Late Term and Child Loss

Thought the 3rd time would be my charm :(

Hello Ladies, I would like to inftroduce myself and tell you a little bit about my story. I have had 2 early MC one at 4 weeks in November 2012 and another at 5 weeks in May 2013. I decided to go see an RE to get some testing done to see if there was an underlying problem. After many tests and lots of $, my RE determined that I have a "wacky" immune system and began me on a regiment of all sorts of stuff. Here it goes...Acyclovair (to combat my immune system), high dose folic acid, B 12, baby aspirin and a muti vitamin....then in September he had me come in for a scan to determine if we could start trying again. He saw a "residule cyst" he claimed was leftover from ovulation and said we would have to wait another cycle and then scan again. In October, I went back and got the go ahead to start trying again but with some "assistance this time". He put me on Clomid, an intralipids infusion IV (to keep my killer cells at bay), and an hcg trigger shot. I used ovulation tests and I ended up getting a BFP at the end of November. I was very excited but extremely cautious. He had me start progesterone suppositiories and lovenox shots immediatley. I began feeling intense symptoms and it just felt different this time. I went in for my beta tests roughly every 48 hours. My numbers were increasing but not doubling every 48 hours. Every day I would wait for that phone call holding my breath while a less than optimisic nurse would say, "well it increased but not as much as we like". I started to get very worried due to my betas and cramping on my right side. I kept asking to be seen for a scan and they would just tell me that they wouldnt be able to see anything yet. On Thursday last week (5 weeks and 4 days), I called my RE's office in the morning and demanded that they see me otherwise I would be going to the emergency room. They made me an afternoon appointment. My DH met me there as I left from work. My RE gave me a scan and just said, "yep, I think this is ectopic" like it was no big deal. He explained that he would give me a shot of methotrexate to "assist the process" and how I was lucky that I caught this when I did because I may have had to have surgery and could have ended up losing a tube. We were devestated. I was really trying to hold it together but I just couldnt. How could this happen? I did everything I was supposed to do. :-(. We left the office and I swear I cried for 2 days straight. I was so emotionally drained and physically as well because of all of the medication. I am really trying not to give up hope. I know that in the past these message boards have really helped me. My friends will try to comfort me, but unless they've been here, they really cannot begin to understand how this feels. Thank you ladies for listening to my story....I look forward to connecting with you <3

BFP #1 10/28/12 EDD 07/09/12 M/C on 11/5/12 Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers

Re: Thought the 3rd time would be my charm :(

  • I am so so sorry for your losses :( I know how it feels to be worn down by medications and treatments- please be gentle with yourself in the days ahead.
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    TTC since 2008
    Dh:34, no issues.  Me:31, Endo, slightly hypothyroid, deformed ovary, paracentric inversion.
    4 Gonal-F, Cetrotide, HcG, Crinone +TI cycles= all BFN
    Lap in 2012 to remove large unresolving cyst discovered endo and double lobed ovary.
     6 Gonal-F, Cetrotide, HcG, Crinone IUI cycles= All BFN,
    1st IVF w/ICSI- June '13 Antagonist: Gonal-F, Menopur, Ganirelix, HcG, Estradiol, Crinone= 7 retrieved, 4 mature, 1 unfertilized, 2 abnormally fertilized, 1 normally fertilized.  2DT of only embryo and our miracle BFP.
    Our beloved baby boy was born sleeping Oct. 13, 2013 due to pROM/IC/Uterine infection.
    2nd IVF w/ICSI- Feb. '14 EPP/lupron/antagonist: Estrace, lupron, HGH, Gonal-F, Menopur, HcG, PIO, lovenox, doxy/dex.=21 retrieved, 16 mature, 15 fertilized!!  5dt of 1 blast/ 6 frozen. BFP!  Beta 1 9dp5dt:83.9  Beta 2: 11dp5dt: 145.2  Beta 3  14dp5dt: 497  Please be our sticky rainbow baby!

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  • I am so sorry. Recurrent loss is so incredibly hard. Please know you aren't alone. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
  • I'm sorry for your losses. Hugs
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    BFP #2, EDD 12/26/14, please be our rainbow.

  • I'm so sorry for your losses. ((Hugs))
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    Me: 32 DH: 33  High School Sweethearts  Married 5/28/2005
    DS1 born 6/5/10 at 40 weeks via emergency c-section due to fetal distress and IUGR caused by placental insufficiency
    DS2 born still 8/28/13 at 32 weeks via emergency c-section due to a complete placental abruption - cause unknown
    Baby #3 on the way, EDD 2/29/16.  Originally twins, but we said goodbye to Baby B at 8 weeks.
  • I am so sorry you are going through this you might find more support on the miscarriage or pregnancy loss board this board is mainly woman who have lost babies late in pregnancy and infant loss. I am so sorry you are going through this I had two m/c as well as lost my DD at 38 wks 4 days it is very hard to lose a pregnancy no matter when it happens.
    DS- Brenden born 11/13/93 Missed miscarriage on March 6, 2007 @ 9 weeks D&C on March 8th 2007. Riley Annalise born 2/25/08 ( 3 weeks early weighing 8 lbs 12.8 oz.) Chemical pregnancy 3/2010. Sydney Adriana born sleeping on 9/30/11 weighing 10lbs 3 oz at 38wks 4 days. Trinity Alivia born via c section at 36 wks 4 days weighing 9 lbs. 5.7 oz. She is our amazing rainbow baby!!! Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers Lilypie First Birthday tickers PGAL buddy drvst8
  • I'm so sorry for your losses. I've lost two consecutively. My son at 27 weeks in September, and I am waiting to miscarry as the doctor says I have an undeveloped baby (empty sak). Don't give up, there is a rainbow waiting for you! XO
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  • I am so sorry for your loss. I have also gone through the same thing. I know how hard it can be. I have had a mc and 3 blighted ovums early on. Like you I thought the 3rd one was the one but nope. then started to get tested and all and got the go ahead and thought the 4th we were sure to get our little one, but it didnt work out either.

    Stay strong and don't give up. Give yourself time to heal emotionally and physically before trying again!

    Hugs and prayers going your way!
  • Thank you ladies <3 I'm trying to take it one day at a time. Seems like it's hitting me even harder this time as it's the holiday season and this baby was supposed to be due on my birthday :(
    BFP #1 10/28/12 EDD 07/09/12 M/C on 11/5/12 Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers
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