I'm so anxious about returning to work on Wednesday. I'm scared and very nervous about it. Even though last year I had to endure this but it's like a double whammy of having to do this again around the same time of year. I'm just not in the mood of dealing with the awkwardness of people as well as me having to be strong for others when they are in a crisis ( 911 operator). I'm hoping and praying that the jobs I have applied for something comes thru by the beginning of the year. I need to be somewhere else where I don't have the reminders of being pregnant, people knowing I was pregnant. I just miss my babies so much and knowing that this was supposed to be my last week of work to prepare for Olivia's arrival as well when I return to work it will two months that I said goodbye to her. And if returning to work wasn't hard enough I received in the mail the other day my newborn starter formula. Like can I just get a break??!!!
I'm just on an emotional roller coaster and just ready for something to not make me feel just so sad and anxious.
Hugs to all of you ladies during this holiday season!!!
Re: Anxiety about returning to work ....
TTC since 2008
Dh:34, no issues. Me:31, Endo, slightly hypothyroid, deformed ovary, paracentric inversion.
4 Gonal-F, Cetrotide, HcG, Crinone +TI cycles= all BFN
Lap in 2012 to remove large unresolving cyst discovered endo and double lobed ovary.
6 Gonal-F, Cetrotide, HcG, Crinone IUI cycles= All BFN,
1st IVF w/ICSI- June '13 Antagonist: Gonal-F, Menopur, Ganirelix, HcG, Estradiol, Crinone= 7 retrieved, 4 mature, 1 unfertilized, 2 abnormally fertilized, 1 normally fertilized. 2DT of only embryo and our miracle BFP.
Our beloved baby boy was born sleeping Oct. 13, 2013 due to pROM/IC/Uterine infection.
2nd IVF w/ICSI- Feb. '14 EPP/lupron/antagonist: Estrace, lupron, HGH, Gonal-F, Menopur, HcG, PIO, lovenox, doxy/dex.=21 retrieved, 16 mature, 15 fertilized!! 5dt of 1 blast/ 6 frozen. BFP! Beta 1 9dp5dt:83.9 Beta 2: 11dp5dt: 145.2 Beta 3 14dp5dt: 497 Please be our sticky rainbow baby!
8/12-Suprise BFP- Sweet Bunny Born Sleeping 11/21/12 (19 weeks)
-5/7/13- MMC (8 Weeks)
11/6/13- BO discovered at 7 weeks- natural MC 11/25/13
8/14- Surpise IF dx...low AMH (.24)- moving on to IVF
IVF #1- 11/14- 6R5M4F=2 perfect frosties
12/19/14- FET of 2 embabies = BFP!!! One Little Bean EDD: 9/3/15
Everyone Welcome.
Sending prayers your way! Hopy something new comes through for you job wise. I will be thinking about you and your sweet babies on Wednesday.
Brooke Elizabeth born Feb 17, 2013 grew wings May 9, 2013 @ 11 weeks & 4 days old from SIDS