I'm really glad we got a third kid even though H really didn't want one for a long time.
When we found out that A was a girl I started building up a deep and hidden resentment because H said that if we had one of each we should be done. I knew I wanted more. Desperately. Now we have E and I'm able to let go of that resentment I never wanted but couldn't help having in my heart of hearts.
That sounds awful. But I know I'm not the only person ever to feel those kinds of things.
I said I was going to stick to the want/need/wear/read but I fail at that, too. I just can't help it. We say no all year and I can't help splurging on them at Christmas.
Oh! Also I felt awful leaving lo today, I dropped him off at daycare and he was trying the whole time it took me to get in the car and everything. I felt like crap then too.=(
1999- Dx Prolactinoma
8-25-2012 - Lucas born via C-section at 38 Weeks 2 days
I took DD to daycare today even though the in-laws are visiting and they wanted to keep her home with them. They have been with her for the past 6 days and are coming to visit and stay with us again in 7 weeks, so it's not like they won't see her for a long time. I just think she has more fun at daycare with the other kids, and is happy being in her routine. She also is fine with my leaving her at daycare vs. screaming when I try to leave her at home with them. But I do feel a little guilty about it.
BFP #1 9/2010 (lost our baby at 21 weeks)
BFP #2 8/2011 (ectopic pregnancy)
BFP #3 10/2011 (chemical pregnancy)
BFP #4 12/2011 (Abigail born 8/15/12)
BFP #5 5/2013 (Griffin born 1/23/14 with heart defects, now repaired!)
I'm a little jelly that my friend's newborn is so beautiful. DH saw a picture and said "she looks so normal already". Our B came out super squished and took a few weeks to grow into her features.
I thought of a gift my mom would love after we fought about gifts but I'll never get it for her. I can't afford to set the precedent (financially or emotionally).
I'm really missing when DS was a newborn. That first year was so special with him. Also hard with exclusive pumping & just being a new parent; but now when I look back I just want to do it all over again & get those moments back. He seems like such a big boy now & getting more and more independent everyday. It makes me sad. I love him to bits. Maybe this is a sign it's time to get preggers again.
That was hard to type. I usually keep everything bottled up inside.
I took what amounted to a mental health day from work today. I didn't sleep well, had a scratchy throat, and wanted time to work on my grad school finals. I relaxed, worked, and did house work. I also picked up DD early from daycare so we could hang out before my class tonight. A very good day!
I said I was going to stick to the want/need/wear/read but I fail at that, too. I just can't help it. We say no all year and I can't help splurging on them at Christmas.
We did three "wants" and no need for DD! We meant to stick with four but found a few cute toys. She doesn't have many toys, so I feel okay about this decisions. Also, the three wants were a play lunchbox, a play farm, and some crayons. Not exactly "break the bank" gifts.
Re: flame free tuesday confessions
1999- Dx Prolactinoma
8-25-2012 - Lucas born via C-section at 38 Weeks 2 days
1999- Dx Prolactinoma
8-25-2012 - Lucas born via C-section at 38 Weeks 2 days
I thought of a gift my mom would love after we fought about gifts but I'll never get it for her. I can't afford to set the precedent (financially or emotionally).