I lost it again this morning with MH. I'm so moody about this cancelled cycle and all the waiting around. I'm going to call my family dr tomorrow to see if he can give me something. I have xanax but never took it during the day just at night sometimes.
Is anything safe to take? Is it wrong to be doing this? It might be months before I cycle. I will try another therapist hopefully before Christmas. Everything is getting to me and it's this whole baby business. I'm even bitchy at work but in my defense my boss is brutal to deal with.
Thanks for any input. Sitting at theater by myself ready to watch Catching Fire. Had to get out of house

I do have friends but this was last min lol
ME:46 MH:44 DE IVF 2014
Met with RE 4/11.
2 IUI's BFN. DE best option. Switched clinics to do
"shared" program.
Had to retake all tests and a mamm that put me behind and then on a DE waiting list for 12 months.
Picked a donor!! (10/13/13) Got matched. Estimated transfer in December. After 2.5 years of patiently waiting I will finally cycle....can hardly believe it. DE cycle got cancelled. One of her tests came back positive. Waiting for another donor. Donor picked!! (1/18/14)
DE IVF #1 (4/26) BFN DE FET #1 (6/4) BFP! Beta 1=339 Beta 2=852 Beta 3=9957 EDD 2/22/15!!




Re: Anyone taking anxiety meds while TTC?
This journey is just awful on us all and our relationships really take a beating. I've been experiencing similiar anger and moodiness with my own situation and knowing I have to wait quite a while before I'm back to cycling. Doesn't the world know I/we don't have the time to wait at this age?! Geez. I'm kicking myself all the time about my age and being childless.
Please take care of yourself. We are all rooting for you and wish you nothing but the best.
**** siggy warning - bfp & loss **** ---- All Welcome ---
Me: 44 - Hashimoto's (under control), DH: 38 - (minor issues)
IUIs: 2 in 2012 ... Both BFN
IVF #1: 10/16/13 ... BFP, however it was not viable and ended in an early loss at 7weeks.
IVF #2: Feb '14 ... Cancelled. Positive beta at baseline appt, became very early loss.
IVF #2: Apr '14 ... Retrieval Only. 2 embryos made it to day 3 freeze & will be batched with IVF #3 for PGD testing.
IVF #3: June '14 ... Retrieval Only. 4 embryos growing, all arrested before day 5. Two from April thawed, but also arrested.
Currently benched while determining how to proceed.
"Keep going until you can't fail"
I second PrivateOne's feelings -- this is a really crappy situation and I hope you get some relief! I have pretty bad panic attacks and have been on anti-anxiety medication for it at different times, although I have not been on anything while TTC. If I were you (and if insurance covers it), I would try to get in to see a psychiatrist since they will probably know more about options while TTC. Also, I remember a psychiatrist once told me that primary care docs tend to prescribe below the therapeutic doses on psych medications. Maybe your family doc can suggest someone?
Sending you big hugs, and know that we are all here for you!
Thanks ladies. Even talking about Christmas dinner resulted in a fight this morning which of course stemmed from cycling. Oh brother. I actually felt today that I wished MH worked harder on putting his foot down of not going through with this. I'm sure I would of been upset but maybe we would of been a happier couple. Guess we will never know.
I forgot that I probably have to see a psychiatrist for some sort of anxiety/depression pills. Blah..
Oh and Catching Fire was good. Of course book better
ME:46 MH:44 DE IVF 2014
Met with RE 4/11. 2 IUI's BFN. DE best option. Switched clinics to do "shared" program. Had to retake all tests and a mamm that put me behind and then on a DE waiting list for 12 months. Picked a donor!! (10/13/13) Got matched. Estimated transfer in December. After 2.5 years of patiently waiting I will finally cycle....can hardly believe it. DE cycle got cancelled. One of her tests came back positive. Waiting for another donor. Donor picked!! (1/18/14)
DE IVF #1 (4/26) BFN DE FET #1 (6/4) BFP! Beta 1=339 Beta 2=852 Beta 3=9957 EDD 2/22/15!!