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Is this anxiety or something more?

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I'm not sure how exactly to word this, but I'll try my best. Ever since I became a mom I feel like my anxiety level has gone up so much. I can't watch anything sad that has to do with a baby or children. For example: I used to love the walking dead, but I can't watch it lately because the little baby on the show makes me anxious. I picture DD in a situation like that where I can't protect her and I start freaking out and have a panic attack. Not because I think a zombie apocalypse is a real thing, but more because I can't imagine not being able to protect her. I saw a news story recently about a couple that abused this little girl(I don't want to get into everything about that story, because it was so horrible and sad) but I instantly pictured M being in that situation and I broke down and started crying. I know it's completely irrational but I can't seem to help it. Any little thing sets me off. Can anybody else relate to this or am I just a crazy paranoid mom? I see my OB on the 16th of december and am thinking about bringing it up, but I'm already taking prozac for PPD and I'm not sure if it is related to PPD/PPA or what. =/

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  • emmanemmemmanemm member
    @maryannespier yes, I always thinks about losing her, I don't know why I'm so morbid and think that way.

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  • abveld711abveld711 member
    I'm the same way. I also get hyper sensitive about safety issues and worry irrationally and prematurely about DD going to school, getting picked on, etc. I've never been an anxious person and don't really have any other anxieties. Motherhood has made me a little nutso.
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  • emmanemmemmanemm member
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    @abveld711 I know exactly what you mean about school! I worry about that too. I'm scared I'm going to turn into one of those moms who never let's her kid out of the house.

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  • gutsymamagutsymama member
    I don't have a good answer for you, but ((HUGS!)). I can definitely relate. We have some very real things that could actually, in the most rare, worst-case scenario, kill him (too much air in the IV line, etc.), so it's all too easy for me to slip over into the morbid, consuming anxiety about ridiculous things. We haven't even finished watching the last season of TWD because I was having nightmares about how I would keep my IV-dependent baby alive during a zombie apocalypse. 
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  • Stacey099Stacey099 member
    All this talk about How to train up you child gets me all emotional with anxiety. Not that I think of doing it to G - please don't think that but more freaked out that there are people that follow it. Those helpless babies!

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  • ashie624ashie624 member
    I am like this too! I think its just a mom thing. I keep seeing all these sad stories about babies and children and it hurts my heart so bad! Not that it didn't before, but it is so much worse now because of DD. I think "What if that were her?" I never knew this kind of love and heartache before her. I've cried because of articles as well. I wish I could protect her from everything!
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  • kaylakimkaylakim member
    ashie624 said:

    I am like this too! I think its just a mom thing. I keep seeing all these sad stories about babies and children and it hurts my heart so bad! Not that it didn't before, but it is so much worse now because of DD. I think "What if that were her?" I never knew this kind of love and heartache before her. I've cried because of articles as well. I wish I could protect her from everything!

    This, word for word. I think it's normal mom stuff to feel that way. I haven't been able to watch lots of shows that I used to our even read books if it talks about abuse or anything disturbing with children since becoming a mom. I think when you become a mom this whole new compartment of love and sympathy open and you just want to save every child. I'm way more emotional as a mom than I ever was before.
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  • cuterusauruscuterusaurus member
    Right there with you. I can't even think about certain things or I turn into a puddle. Watching news is a thing of the past.


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  • Stina2012Stina2012 member
    Me too. I can't even read about animal abuse without feeling sick. I don't understand why some people even post horrible stories here. I don't click through to them.

    I think as a Mom you realize how fragile and precious it is to be alive. Since we, ya know, gave life. It's my theory that reason is why there aren't as many female mass murderers or serial killers. When women kill it is targeted.
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  • amaburchamaburch member
    You are definitely not alone! I can't even watch the news anymore. I have to live in a happy world or I can't function. If I start thinking those what ifs I get horrible, horrible images in my head. I think that's OCD.
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  • Stina2012Stina2012 member
    maryannespier said:

    @stina2012 - I was doing a skype college interview when I was about seven months pregnant and the guy started talking to me about a paper he was writing on female serial killers, specifically those who target pregnant women. He just about died when, after going into some detail, I said "so, you can't see this but I'm currently very pregnant."
    We admitted him anyway.
    My mom has said she felt/feels the exact same way even 29 years later. I think as long as it isn't out of control keeping you from living your life, it's normal.

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  • emmanemmemmanemm member
    I'm so happy I'm not alone, although I'm not happy all of you also live with this same anxiety. I guess it was so surprising to me because I used to watch all of that stuff and it didn't really bother me because I never had anything in my life to relate it too.

    @mimi4347 huge hugs! I can't imagine. The whole walking dead issue started when I had a dream that I got attacked from zombies and I couldn't stop them from getting to M. Scariest nightmare of my life.

    @stina2012 I completely agree about why there aren't a lot of women murderers. It makes sense what you said about mothers bringing life into the world and why it makes it so precious to us.

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  • kmd78kmd78 member
    Thank you for posting this because I feel the same exact way (except I HAVE to watch Walking Dead) and was wondering the same thing.

    I also tend to worry about things that "might" happen in the future that I know I have no control over.... Yesterday I thought about someone picking on him in school and I cried. Silly, I know, and completely out of my control and I have to keep reminding myself that.

    I guess what I'm saying is you're not alone :) *Hugs*
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    I could barley watch Grey's this week, I'm with you on not being able to handle seeing or hearing about a sick or abused child :( I'd talk to your doctor if you're really feeling anxious, hope it gets better for you, Em :)
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