Feeling a little blue today

Re: Feeling a little blue today

• TaylorH84 member

  December 2013

  I'm sorry you're feeling down! I wish I could help you. Maybe try to stay off the internet and trust in your RE. I find I make myself crazy when I start doing too much research. I'm very guilty of this too but end up all sorts of confused, down and self diagnosing everything. :P I hope your day gets better!!

  2013- 2 IVF cycles with PGD to prevent genetic disorder from being passed on. Both BFFN

  2/2014 pregnant!  EDD 10/17/2014
  

  
  

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• FishyMom member

  December 2013

  I am really sorry sweetie! I really think that what @ifintn said is dead on. I personally have to be careful with googling, because it can consume me. Know that you are doing all you can to improve your chances. I know you have had your ups and downs with your RE, but I would try to trust them, but if it would make you feel better get a second opinion. You have the disc right? If you think it will make you feel better, I say go for it. ((Hugs)) I hope it gets better!

  ******************** BFP Warning *******************

   

  I'm 29 and DH is 32 we have a MFI (low count) 

  IVF #1 starting in August. ER 9/5/13 23 eggs we are fertilizing 15. 9 frozen
  ET 9/10 - transferred 1 perfect 5AA blast
  7dp5dt BFP ~~ Beta on 9/19 - 77.4 Beta #2 on 9/21 - 357
  Low heartbeat on 10/7 86, lower heartbeat on 10/11 76, no heartbeat 10/14/13. D&C 10/15/13
  Tests revealed MTHFR c677t mutation, put on Folgard.
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  FET #1 1/6/14 - 4BB blast - BFN

  FET #2 - 3/3/14 - 5AB Blast -- Beta #1 3/12 - 152 -- Beta #2 3/14 - 358

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  FET #3 06/09/16 - 5AB Blast - Beta #1 6/18- 245 -- Beta #2 06/20 - 600

   PAIF/SAIF/PAL/SAL welcome!

  
  

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• O2girl member

  December 2013

  Thanks ladies. I hear all your points and really appreciate your thoughtful input. I'm trying to trust in my RE and I'm also slowly learning to let go of control considering I don't have any in this situation. Some days are easier than others. Today I just need to stop thinking about this and for certain I need to stop playing doctor google.

  Me: 38
  DX:  Adenomyosis, Compounded MTHFR, PAI-1 4G variant
  
  DH: 34
  MFI due to Testicular Cancer
  
  Married March 2012
  IVF w/ICSI #1
  10 little polar bears
  FET #1 with 2 polar bears ~Nov 6, 2013 BFN
  FET # 2 with 2 more polar bears ~March 19, 2014 BFP!!!
  Beta 1= 276
  Beta 2= 662
  4/19/14 ~ baby A became an angel
  5/02/14 ~ baby B became an angel
  5/3/14 ~ D&C
  FET #3 with 1 male polar bear ~October 3, 2014
  October 13, 2014 ~ BFN
  Fur Children:  Memphis 3y, Dutch 3y, Marcel 2y, Meadow 1y
  
  
  
  
  January 2015 Siggy Challenge TTCAL
  Animals Interacting with Snow
  
  
  
  

  
  

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• kz's_girlygirl member

  December 2013

  I'm So sorry letting go is not easy at all. I have spent more than my share online searching anything I can. Sticking to medical journals helps- because we all know how much random stuff is out there!
  
  I hope you are feeling a little brighter soon

  
  
  
  TTC since 2008
  Dh:34, no issues.  Me:31, Endo, slightly hypothyroid, deformed ovary, paracentric inversion.
  4 Gonal-F, Cetrotide, HcG, Crinone +TI cycles= all BFN
  Lap in 2012 to remove large unresolving cyst discovered endo and double lobed ovary.
   6 Gonal-F, Cetrotide, HcG, Crinone IUI cycles= All BFN,
  1st IVF w/ICSI- June '13 Antagonist: Gonal-F, Menopur, Ganirelix, HcG, Estradiol, Crinone= 7 retrieved, 4 mature, 1 unfertilized, 2 abnormally fertilized, 1 normally fertilized.  2DT of only embryo and our miracle BFP.
  Our beloved baby boy was born sleeping Oct. 13, 2013 due to pROM/IC/Uterine infection.
  2nd IVF w/ICSI- Feb. '14 EPP/lupron/antagonist: Estrace, lupron, HGH, Gonal-F, Menopur, HcG, PIO, lovenox, doxy/dex.=21 retrieved, 16 mature, 15 fertilized!!  5dt of 1 blast/ 6 frozen. BFP!  Beta 1 9dp5dt:83.9  Beta 2: 11dp5dt: 145.2  Beta 3  14dp5dt: 497  Please be our sticky rainbow baby!
  
  
  

  
  

  
  
  

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• Sunny B member

  December 2013

  I'm sorry you're feeling so down. Trust your RE! You picked him for a reason I'm pulling for you.
  

  TTC since May 2012
  Me: 32 H: 31
  

  DX: MFI-Very Low Count, I have Hashimotos.

  IVF prep September 2013 cancelled due to Ovarian Cyst
  IVF #1 October 2013 Antagonistic Protocol with ICSI  ER 10/31/13 (18R 16M 11F- 6 blasts to freeze)
  ET delayed due to OHSS 
  FET scheduled for July 8. Delayed due to a crazy high TSH (it had been under control for YEARS!)
  FET #1 8/5/14 sET BFN 

  
  

  All welcome!

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• Carolina Blue Skies member

  December 2013

  Sometimes I have to step away from the Internet, but I definitely know it is easier said than done.  Hugs!
  

  My TTC Journey:
  Dx: Hypothalamic amenorrhea / mild PCOS (Pretty much a hormone/ovulatory disorder)
  Progesterone to induce period w/ the goal of Clomid - never got period (September 2011). Referred to RE.
  Femera - never responded to the meds (December 2011)
  Clomid with TI - BFN (February 2012)
  Injectables (Menopur) - hyperstimulated/canceled (March 2012)
  Injectables #2 (Menopur) with TI- BFN (May 2012)
  IVF - OHSS (transfer canceled), but 11 frozen! (June 1012)
  FET - 1 transferred on 8/09/12. Beta#1 (11dp5dt): 350.3; Beta#2: 365; Beta#3: 157. Biochemical pregnancy.
  FET # 2 - 1 transferred on 11/01/12. Beta#1 (11dp5dt): 337; Beta#2: 769. BFP!!! 1st ultrasound 11/28/12 showed heartbeat, but measuring 5 days behind. 2nd ultrasound 12/05/12 - miscarriage.
  FET # 3 - 1 transferred on 1/24/13. Beta#1 (11dp5dt): BFN.
  FET # 4 - 2 transferred on 3/21/13.  Bet #1 (11dp5dt): 660; Beta#2: 1,300.  Miscarried at home @ 6 weeks.

  FET # 5 - 2 transferred on 7/12/13.  Beta #1 (10dp6dt): BFN.
  Attempted an IUI in late August 2013, but didn't respond well.
  IVF #2 with PGS - Stims started 10/28 with retrieval on 11/11.  Of 14 mature eggs, 10 fertilized, 4 made it to Day 5 & 1 made it to Day 6. We did PGS on the Day 5 embryos, and 3 of 4 were normal. Had ET on 11/17. Beta #1 (8dp6dt): 203. Beta #2 (10dp6dt): 618. We since had two ultrasounds & on 12/19, our RE released us to the OB.  On 1/02/14, we had our first ultrasound with the OB where we heard the heartbeat.  We are so thankful for the blessing & crossing every finger & toe for a healthy & successful pregnancy.
  

  
  

  

   

  

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• happygirl1013 member

  December 2013

  Sending big hugs your way!

  IVF #1 Oct 2013- cancelled 
  IVF #2 Mar 2014- success.... baby girl born 11/28/14
  FET #1 Mar 2016- baby boy due 12/16/16

  
  

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• LSN8308 member

  December 2013

  *hugs* it is sometimes easier said than done, but just try to resist those urges to find answers when deep down you know you'll end up feeling more frustrated and confused. hope you're feeling better now
  

  **SIGGY TICKER WARNING**
  

  Me: 27 High FSH (POF?) DH: 33 Slightly Low Morphology / Married Aug '08 TTC since 7/2009
  6 rounds of clomid = no luck
  IVF w/ ICSI & AZH #1 - Jan/2011 = ET cancelled OHSS
  FET #1 & #2 - March/2011 & June/2011 = Chemical Preg.
  IVF w/ Half ICSI #2 New RE - May/2012 = BFN!
  May '12 - Sep '13 - Took A Break
  Dec '13 IVF w/ Half ICSI #3!!!!! Switched RE
  Protocol - Lupron trigger/Follistim/Ganirelix/Estrace/Vivelle/Crinone
  

  12/27 - BFP! TWINS! EDD 9/3/14 ...Team PURPLE!
  6/27/14 - Emergency C/S @ 30w2d - Baby A 2lb 14oz, Baby B 2lb 11 oz
  

  ALL WELCOME

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• Tea+ member

  December 2013

  Sorry you're feeling down today. I'm sure all of us here can understand. Don't give up hope! Lupron isn't the funnest but hopefully it will help your situation. Chin up buttacup! You got this. [; P.s. Good luck as always!

  TTC Since 2012

  Me: Endo Stage IV (20+yrs) (who knew? Not me)

  MyLove: Pretty Ok. Low #s (i think) 

  IVF#1: No Eggs to Retrieve

  Taking time to ourselves

   Poor Responder will add COQ10 & DHEA next cycle

  **All Welcome**

  
  

  
  

  
  

  
  

  
  

  
  

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• Lm92599 member

  December 2013

  Hang in there girlie, Its hard to let go of things we cant control. I know what you mean, ever since my failed IVF I have been an internet searching junkie. Its sometimes not a good place to hang out. Head up. Positive thoughts! Are you able to go to yoga or something to help you relax?
  

  Me: 35  low AMH, normal FSH
  DH: 31 Fair DNA fragmentation test Normal SA
  TTC: since March 2012
  
  09-21-13 start IVF #1
  10-04-13 ER 6 eggs, 6 mature, all 6 fertilized. 3 frozen
  10-08-13 fresh transfer canceled due to high progesterone
  waiting for FET
  10-18 started BCP
  10-29 baseline appt scheduled
  11-20 scheduled date of FET #1
  12-2 BFN
  
  3-1-14 moving on to the next step. Switched RE. going to plan 3 IUI cycles while saving for IVF#2
  
  April 2014- IUI#1  BFN
  May 2014- IUI#2 BFN
  June 2014 IUI#3 BFN
  
  Taking a break for a while, focusing on our wedding.
  
  Sept 24th missed period! Surprise natural BFP
  10-15-14 first ultrasound
  06-05-15 EDD
  
  
  
  

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• O2girl member

  December 2013

  @lm92599
  I have never tried yoga; it wouldn't be a bad idea though.

  Me: 38
  DX:  Adenomyosis, Compounded MTHFR, PAI-1 4G variant
  
  DH: 34
  MFI due to Testicular Cancer
  
  Married March 2012
  IVF w/ICSI #1
  10 little polar bears
  FET #1 with 2 polar bears ~Nov 6, 2013 BFN
  FET # 2 with 2 more polar bears ~March 19, 2014 BFP!!!
  Beta 1= 276
  Beta 2= 662
  4/19/14 ~ baby A became an angel
  5/02/14 ~ baby B became an angel
  5/3/14 ~ D&C
  FET #3 with 1 male polar bear ~October 3, 2014
  October 13, 2014 ~ BFN
  Fur Children:  Memphis 3y, Dutch 3y, Marcel 2y, Meadow 1y
  
  
  
  
  January 2015 Siggy Challenge TTCAL
  Animals Interacting with Snow
  
  
  
  

  
  

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• Lm92599 member

  December 2013

  I was doing it, I have been so down lately.. I am going to start going again.. if anything It makes me feel better and stronger emotionally. Its very relaxing too.
  

  Me: 35  low AMH, normal FSH
  DH: 31 Fair DNA fragmentation test Normal SA
  TTC: since March 2012
  
  09-21-13 start IVF #1
  10-04-13 ER 6 eggs, 6 mature, all 6 fertilized. 3 frozen
  10-08-13 fresh transfer canceled due to high progesterone
  waiting for FET
  10-18 started BCP
  10-29 baseline appt scheduled
  11-20 scheduled date of FET #1
  12-2 BFN
  
  3-1-14 moving on to the next step. Switched RE. going to plan 3 IUI cycles while saving for IVF#2
  
  April 2014- IUI#1  BFN
  May 2014- IUI#2 BFN
  June 2014 IUI#3 BFN
  
  Taking a break for a while, focusing on our wedding.
  
  Sept 24th missed period! Surprise natural BFP
  10-15-14 first ultrasound
  06-05-15 EDD
  
  
  
  

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