Faith Friday

schulme2 · November 2013

I hope you have all had a positive week.

- What is your go-to mantra/saying/verse to pick yourself up when you are having a really low point?

- Do you find that you or your SO has been stronger in faith through all of this?

- Do you have any new or remaining struggles or revelations in your faith this week?

bunnybun4 · November 2013

After a few weeks of really down posts, I feel like I am finally rolling back around.

As I have mentioned before, I am going thru my 2nd mc right now...this will be my third pregnancy loss. For weeks I have just been at a loss with God...literally I could not even find words for Him. Deep down, I KNOW that He is good and that He is mourning with me...but seriously...2 miscarriages after losing our daughter last year...how is this fair or ok?

This week I have turned a corner, I met with my pastor and she told me that it is ok to be at a loss...that those are the words to pray to Him right now: "God I am just at a loss...I don't even know what to say to you. I am just so hurt." etc. etc.

This week my mantra has been that God gives you the strength you need for each day...and that he doesn't reveal the future to us because we would not have the strength for it before it happens. I kept thinking that if I lost another pregnancy that I would just be done. My first two losses I could barely function for weeks afterwards...a third would just be the nail in the coffin perse...but as hurt and as devastated as I am, I am not done...I am still standing...and I am going to be ok. This all hurts more than words can express, but I am not as lost and desitute as I imagined i would be. If you had told me last year when we lost bunny that I would go on to lose two more babies i probably wouldn't have been able to get out of bed again. But here I am and I am ok. I miss my daughter so badly but I am still ok.

Hope this all made sense...and sorry for the novel. I hope everyone else is finding peace and comfort this week.

jess123456 · November 2013

- What is your go-to mantra/saying/verse to pick yourself up when you are having a really low point?

Someone once told me that in the end it will be ok and if it is not ok it is not yet the end. This really sticks with me and I remind myself of this often. I have been dealing with feeling hopeless and grief stricken from the loss of my daughter and my recurrent losses. It is absolutely hard to keep psychologically picking myself up and moving forward but I want to make my angels proud.

- Do you find that you or your SO has been stronger in faith through all of this?

This is a good question because I think from the outside that my husband appears to be stronger but I know that his faith has been tested just like mine. It's very hard.

- Do you have any new or remaining struggles or revelations in your faith this week?

I think I will always wonder why... Why my children? I am not sure how this will ever change but perhaps it will become more manageable as time goes on. I think I have realized that I am no longer afraid of death if that makes any sense. I have hopefully a full life ahead of me and intend to live it to my fullest because my children weren't given that chance here on Earth so I especially want to do that for them.

diamante1181 · November 2013

What is your go-to mantra/saying/verse to pick yourself up when you are having a really low point?
I have many things that go through my mind. Mainly affirmations, like my children are with God, who would be a better parent than God? And just affirming to myself that I have gone xyz days and am still alive, still standing. Another one is If God brings you to it, He'll take you through it.
Do you find that you or your SO has been stronger in faith through all of this? I think we are in the same boat. We questioned, and we have turned a corner at this point, thankfully. I have come to accept that I will never in this life know why my angels are gone.
Do you have any new or remaining struggles or revelations in your faith this week?
While we were in Puerto Rico, we went to a spring that is supposed to have been blessed by the Virgin Mary. There is a small sanctuary there, and supposedly if you submit your petitions there, miracles will happen. I don't know if my miracle will happen, but I can say that I have felt more peaceful since having left the place. I have not had any breakdowns, though I have cried (note the difference), and I feel much closer to accepting the loss of my precious babies.

irons633 · November 2013

****responding from ipad****** - What is your go-to mantra/saying/verse to pick yourself up when you are having a really low point? That God is is an awesome God an even though I am going thru a very hard time I do know that He will see me thru. I have to remember that yes it hurts but me going thru all of this shows me that God does have a purpose for me, rather it be a vessel to help others who have suffered loss or to let me know that I can become a nurse and be there for others. I look at me loosing my babies that I need to do something great so that I have not let them down, I want them it be proud of their mommy!!! - Do you find that you or your SO has been stronger in faith through all of this? I believe I am stronger in my faith than my husband, I do think that he believes in a higher power but he is more analytical with things. My faith has given me strength to keep going and I know that when I sometimes just say Jesus and let Him hear my cries it helps me. - Do you have any new or remaining struggles or revelations in your faith this week? I am struggling with AF showing up yesterday on the one year angelversary of our son EJ and that on Monday is my 6 week pp appt where they will draw blood to hopefully find out why I have lost two babies. I am scared that the test will come back with nothing being wrong and that I will not know why I lost my babies and will wonder if we should try again because I will be terrified to loose another baby.

jonahsma · November 2013

- What is your go-to mantra/saying/verse to pick yourself up when you are having a really low point? Get up,God is good, don't let depression win, your family needs you.

- Do you find that you or your SO has been stronger in faith through all of this? we have been married for almost four years and I believe I have attended church a handful of times since.my husband has been going to church faithfully since we have been married. This trial has opened my eyes and brought me close r to God. I pick up my bible, listen to worship music, praise God in this storm, and pray. through it all I looK to My Saviour, he knows my heart and counts my tears.

Jansheski · November 2013

****LO TICKERWhat is your go-to mantra/saying/verse to pick yourself up when you are having a really low point?
I usually like to remind myself that God will make good come of this. And that I may not see the good but I know God has a bigger plan that I cannot see or comprehend.

Do you find that you or your SO has been stronger in faith through all of this?
My husband is strong in different areas. I tend to try and figure things out and find out every detail of why things happened and I get frustrated sometimes and think that its not fair and why me. My husband is always there to remind me that life isn't fair and sometimes we just need to "Let go, and Let God". He doesn't need reasoning as to why things happen he just trusts God and his plan. I really need to work on that and accepting that I don't need answers all the time I just need faith.

- Do you have any new or remaining struggles or revelations in your faith this week?

My struggle lately has been dealing with my coworker who has returned from maternity leave. She is so excited about her new baby and is constantly talking about her and showing me pictures. Then she asks questions about what I did when I pumped at work and on and on. It is soooo hard to not be envious. I know she deserves to be happy, but it is so hard dealing with this everyday. We also just got the autopsy results in and they classified his death as SUID because they couldn't find one thing that caused his death. I just don't understand how a perfectly healthy baby just dies, but here is where I need to have faith instead of having an answer.

stefuge · November 2013

- What is your go-to mantra/saying/verse to pick yourself up when you are having a really low point?

Psalm 139:13-16 has been a huge encouragement and confirmation of Colton's life for both DH and I.

- Do you find that you or your SO has been stronger in faith through all of this?

I feel like we have both really stood strong in our faith, and when one of us is feeling weak, the other is able to be a comfort.

- Do you have any new or remaining struggles or revelations in your faith this week?

This past weekend, at Colton's memorial, we really felt God calling us to make a proclamation of faith in regards to our loss. We are praying for Gods blessing on our family through that, and I just wanted to share one thing my DH said that I really love "most funerals are a testimony of the life of the person who has died, but for Colton, we are his testimony. That we are a family of faith." And that will continue to be our goal. To make Colton's life testimony be our faith and the work that God is doing through that.

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