June 2013 Moms

Anxiety

Anyone else dealing with anxiety/paranoia? I already posted below about N sleeping late this morning and freaking me out because I couldn't tell if she was breathing. I ended up waking her up. And I posted a week ago about freaking out about her napping at a friends' house. But it's not just N. Last night hubby went out. At 11 I texted him to see when he'd be home and he said 45 min. I woke up at 1 and hadn't heard from him so I started texting him and calling. No response for 20 min so I'm thinking he's dead in a car wreck somewhere. I start trying to find the # of the guy he was with. Finally, he answers the phone and says his phone was on the passenger seat and he didn't hear it ringing on his drive home. He was very apologetic for not updating me.

Why does my mind automatically think the worst? Does anyone else have anxiety as well?
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Re: Anxiety

  • I worry about these kinds of things as well.  For me, I just think about how I have so much to lose.  This beautiful perfect baby that took us so long to have, my wonderful husband who is my best friend, we are in mostly great health, professionally thriving, we are not rich but we feel very comfortable financially due to some investment decisions and our lifestyle.  We don't take it for granted and talk every day about how lucky we are and what a great life we are living and how happy LO has made us and complemented our wonderful relationship.  I think feeling like this makes me anxious because of the potential of losing it.  DH just left to go to the gym, it is a straight shot about 1 1/2 miles down the road and I told him to be careful driving.  The worry drives me crazy.  I am finally comfortable with people holding LO, I literally did not want anyone even TOUCHING him for the first 5 months.  That has gotten better though.

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  • I have postpartum depression, and anxiety is part of that, though I was anxious before too. I worry about fricking EVERYTHING. Illnesses, something bad happening to any of us, people bullying LO in the future or worse, DH not looking before he crosses the street, neither of us ever getting a job again, neither of us ever getting good jobs again, me never making it as an artist (and by "making it" I mean doing what it takes to actually realize my projects and maybe get published, not even make money, which is iffy at the best of times, which this is not). Me not managing to get my a## in gear to be a good and attentive mother, the knockout game, pesticides and GMOs, my thyroid, maybe LO isn't getting stimulated enough....It looks so silly when I write it out, but this is seriously what I think about unless I can distract myself. The degree to which I do it is not normal, but I think it's normal to be more anxious as a new parent.
  • That exact thing has happened to me with DH. It sucks but I totally understand where you're coming from. I wish I had advice but all I have are ((hugs))

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