Intro

GymSpaz26 · December 2013

Hello everyone,

I've been coming on here off and on over the last few weeks and finally decided it is time to join in.

I had a very normal, healthy pregnancy and delivered our first child, a healthy 7 lb 12 oz precious baby boy by C-Section on October 27th. Early in the morning of October 31st (our first morning home from the hospital) Zedekiah stopped breathing in his sleep, in my arms. We called 911, my mom did CPR until the paramedics came, but the worked on him for close to an hour and we lost him. Because he was a child who died in our home, we had to go through a whole police investigation. It was so traumatic, though all of the police officers and detectives were very respective and tried to make it as painless as possible. The medical examiners also did a full examination and autopsy and could not find the cause of death. It is so hard to understand how a perfectly healthy baby can just stop breathing and pass away. So, here we are, trying to make sense of this. Trying not to blame ourselves even though we were told over and over by the medical examiner that there was nothing that we could have done and that it was not our fault. Trying to figure out what our new "normal" looks like.

schulme2 · December 2013

I am so sorry for your loss of Zedekiah. I can only imagine what a difficult process that had to have been going through an investigation after losing your son. I hope that you will find some comfort here and know that we are all here for you.

Noethola · December 2013

***Siggy warning***

I am so very sorry for your loss and the trauma surrounding it due to the investigation. Not knowing a reason or cause can be so hard, but it also tells you there can be no blame. Hard for a mother who wants to know, but also good for a mother, to know she is not to blame. Zedekiah is a wonderful name.

mingaling2 · December 2013

I'm so sorry for the loss of your precious baby boy. I hope that you will find the comfort and support you need here.

Heatherhah · December 2013

I am so sorry for the loss of your precious son Zedekiah. We are all here for you if and when you need us. Huge hugs!!

BrittianyM · December 2013

I am so very sorry for the loss of your sweet Zedekiah. Our daughter Brooke passed away from SIDS also. We have been there and it is the worst feeling in the world. If you ever need to talk I am here for you, we all are. Sending thoughts and prayers your way.

CRUN2012 · December 2013

I am so sorry for your loss. Hopefully this board can offer support to help you navigate the tough road back to 'normal'

kz's_girlygirl · December 2013

I am so so sorry for your loss of your sweet son Zedekiah. None of this is your fault- I am so sorry you are dealing with an investigate at this heartbreaking time. Please know that I am sending you thoughts for peace and healing as you navigate the road ahead.