I posted in the IUI check in but i'm pretty bummed out and figured i'd start a new post to let things out. AF on Thanksgiving morning...I even knew this was going to happen. My cycle was the same as last month...I stim, trigger, have the IUI, gain 5lbs, wear big black sweaters to work all week to try to hide the crazy bloat (God forbid anyone asks if i'm pregnant I think i'll flip out), get a migraine a week later which shows my hormones are going down, AF comes early at 11dpiui. I know i'm just venting but none of this makes sense to me. I'm able to get pregnant twice on no meds and have 2 chemical pregnancies but on medication I can't get pregnant at all! (I did have 1 suspected CP while on femara). I just don't get why things aren't working, especially my last 2 cycles on injects since I seemed to be responding well. And then I have to hear about people who have been trying for just a few months and get pregnant right away. I am absolutely sick of congratulating people when they get pregnant and then congratulating them again after they have their kid and i'm still sitting here feeling like a damn failure and not even feeling like i'm at square one! I'm taking a few months off from the meds especially because of the way I responded the last 2 cycles with the weight gain and the OHSS. I do have an appointment to meet with my RE and I know exactly what he's going to say- one more IUI then move onto IVF. I'm petrified. I don't have the money for IVF and even if we did IVF there is no guarantee it will work. I don't know if it's the hormones right now or what but i'm usually a pretty strong person and I feel like i'm losing my mind! I thank this board for letting me vent and i'm sorry if i'm being a downer... I wish none of us had to go through this.
Me and DH: 32, TTC since 2/2012
Dx: lean PCOS, low hormone levels, 2 CP's before seeing RE, MTHFR heterozygous
IUI #1 with clomid and ovidrel: BFN
IUI #2 with clomid (unresponsive), femara, ovidrel and novarel: Possible CP
IUI #3 with femara, ovidrel and novarel: BFN
IUI #4 with Follistim (115 iu) and ovidrel= BFN, developed OHSS, benched- 2 weeks of birth control pills
IUI #5 with Follistim (75iu) and ovidrel= BFN........Taking a medication break for a few months
IUI #6 with Follistim (75iu) every other day, femara and Lupron trigger= BFN
*Taking a long break to get healthy and research/prepare for IVF*
Goal: gain 5 lbs, gluten/dairy/soy/nut free
3T June Siggy Challenge- Celebrity Crush: Woody Harrelson
I'm so sorry you're hurting. IF is a bitch. I've had dark days like that before. It's tough, they come and go. I wish I could say something genius and comforting, but all I can say is you are not alone and the board is here for you. Sending many hugs your way.
Me: 33 - PCOS & Hypothyroidism
DH: 35 - SA is good
Married since 2010 (together since 2006)
TTC since June 2009 (we knew we would have issues and wanted family right away after we got married).
No pregnancies yet.
May 2013 - started first round of Chlomid & ovidrel cycle.
You have been through so much. There's a way through this difficulty but sometimes it's so hard to see it, especially when another set back appears. Just do the next thing, whether that's a break or a change of scenery or a second opinion... Hugs!
*Ticker/Siggy Warning*
Me: 37
DH: 38
TTC since 2011
DH normal
Dx: DOR (AFC ranges from 6-11; AMH 0.16; FSH 11.9; E2 45)
11/13: 1st IVF converted to IUI due to poor response to high dose antagonist protocol (only 3 follies) = BFN
12/13: IUI #2 letrozole + Bravelle = BFP, beta #1 156, beta #2 196 (diff. lab), beta #3 1037; 1st ultrasound @ 5 wks 1 day = 6 mm gest sac; 2nd ultrasound 6 wks 1 day = tiny flickering heartbeat; 3rd ultrasound 7 wks 1 day 10.3 mm embie growing away!
Nov 2013 IVF/ICSI #1 - Protocol: BCP prep, high doses Menopur and Bravelle (12 days), ganirelex Results: 5 retrieved / mature, 4 fertilized, 1 arrested and 3 complex abnormal after day 3 PGS = Cancelled after ER Jan/Feb 2014 IVF/ICSI #2 - Protocol: Estrogen priming, high doses Menopur and Bravelle (11 days), microdose lupron Results: Cancelled after 11 days of stims due to low response and E2 levels Feb 2014 IVF/ICSI #3 - Protocol: No prep, low dose Menopur (6 days), ganirelex, Bravelle booster with trigger Results: 1 retrieved / 0 mature = Cancelled after ER
Officially moving on to embryo adoption! We used and love Embryo Adoption Services of Cedar Park October 2014 FET #1 - BCP/Lupron/Estrace/Prometrium, transferred 2 of 4 from match #1, BFN December 2014 FET #2 - BCP/Lupron/Estrace/Prometrium, transferred 2 of 4 from match #1, BFN March 2015 FET #3 - BCP/Lupron/Estrace/Prometrium, transferred 2 of 6 from match #2, BFN May 2015 FET #4 - BCP/Lupron/Estrace/Prometrium, lost 2 to thaw, transferred 2 of 6 from match #2, BFN October 2015 FET #5 - Natural cycle, lost 1 from match #3 and 1 from clinic backup to thaw, transferred 1 backup, BFN February 2016 FET #6 - Natural cycle, transferred 1 from match #4, B FREAKING P! Beta 1 = 162, Beta 2 = 316, doubling just over 48 hours
Thanks for the responses. I appreciate every one of them.
@STBMrsMiller I'm sorry you're feeling down and hope you're feeling better as well.
@1983lindsey Thank you for the information. The clinic sounds like a great option but I live in NY. I have to do some more research about low cost alternatives in the area (if any) since my insurance does not cover anything for IVF. Thanks again for your response. I hope things work out for you as well and it does make sense in your case to skip the last IUI and head to IVF if you're ready.
Me and DH: 32, TTC since 2/2012
Dx: lean PCOS, low hormone levels, 2 CP's before seeing RE, MTHFR heterozygous
IUI #1 with clomid and ovidrel: BFN
IUI #2 with clomid (unresponsive), femara, ovidrel and novarel: Possible CP
IUI #3 with femara, ovidrel and novarel: BFN
IUI #4 with Follistim (115 iu) and ovidrel= BFN, developed OHSS, benched- 2 weeks of birth control pills
IUI #5 with Follistim (75iu) and ovidrel= BFN........Taking a medication break for a few months
IUI #6 with Follistim (75iu) every other day, femara and Lupron trigger= BFN
*Taking a long break to get healthy and research/prepare for IVF*
Goal: gain 5 lbs, gluten/dairy/soy/nut free
3T June Siggy Challenge- Celebrity Crush: Woody Harrelson
Re: AF on Thanksgiving (CP's mentioned)
January PAL siggie challenge; Good advice:
Me-39, HSG 2/13- clear. DS-IUI #1-3/13,300iu Menopur 12 days,3 days Cetrotide, Ovidrel Trigger-BFN. IUI #2 06/13, BFP EDD: 02/22/14 m/c (cp), IUI #3- BFP EDD: 5/17/14 m/c 09/13. Blood work/RPL panel- nk cell/MTHFR mutation- negative. Blood work all good. Unexplained reason for m/c. IUI #4 BFP m/c (cp) 10/13. IUI #5- 12/13 Cancelled. No response. (1)follicle. IUI #5.1- 2/14. IVF Bound
********************SAIF/ PAIF/ ALL ARE WELCOME***********************
*Ticker/Siggy Warning*
Me: 37 DH: 38 TTC since 2011 DH normal Dx: DOR (AFC ranges from 6-11; AMH 0.16; FSH 11.9; E2 45) 11/13: 1st IVF converted to IUI due to poor response to high dose antagonist protocol (only 3 follies) = BFN 12/13: IUI #2 letrozole + Bravelle = BFP, beta #1 156, beta #2 196 (diff. lab), beta #3 1037; 1st ultrasound @ 5 wks 1 day = 6 mm gest sac; 2nd ultrasound 6 wks 1 day = tiny flickering heartbeat; 3rd ultrasound 7 wks 1 day 10.3 mm embie growing away!
PAIF/SAIF Welcome!
TTC #1 since June 2012
Me (28) - DOR (AFC <10, undetectable AMH, >10 FSH), homozygous E429A MTHFR
DH (29) - MFI low count and morphology
September 2013 IUI#1 - Clomid + Trigger + IUI = BFN
October 2013 IUI#2 - Letrozole + Menopur + Trigger + IUI = BFN
Nov 2013 IVF/ICSI #1 - Protocol: BCP prep, high doses Menopur and Bravelle (12 days), ganirelex
Results: 5 retrieved / mature, 4 fertilized, 1 arrested and 3 complex abnormal after day 3 PGS = Cancelled after ER
Jan/Feb 2014 IVF/ICSI #2 - Protocol: Estrogen priming, high doses Menopur and Bravelle (11 days), microdose lupron
Results: Cancelled after 11 days of stims due to low response and E2 levels
Feb 2014 IVF/ICSI #3 - Protocol: No prep, low dose Menopur (6 days), ganirelex, Bravelle booster with trigger
Results: 1 retrieved / 0 mature = Cancelled after ER
Officially moving on to embryo adoption! We used and love Embryo Adoption Services of Cedar Park
October 2014 FET #1 - BCP/Lupron/Estrace/Prometrium, transferred 2 of 4 from match #1, BFN
December 2014 FET #2 - BCP/Lupron/Estrace/Prometrium, transferred 2 of 4 from match #1, BFN
March 2015 FET #3 - BCP/Lupron/Estrace/Prometrium, transferred 2 of 6 from match #2, BFN
May 2015 FET #4 - BCP/Lupron/Estrace/Prometrium, lost 2 to thaw, transferred 2 of 6 from match #2, BFN
October 2015 FET #5 - Natural cycle, lost 1 from match #3 and 1 from clinic backup to thaw, transferred 1 backup, BFN
February 2016 FET #6 - Natural cycle, transferred 1 from match #4, B FREAKING P!
Beta 1 = 162, Beta 2 = 316, doubling just over 48 hours