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Shopping and...obsessed?

KC1212KC1212 member
edited November 2013 in Secondary IF
So, I have been shopping...OB shopping, that is. Ya'll already know that from the care and delivery experience from my DS and my recent loss that I am FED the Fu@ck up with my current OB. Well - I don't just want to switch to just anyone...I want someone **Magical** who will give me fuzzy - wuzzies - KWIM?

So this week I have an appointment with a Midwife ( interesting but, I don't think it will be practical. I had a Csection with DS) In a perfect world, if I had my choice I would be birthin' babies at home on the crapper. Anyway - so I searched and googled and googled. Finally I found a Dr that not only does regular OB care but is also a fertility specialist! SCORE. I made an appointment to meet with him to see if the chemistry is right but, I have high hopes. His office passed my first "test" by having a friendly receptionist. I CANNOT stand bitchy receptionists. If you can't answer the phone politely then don't answer it ALL - jeeze people!

Anyway - I'm really looking forward to meeting this guy...I'm feeling productive but, at the same time frustrated and at a stand still...I want to get crackin! Part of me says "you got pregnant! you can do this!" I mean that feels like a huge success in itself. It means DH's swimmers are getting off their lazy tails and fertilizing something - damn it to hell.

On the other hand - does anyone feel like they are consumed with TTC? I feel like it is on my mind 24/7. I read, read, read way toooo much in search for knowledge and answers. I analyze my chart 20 times a day and I take more supplements than an 80 year old woman. I do this in secret. My acupuncturist tells me to "just be" and I appreciate her  ~zen~ but my personality is way too productive to just "be". I have to feel like I can control some aspect of all this.

Anyway - this is just a long ramble of me letting some feelings out. Lets all sing kumbiya now :)

edit - because I can't type with nails on
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Me: 27 DH: 33
Married 6 years
Conceived DS after 4 years of MFI

TTC # 2 (not trying,not preventing ever)
May 2013 - August 2013 Timed Intercourse = BFN
September 2013 Timed Intercourse, Weekly Acupuncture, Herbs=BFN
October 2013 Timed Intercourse, Weekly Acupuncture, Herbs, and "warming foods" = BFP
Beta #1 19, Beta #2 18 Progesterone 4.6 Miscarried 11/9/13
November 2013 - Benched, waiting for first post-loss AF.
No longer benched per New RE/OB!
Jan. 15 2014 - BFP. HCG 3900 - Ectopic :( 
Jan. 16 2014 Left tube removed and D&C
March 2, 2014 First AF


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Re: Shopping and...obsessed?

  • pettycrockerpettycrocker member
    Ohhh. I hope you like your new OB! Before I got booted to the RE, I saw an amazing OB who also specialized in IF, she did the majority of my testing so it was good, plus she had an awesome personality- so laid back! I hope you have a similar experience. 

    Now I know my acupuncturist thinks I'm nuts, because I have an almost 2.5 y/o that I just randomly got KUed with- and now things just aren't working. Like yours says "just be" he's giving me the side eye, non stop lol. He didn't even bother to treat me for IF today lol- I know he thinks I don't need it anyway, he just treated me for stress. Fine by me, I definitely need to relax anyway. I think he's convinced my only problem is my inability to relax. 

    It's weird because I was way more "consumed" when I was just charting and doing OPKs and things. Now that I'm doing serious meds and treatments, I feel so nonchalant? I'm not sure why. Maybe because I was doing SO much when we were just trying on our own. The charting, OPKs, CBEFM, checking CM/CP constantly- I did that for 2 straight years (many months before we even actively started trying) so I think I desperately needed a break and of course by break I mean 99 billion shots. ~X

    Also I just ate 800 oreos, and I feel like I'm gonna puke now.  Just throwin' that out there. 


    Spontaneous pregnancy #1
    DD1 July 31, 2011

    Trying for #2 since Oct 11
    732973 Clomid Cycles
    2 IUIs 
    3 Fresh IVFs= 1 Ectopic treated with MTX
    Spontaneous pregnancy #2= Ectopic #2= lost left tube
    Spontaneous pregnancy #3= DD2 January 29, 2016
    Spontaneous pregnancy #4= Ectopic #3
    Spontaneous pregnancy #5= Baby #3 is a BOY!!! 



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  • annibesannibes member
    Hopefully this new OB is the one!

    I'm for real going to a yoga/meditation class at my gym tomorrow. I don't think I'll do the acupuncture yet but I am totally trying to find that zen of which you speak.

    Then again, a zen me won't do shit for DHs morphology so maybe it will at least give me a new philosophy on TTC?
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  • Jen071407Jen071407 member
    FX he's the one! And yes, I'm waaaay too consumed by TTC and know I morph into a terrible, bitter, cranky excuse for a human when I'm at my worse. It's when I recognize it that I take a cycle off to try to refocus on other things in life that are as, if not more, important than ttc. ((Hugs)) lady, you're not alone!

    Two DDs 10/08 and 08/10, no primary IF
    TTC #3 since 10/2011 - dx unexplained/weak ovulation
     3 BFN clomid + TI cycles, 5 BFN clomid/gonal f IUIs, 1 mmc IUI
    2/19/2014 IVF #1 Unexpected low E2 (oversuppressed) -> increased to max doses = 3 or 4 follicles, converting to IUI
    BFFP Saw 1 beautiful heartbeat at 6w6d, follow up u/s at 9w showed mmc. Eff this.
    NTNP 5/2014-9/2014, OPKs and TI 10/2014 - 1/2015. 
    RPL testing all normal, AFC, AMH, and FSH all normal. 
    IVF 1.2 1/22/2014 natural cycle start, AFC 28, 300 gonal f/150menopur. 
    ER 2/3/15 14R 8M 3F w/ICSI Day 5 transfer on 2/8/15 of one "Grade A+" blast and have TWO frosties! 

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  • CeCe8579CeCe8579 member
    Hopefully this is the one. Shopping for a new OB is tough. We had to do that this year.
    Carly
    (Former UN: iloveshanej)

    Birdie born 05/01/2007
    Rainbow Surprise Baby due 05/26/2017                                          


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  • CheesyPeasCheesyPeas member

    I really hope this new OB is the one, and that the meeting with him goes really well!  I love my OB and couldn't imagine going through pregnancy, delivery, and now all of this garbage with a doc I didn't love. 

    And I'm totally with you on the obsessing thing.  This stuff is largely out of our hands, so research, opks, charting, etc. help give a sense of some control.

    November 2010 - 10.5 week loss  o:) 
    October 2011 - DS (7)  <3 
    July 2014 - Stillborn DD (24 weeks)  o:) 
    August 2015 - DD (3)  <3 
    April 2018 - 5 week loss o:) 

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  • freakyfastfreakyfast member
    I have to get a new ob too. So I know how that goes.  I did have a midwife with my son.  That was SOO long ago. If she was still in the biz, I would definitely go back to her.  Good luck! 



      


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