Faith Friday

schulme2 · December 2013

Through this journey, what question has created the biggest struggle with your faith?

Have you found the answer or are you still struggling with it?

Any new-found strengths or struggles this week?

schulme2 · December 2013

For me, what keeps replaying in my head is "If God loves me so much, how could he hurt me so much?"

Most days I do ok with this and tell myself he didn't do this to hurt me but to place me where I need to be but there are still a lot of days that that answer won't suffice and I go back to really struggling with that.

Nothing else new. I still feel pretty stuck and am having a hard time getting excited/ready for the holidays.

bunnybun4 · December 2013

after three consecutive losses in one year- why do we even pray or ask God for things if I keep losing babies after I pray to get good news?

For the most part I feel like I have the answer...that we don't pray to God like he is a vending machine...asking for this and that and what we want. We pray to God to be close to God and he will supply us with the grace we need for any situation. I just have to believe that there are so many variables and things that are out of my understanding and that Bunny is not sad or hurting for anything right now. Some days I can believe this and other days I am right back to square one questioning it.

I am still feeling pretty good...the holidays are tough and I feel like I go from one extreme from the next but for the most part I feel like I am in a pretty peaceful place and I am very thankful for that.

BrittianyM · December 2013

Through this journey, what question has created the biggest struggle with your faith? "Why did you allow this? What is the reason I am not allowed to have my daughter? "What could I have possbily done to deserve this?" I keep asking these questions.

Have you found the answer or are you still struggling with it? I have not found the aswers and I believe I won't tell I get to Heaven. I won't care then because I will have my daughter back in my arms.

Any new-found strengths or struggles this week? The strength I have found this week it just how blessed I really am. I got to know my daughter, I got to have moments with her that no one else had, I got to show and tell her how much I love her and know how much she loves me. For that, I am blessed even if her time was short. During her 11 weeks and 4 days, time seemed to have slowed way down. Which now when I look back, I am very grateful for that. It means those moments with her seem to last a lifetime.

diamante1181 · December 2013

Through this journey, what question has created the biggest struggle with your faith?
If God chose us to be the parents of these babies, why did He choose for them to die?

Have you found the answer or are you still struggling with it?
Of course I still struggle with it, but mostly I am resigned to the fact that I will have to die to get an answer.

Any new-found strengths or struggles this week?

Despite everything, I do feel stronger in my faith these past few weeks. I had a hard time praying until one day I could just say what was in my heart, and hope that God understands. I have seen a few birth announcements and surprisingly did not feel jealous, only sad that I will never hold Sophie and Gabriel.

stefuge · December 2013

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Through this journey, what question has created the biggest struggle with your faith?
What was the point? We were not trying to get pregnant when we conceived Colton, it was a surprise. We actually felt like our family was complete and we weren't going to have more children. And then we got pregnant and we were so excited! God opened our eyes to this desire we didn't realize we had, to grow our family more, and we were so excited for our little boy to be here. And then we lost him, and now I feel like something is missing. I went from feeling content to feeling achingly lonely and I don't understand why He would do that.

Have you found the answer or are you still struggling with it?
The only answer I've come up with is that we were maybe too content and that He has something else planned for us. I believe there was a reason this happened, we just may never understand.

Any new-found strengths or struggles this week?
Struggling with sadness, feeling depressed. Trying to not let it affect my relationship with DH or DS, but it is hard. DH grieving has been so different than mine, and even though I know he has been greatly affected by our loss, it just look so different. I feel like I can barely function, he seems totally normal.

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