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+SouthernMomma++SouthernMomma+ member
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This is probably the wrong board to talk about this, so I'll apologize in advance If so... Just need a place to 'say it'

Im feeling really over whelmed and emotional the closer I get to my due date, January 5th. Im positive I would have went 2-3 weeks early again so I cant help but remember I am suppose to be holding our LO at Christmas.... This is so freaking depressing.

Definitely not the kind of mood/state I want to be in for Christmas :(

Im so ready for this year to be OVER!!!!!!!!!!

 

  

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  • pettycrockerpettycrocker member
    Big hugs, girl. These things are so hard :( 


    Spontaneous pregnancy #1
    DD1 July 31, 2011

    Trying for #2 since Oct 11
    732973 Clomid Cycles
    2 IUIs 
    3 Fresh IVFs= 1 Ectopic treated with MTX
    Spontaneous pregnancy #2= Ectopic #2= lost left tube
    Spontaneous pregnancy #3= DD2 January 29, 2016
    Spontaneous pregnancy #4= Ectopic #3
    Spontaneous pregnancy #5= Baby #3 is a BOY!!! 



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  • KC1212KC1212 member
    I'm so sorry. I was going to announce either on Xmas or at DS's 2nd bday party :(

    Sometimes it hits me that I should be pregnant right now- or I'll look at pics from Halloween and think "wow I was pregnant there". I cannot even imagine going through this more than once (nor do I want to imagine it) but my heart breaks for you because I thank god every day my loss was an early one.

    I'm so sorry! ((Hugs))
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    Me: 27 DH: 33
    Married 6 years
    Conceived DS after 4 years of MFI

    TTC # 2 (not trying,not preventing ever)
    May 2013 - August 2013 Timed Intercourse = BFN
    September 2013 Timed Intercourse, Weekly Acupuncture, Herbs=BFN
    October 2013 Timed Intercourse, Weekly Acupuncture, Herbs, and "warming foods" = BFP
    Beta #1 19, Beta #2 18 Progesterone 4.6 Miscarried 11/9/13
    November 2013 - Benched, waiting for first post-loss AF.
    No longer benched per New RE/OB!
    Jan. 15 2014 - BFP. HCG 3900 - Ectopic :( 
    Jan. 16 2014 Left tube removed and D&C
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  • CheesyPeasCheesyPeas member
    I'm so sorry. EDDs and loss anniversaries are the worst. (Hugs)
    November 2010 - 10.5 week loss  o:) 
    October 2011 - DS (7)  <3 
    July 2014 - Stillborn DD (24 weeks)  o:) 
    August 2015 - DD (3)  <3 
    April 2018 - 5 week loss o:) 

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  • Jen071407Jen071407 member
    ((Hugs)) I'm so sorry :( I already get anxiety over my approaching March due date. Loss is so hard, and unfortunately way too many of us know that first hand.

    Two DDs 10/08 and 08/10, no primary IF
    TTC #3 since 10/2011 - dx unexplained/weak ovulation
     3 BFN clomid + TI cycles, 5 BFN clomid/gonal f IUIs, 1 mmc IUI
    2/19/2014 IVF #1 Unexpected low E2 (oversuppressed) -> increased to max doses = 3 or 4 follicles, converting to IUI
    BFFP Saw 1 beautiful heartbeat at 6w6d, follow up u/s at 9w showed mmc. Eff this.
    NTNP 5/2014-9/2014, OPKs and TI 10/2014 - 1/2015. 
    RPL testing all normal, AFC, AMH, and FSH all normal. 
    IVF 1.2 1/22/2014 natural cycle start, AFC 28, 300 gonal f/150menopur. 
    ER 2/3/15 14R 8M 3F w/ICSI Day 5 transfer on 2/8/15 of one "Grade A+" blast and have TWO frosties! 

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  • +SouthernMomma++SouthernMomma+ member

    Y'all are so sweet, thank you ladies... I don't mean to lesson my other 3 (maybe 4) losses by any means.. Because each time i was pregnant I woke up enchanted at the thought of having a little life growing inside me... but this was the first one we actually tried for, the first one that was planned, the first one that we knew without a doubt there was nothing more we wanted. I hope that doesn't sound harsh, Im just saying this one is so much harder to me because I was so 'invested' ?

    DH is gone for the week, I sure am glad I have yall!! HUGS BACK TO EVERYONE!!!!!!!

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  • tuscanbride2007tuscanbride2007 member
    I am so sorry. Loss is hard and IF sucks.

    ((HUGS))

    BFP #1 12.24.07 - DD born @ 39w1d on 08.26.08
    BFP #2 08.04.11 - DD born still @ 37w3d on 03.25.12

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    TTC #3 since May 2012

    BFP #3 12.29.12 - CP @ 4w2d on 01.02.13
    BFP #4 10.17.13 - CP @ 4w2d on 10.23.13
    BFP #5 04.06.14 - MMC 05.07.14

    No longer trying to conceive.

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  • freakyfastfreakyfast member
    +SouthernMomma+ my due date was a week ago yesterday, and I feel your pain.  :(  Lots of ((((HUGS)))) 



      


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  • Momarazzi007Momarazzi007 member
    I'm so sorry. Sometimes I watch dd and remember she was supposed to be twins and I just feel it so bad. The baby we lost before her was due date of April 1st, I used to celebrate April Fools Day and play so many pranks, now I don't even leave the house if I don't have to. It is especially hard this time of year knowing what should have happened. I wish you some comfort and peace and send you bugs hugs!!!
    January 2007- Stop BCP! Let's DO this!
    June 2010- MFI. BS. IVF! Ectopic. BS. image

    November 2010- FAILED FET! BS!
    January 2011- BFP FET! TWINS!     February 2011- lost twin. BS. image

    SEPTEMBER 2011- DD Born! Most awesome girl in the world!
    November 2013- FAILED FET! BS! (screw you November FETs)
    April Fresh Cycle, FAILED. Frozen embryos frozen for future FETs.
    FROZEN CYCLE JUNE! BFP
    BABY BOY VINCENT!
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    We can't wait to meet you!
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  • tachetache member
    Hugs! I went thru this in November and it's terrible. I know it's hard but I really focused on DS and how if we did have another right now I wouldn't have as much time and attention for him. It really helped especially at Halloween. I just kept telling myself I may have been in the hospital and not even be able to see DS in his costume. I also drank some wine!
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  • +SouthernMomma++SouthernMomma+ member
    Thank you for the kind words everyone. I appreciate all the support!! Today is a new day and I'm feeling a little better... Hope it stays that way! More hugs back to everyone!
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  • CeCe8579CeCe8579 member
    Hugs!!!! I have one with that would be due in December and one lost at the beginning of January. It is rough. I'll be praying for you!
    Carly
    (Former UN: iloveshanej)

    Birdie born 05/01/2007
    Rainbow Surprise Baby due 05/26/2017                                          


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