I have become a crazy lady

Re: I have become a crazy lady

• STBMrsMiller member

  December 2013

  I didn't realize how crazy I was being until a few days after I stopped my meds last cycle. Then I apologized to my husband.

  

  TTC #1 since June 2012
  Me (28) - DOR (AFC <10, undetectable AMH, >10 FSH), homozygous E429A MTHFR
  DH (29) - MFI low count and morphology

  September 2013 IUI#1 - Clomid + Trigger + IUI = BFN
  October 2013 IUI#2 - Letrozole + Menopur + Trigger + IUI = BFN

  Nov 2013 IVF/ICSI #1 - Protocol: BCP prep, high doses Menopur and Bravelle (12 days), ganirelex
  Results: 5 retrieved / mature, 4 fertilized, 1 arrested and 3 complex abnormal after day 3 PGS = Cancelled after ER
  Jan/Feb 2014 IVF/ICSI #2 - Protocol: Estrogen priming, high doses Menopur and Bravelle (11 days), microdose lupron
  Results: Cancelled after 11 days of stims due to low response and E2 levels
  Feb 2014 IVF/ICSI #3 - Protocol: No prep, low dose Menopur (6 days), ganirelex, Bravelle booster with trigger
  Results: 1 retrieved / 0 mature = Cancelled after ER

  Officially moving on to embryo adoption! We used and love Embryo Adoption Services of Cedar Park
  October 2014 FET #1 - BCP/Lupron/Estrace/Prometrium, transferred 2 of 4 from match #1, BFN
  December 2014 FET #2 - BCP/Lupron/Estrace/Prometrium, transferred 2 of 4 from match #1, BFN
  March 2015 FET #3 - BCP/Lupron/Estrace/Prometrium, transferred 2 of 6 from match #2, BFN
  May 2015 FET #4 - BCP/Lupron/Estrace/Prometrium, lost 2 to thaw, transferred 2 of 6 from match #2, BFN
  October 2015 FET #5 - Natural cycle, lost 1 from match #3 and 1 from clinic backup to thaw, transferred 1 backup, BFN
  February 2016 FET #6 - Natural cycle, transferred 1 from match #4, B FREAKING P!
  Beta 1 = 162, Beta 2 = 316, doubling just over 48 hours

   
  

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• herecomesthesun member

  December 2013

  I was fine on injects and still. Even Mr. HCTS made a comment last week that the injects didn't bring the crazy like Clomid did.

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• kz's_girlygirl member

  December 2013

  I can definitely tell a difference when I'm on vs off meds. DH calls it roid rage, lol.

  
  
  
  TTC since 2008
  Dh:34, no issues.  Me:31, Endo, slightly hypothyroid, deformed ovary, paracentric inversion.
  4 Gonal-F, Cetrotide, HcG, Crinone +TI cycles= all BFN
  Lap in 2012 to remove large unresolving cyst discovered endo and double lobed ovary.
   6 Gonal-F, Cetrotide, HcG, Crinone IUI cycles= All BFN,
  1st IVF w/ICSI- June '13 Antagonist: Gonal-F, Menopur, Ganirelix, HcG, Estradiol, Crinone= 7 retrieved, 4 mature, 1 unfertilized, 2 abnormally fertilized, 1 normally fertilized.  2DT of only embryo and our miracle BFP.
  Our beloved baby boy was born sleeping Oct. 13, 2013 due to pROM/IC/Uterine infection.
  2nd IVF w/ICSI- Feb. '14 EPP/lupron/antagonist: Estrace, lupron, HGH, Gonal-F, Menopur, HcG, PIO, lovenox, doxy/dex.=21 retrieved, 16 mature, 15 fertilized!!  5dt of 1 blast/ 6 frozen. BFP!  Beta 1 9dp5dt:83.9  Beta 2: 11dp5dt: 145.2  Beta 3  14dp5dt: 497  Please be our sticky rainbow baby!
  
  
  

  
  

  
  
  

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• FishyMom member

  December 2013

  During my last IVF I cried uncontrollably because I did not want to brush my teeth.. And then cried even harder because I was crying over brushing my teeth and I knew it was the hormones. My poor DH had no idea what to do so he laughed, and that got me right out of my funk!

  ******************** BFP Warning *******************

   

  I'm 29 and DH is 32 we have a MFI (low count) 

  IVF #1 starting in August. ER 9/5/13 23 eggs we are fertilizing 15. 9 frozen
  ET 9/10 - transferred 1 perfect 5AA blast
  7dp5dt BFP ~~ Beta on 9/19 - 77.4 Beta #2 on 9/21 - 357
  Low heartbeat on 10/7 86, lower heartbeat on 10/11 76, no heartbeat 10/14/13. D&C 10/15/13
  Tests revealed MTHFR c677t mutation, put on Folgard.
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  FET #1 1/6/14 - 4BB blast - BFN

  FET #2 - 3/3/14 - 5AB Blast -- Beta #1 3/12 - 152 -- Beta #2 3/14 - 358

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  FET #3 06/09/16 - 5AB Blast - Beta #1 6/18- 245 -- Beta #2 06/20 - 600

   PAIF/SAIF/PAL/SAL welcome!

  
  

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• violetmarie61516 member

  December 2013

  I will let you know if about two weeks when I start stims if mine change.  Poor DH, hopefully it's not too bad.  I'm already moody!

  TTC #1 Since May 2011 ~ Everyone Welcome
  

  Me (34): DOR d/t chemo/radiation, Immature Endometrial Lining, Hypothyroidism
  

  DH (35): MFI d/t testicular torsion and removal, Low T, Oligospermia, Anti-Sperm Antibodies, Currently on T supplements
  Sept '11-April '13 ~  Testing, failed multiple MFI treatments, saving & TONS of praying
  January 2014 ~ IVF/ICSI & PGS ~ no response to stims ~ converted to IUI ~ BFN
  February 2014 ~ On to donor embyros ~ 5 blasts!!! 
  March 2014 ~ FET #1 ~ Transferred 2 blasts ~ BFN
  July 2014 ~ Kliman's mock cycle with endometrial function test
  Sample too small for EFT, HE slide showed immature cells
  New protocol planned, saving for another biopsy for EFT
  January 2015 ~ Considering adoption options
  April 2015 ~ Privately arranged adoption of planned pregnancy
  DD#1 ~ Lillyana Violet Marie born 6/15/16, Finalized adoption 12/20/16
  July 13, 2018 ~ BFP....WTF?!?!
  7/16 Beta #1 ~ 466...7/18 Beta #2 ~ 1,077...7/23 Beta #3 ~ 5,291
  7/23 US #1 ~ 1 gestational sac seen and yolk sac
  7/30 US #2 and 1st OB appt ~ 1 perfectly round gestational sac, 1 perfect yolk sac and 1 teeny tiny heart beat seen!!!
  

  
  

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• Lady2010 member

  December 2013

  Thanks Ladies - glad to know I am not alone.

  
  

  I got a little moody with the clomid, but this is getting ridiculous with the stims!  I am off to my u/s and labs.  REALLY hoping they tell me I am ready to trigger tomorrow since I am not sure how much of this I can take!

  
  

  I did apologize to DH yesterday - crying of course!  He was really nice about it and told me no worries and he knows this isn't really me.

  
  

  
  

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  Me:37 DH:39

  TTC#1 since 3/2012

  
  

  Diagnosis : Unexplained Infertility

  
  

  3 BFN rounds Clomid + IUI

  IVF 1 - BFN, 1 Frozen

  IVF 2 - BFN, 5 Frozen

  FET 1 - BFP!!! EDD 1/24/15 Beta 1: 700, Beta 2: 2,156; 1st U/S 6w3d: HB 118bpm, 2nd U/S 9w3d: HB 171bpm

  
  

  

  
  

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• TaylorH84 member

  December 2013

  Ummm I definitely chucked and shattered a tervis cup one night...I thought those things were supposed to be indestructible. I also threw and broke a Brighton bracelet another night. Another night I flipped out because we got outback takeout and they forgot the BBQ sauce for my chicken and the bloomin onion sauce...I literally cried, didn't eat and went to bed. I mean talk about totally crazy, lost my marbles, full of rage, devil woman. I'm not normally like that at all. I swear! Lololol

  2013- 2 IVF cycles with PGD to prevent genetic disorder from being passed on. Both BFFN

  2/2014 pregnant!  EDD 10/17/2014
  

  
  

  All always welcome!

       
  

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• LSN8308 member

  December 2013

  lol i havent been too bad this cycle.. i seem to be able to catch myself mid-psychotic-episode and then try to play it off as a joke lol but DH just starts diagnosing me saying im Bi-polar (hes a psychotherapist) ..but more than anything, my sarcasm goes to a wholleeeee other level while on stims, lol drives DH crazy, and i get a good chuckle out of seeing him so annoyed  

  **SIGGY TICKER WARNING**
  

  Me: 27 High FSH (POF?) DH: 33 Slightly Low Morphology / Married Aug '08 TTC since 7/2009
  6 rounds of clomid = no luck
  IVF w/ ICSI & AZH #1 - Jan/2011 = ET cancelled OHSS
  FET #1 & #2 - March/2011 & June/2011 = Chemical Preg.
  IVF w/ Half ICSI #2 New RE - May/2012 = BFN!
  May '12 - Sep '13 - Took A Break
  Dec '13 IVF w/ Half ICSI #3!!!!! Switched RE
  Protocol - Lupron trigger/Follistim/Ganirelix/Estrace/Vivelle/Crinone
  

  12/27 - BFP! TWINS! EDD 9/3/14 ...Team PURPLE!
  6/27/14 - Emergency C/S @ 30w2d - Baby A 2lb 14oz, Baby B 2lb 11 oz
  

  ALL WELCOME

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