      Decided to do IVF... Began stimming on September 10th!  Egg Retrieval 9/20/13.  19 eggs: 6 to mature to freeze after 6 fertilized with ICSI

     3 morula stage embryos transferred on 9/25/13.....Beta #1 on 10/4/13/ = 7.5  Beta #2 on 10/6/13 =  negative

      IVF#2 - Lupron plan  (set to begin on 10/28/13)  (Planning on thawing and fertilizing our 6 eggs with ICSI as well as all of the mature eggs they retrieve with this fresh cycle.)

     Late October 2013 - ectopic pregnancy - methotrexate injection....benched 3 months

    CD1 - 12/5/13...Lupron set to start on 12/26/13; CD1 - 1/2/14....Baseline 1/3/14....begin follistim tonight and continue with lupron.  (Got my calendar today!  IVF#2 is a go!)

    ER = 1/14/14  (11 eggs....9 were mature. 9 fertilized.  Of the 6 mature eggs we thawed, only 4 fertilized.  At this time, we have 13 eggs fertilized and growing.  Waiting for news about a 3-day or 5-day transfer.)

    ET = 1/19/14  (5dt).....3 blastocysts transferred!   (All nine embryos didn't make it to freeze.  =(  )

    Beta #1 = 1/28/14   (2 weeks after ER)  BFP! 209 (9dp5dt)   EDD 10/7/14

    Beta #2 - 1/30/14  (11 dp5dt) 302

    Beta #3 - 2/3/14  (15 dp5dt)  1222 

    Ultrasound set for 2/17/14......TWINS!        Twin A - HR 124 bpm; Twin B - HR 126 bpm

    Final Ultrasound with RE 3/10/14 - Twin A - HR 176 bpm; Twin B - HR 177 bpm.

     PAIF/SAIF Welcome! 

     

     

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  • ksgsmuksgsmu member
    So sorry.... so something nice for yourself ( hugs)
    ***siggy/ticker warning***

    Me:36 DH:38 TTC#1 since 4/2012
    Me DX: Hashimotos,Hypothyroid, DOR, MTHFR,  DH: normal

     IUI #1-#4 BFNs and a few cancelled cycles in the mix.
    - poor responder
    ***Suprise BFP on 6/13/13. Natural MC @6wks 3days
    IVF#1 and 2- Cancelled due to no response on max stimms
    FET 5/20- BFP
    1st Beta- 641
    2nd beta- 2166
    Sono- TWINS!!!!
    Two Boys! Born January 2015 @36 weeks.  Healthy and no NICU!  So blessed!



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  • LSN8308LSN8308 member
    I'm so sorry, it's tough to stay optimistic when it comes to IF but it will happen and all your struggles will be well worth it one day *hugs*
    **SIGGY TICKER WARNING**
    Me: 27 High FSH (POF?) DH: 33 Slightly Low Morphology / Married Aug '08 TTC since 7/2009
    6 rounds of clomid = no luck
    IVF w/ ICSI & AZH #1 - Jan/2011 = ET cancelled OHSS
    FET #1 & #2 - March/2011 & June/2011 = Chemical Preg.
    IVF w/ Half ICSI #2 New RE - May/2012 = BFN!
    May '12 - Sep '13 - Took A Break
    Dec '13 IVF w/ Half ICSI #3!!!!! Switched RE
    Protocol - Lupron trigger/Follistim/Ganirelix/Estrace/Vivelle/Crinone
    12/27 - BFP! TWINS! EDD 9/3/14 ...Team PURPLE!
    6/27/14 - Emergency C/S @ 30w2d - Baby A 2lb 14oz, Baby B 2lb 11 oz
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  • O2girlO2girl member
    Hugs... I know how deep the words cut... Even though we know it already, it just seems so final once the words are spoken.
    Me: 38
    DX:  Adenomyosis, Compounded MTHFR, PAI-1 4G variant

    DH: 34
    MFI due to Testicular Cancer

    Married March 2012 <3
    IVF w/ICSI #1
    10 little polar bears
    FET #1 with 2 polar bears ~Nov 6, 2013 BFN :(
    FET # 2 with 2 more polar bears ~March 19, 2014 BFP!!!
    Beta 1= 276
    Beta 2= 662
    4/19/14 ~ baby A became an angel
    5/02/14 ~ baby B became an angel
    5/3/14 ~ D&C
    FET #3 with 1 male polar bear ~October 3, 2014
    October 13, 2014 ~ BFN
    Fur Children:  Memphis 3y, Dutch 3y, Marcel 2y, Meadow 1y



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  • Lm92599Lm92599 member
    So sorry :( Its just not fair
    Me: 35  low AMH, normal FSH
    DH: 31 Fair DNA fragmentation test :( Normal SA
    TTC: since March 2012

    09-21-13 start IVF #1
    10-04-13 ER 6 eggs, 6 mature, all 6 fertilized. 3 frozen
    10-08-13 fresh transfer canceled due to high progesterone
    waiting for FET
    10-18 started BCP
    10-29 baseline appt scheduled
    11-20 scheduled date of FET #1
    12-2 BFN :(

    3-1-14 moving on to the next step. Switched RE. going to plan 3 IUI cycles while saving for IVF#2

    April 2014- IUI#1  BFN
    May 2014- IUI#2 BFN
    June 2014 IUI#3 BFN

    Taking a break for a while, focusing on our wedding.

    Sept 24th missed period! Surprise natural BFP
    10-15-14 first ultrasound
    06-05-15 EDD

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