Very Overwhelmed (kinda long)

rissa06 · December 2013

I'm feeling very overwhelmed and I don't how to fix that feeling or even make it better. I just feel like I have so much on my plate and I'm failing at everything.

It started a couple of weeks after having DS and then it was ok for a little while, but with dealing with his MSPI issues (giving up dairy and soy). THe MSPI has been challenging, because the severe eczema has turned into Staph Infection. Also, work not letting me move my maternity to deal with DS's MSPI and his doctor appointments. I am supposed to be working part-time and its 8pm EST and I'm still working. I am really only working one half day a week, because there is so much. My boss knowing I was dealing with all this stuff with DS and she gets pissed off when I have to take more time. I'm in danger of losing a whole bunch of vacation days, because they were supposed to be used for my part-time portion and since I'm not working part-time, I'm not using my vacation. Additionally, the person who replaced me while I was on maternity leave keeps creating messes that I have been tasked to clean-up, which is adding more stress.

My 1st DS is throwing these horrible tantrums, which has escalated to throwing of chairs when you say no. We are working with him and so is school. Our daughter is having issues at the school she is at, to the point of which my husband and I have to do a midyear transfer. The enrichment place gave our spot away and I'm praying that the director just confused our names, because we need the enrichment program to complete the transfer otherwise we have to leave her in the place that she is (long story).

I'm also planning DS#2 baptism for this week and this week alone, I have had to pick the kids up a few times for doctor visits (bead up his nose) and possible ring worm (it wasn't, but they panicked). Both times I was about to get onto an important meeting or was already on an important meeting when school called. Then these type of calls get to a match between my husband and I of who is more important. I almost quit my job, because I just can't do it all. However, we need my health insurance and honestly I like what I do.

I am sorry for the vent, I think I'm bitter at work for not giving me what I needed and then with everything else and just tired. I finally broke down and called the PPD hotline and they referred me to someone, but they are really expensive and i have to find someone who takes are insurance.

Thank you for listening. I just needed to get everything out. I'm sorry that this was a dear diary post.

MitsB707 · December 2013

That all sounds like a lot for anyone to deal with, let alone while caring for an infant. I hope you are able to get the support and help you need.

CourtJack · December 2013

I would feel the same as you. Entirely overwhelmed. I'm sorry your workplace isn't being accommodating. Could your DH Try to get time off at his job to help? Any family in the area? Playgroups you can go to just to get out?

coraggiosa · December 2013

It sounds like you've got a lot on your plate. I'm glad you called the hotline. While I have different challenges, I've been diagnosed with PPD, so please feel free to PM me if you like.

Hang in there. Things WILL get better.

LokiLahve · December 2013

((Hugs))
I'm sorry things are tough. T&p's they get better for you soon.

Kebert618 · December 2013

Wow that is a lot to deal with! T&P sent your way that things get better soon!

BlondieBia21 · December 2013

It will get better, I promise you that! I'm saying some prayers for you that it'll get better quick! Hang in there, we're here for you!

Revez · December 2013

Yikes, that's a lot you have going on. I have no advice to offer, but I'm sending T&Ps your way with lots of relaxing vibes. I hope everything works itself out soon.

rissa06 · December 2013

CourtJack I wish, but unfortunately his job gets mad when he actually doesn't go in on his day off.

chattychiqa. i have to call the insurance company and see what they have. I think we have an EAP program as well, but honestly, I'm not sure how it works. I will have to look into it.

Thanks all. I have been just been losing so much patience and I feel for the kids, because I feel like its affecting them.

rissa06 · December 2013

coraggiosa Thanks!

AmeliaKris · December 2013

Wow! That's understandable you are overwhelmed. I would be too. Is there a neighbor or friend that can help organize the baptism for you?

PB102012 · December 2013

I am so sorry you're going through this! I hope things start to get better for you very soon.

emmaleigh05 · December 2013

Thinking of you! Definitely look at your EAP for help- they can often help negotiate at your workplace or help your supervisor understand the situation better. GL!

kanned0121 · December 2013

I'm sorry you're dealing with so much right now. I hope things quickly get easier for you and your family. Make sure to take care of yourself!

LJUTCMommy · December 2013

I'm so sorry. That is A LOT to handle. I am feeling overwhelmed too, especially with a workplace that can't really fathom the demands of an infant. Honestly, I'm having similar issues at work and have thought it might be easier to quit, but I like my job too.

There's no way around it, it's hard. It's hard for me and I only have 1 kid!

You're doing a great job. Hang in there. It will get easier.