Crying all day, but getting closer to transfer

Momarazzi007 · November 2013

So 12 days until transfer and I'm a complete basket case. I am on 5ml lupron shot in morning and that is halved from last two weeks so not cranky arse witch from that anymore, but taking 3 estrogen pills and 2 vaginally morning and night and am going bonkers hormonal from that. I. Never. Cry. I have been crying all freaking day. I look like a crazy woman!!! Someone posted a picture of an orphan on Facebook who had drawn a picture of a woman on the ground And slept on it because she didn't have a Mommy so I was balling about that. Then I got cut off in traffic and was balling. Come on!!! I'm a freakin former Army girl raised by my dad And brothers. I'm acting like a pansy butt girl!!! Then my husband told me it was just the medicine- and I burst out crying. Then I got home after another jerky cut me off and cried for like ten minutes while my daughter slept in car seat. I got twelve more days of this!!!
Hmmm... I can make a carol of that... The twelve days before transfer!
On the first day before transfer my hormones pulled on me, turning me into a big baby!!!
On the second day before transfer my hormones have in store for me- hiding in my bed under the covers all day!!!
At minimum maybe my pain can brighten someone else's day. I don't remember being this crazy last FET, but I think I was on the estrace pills 3 morning and 3 night for a week and then They boosted me to two extra vaginally morning and night after that to helping lining a bit more. So 6mg not as dramatic as 10mg right off bat. What a doosey!!!
Good thing I work at a PreK now where kids hug me all day... Adults make me cry...
Anyway- bloodwork tomorrow morning (crap- there goes hiding under blanket all day:(. ) then two appointments next week and then the 23rd breakfast with Santa (bc that is integral to this FET cycle) and the day before Thanksgiving we have transfer!
Best part? Husband's Mom demanded we buy three boxes of k-cups instead of making our traditional casserole and breads that we do every year. But we already planned on not being there, we are calling in day before with "vomiting stomach bug" and Thanksgiving Day staying home and eating PIZZA! Screw you inlaws!!! Well, that wasn't nice... I'm thankful I don't have to see them. Hmm... Let me try again- I'm really not a bad person!!! I am thankful to get to enjoy my husband and daughter's company on a nonstressful Thanksgiving with just the three of us without cooking or cleaning. There I did it! I said something nice and from the heart. Not About them, but maybe that is ok? Ugh. Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry... Crap!!!!!

KC1212 · November 2013

Bless your heart

I have wondered where you've been! Prayers to you

I think your pizza thanksgiving plans sound low key and lovely! stay in your sweatpants and watch the parade or something!

we have to run all over town going to relatives' houses.

Right now - take care of YOU! Please keep us posted, hon.

pettycrocker · November 2013

I was JUST saying how crazy the Lupron affected me. I started on 10 units per day, and the mood swings were pretty wild. Now I'm on 5 units, and it's easier. You'll get through it, I'm on day 24 of the Lurpon, and I think I felt a lot better after the first 2wks.

Good luck

Momarazzi007 · November 2013

Mrs Castillo, how long do you have to be on lupron? I know that might be a hard question, I don't know how much longer I'm on it still, but I think I might have really kidney punched someone had I been on it any linger at 10 and that was only 12-13 days for me. What are you gearing up for?

pettycrocker · November 2013

Momarazzi007 said:

Mrs Castillo, how long do you have to be on lupron? I know that might be a hard question, I don't know how much longer I'm on it still, but I think I might have really kidney punched someone had I been on it any linger at 10 and that was only 12-13 days for me. What are you gearing up for?

I am on day 24, and I am going to be on until I trigger. I'm in a fresh cycle, hopefully I'll be triggering this weekend.

I'm also on Follistim, and Menapur, but those are nothing compared to the Lupron. The Lupron was definitely the worst for me, but like I said- they cut my dose down last Thurs, and it's been a lot easier now on 5 units instead of 10.

Momarazzi007 · November 2013

Ok! Fresh cycle! Yeah much crazier hormone wise! I am a little baby! I think like w birth it gets easier the further away it happened lol! My husband swears this happened to me last time too, but I clearly don't remember!!! ... All though... Now I remember the menapur... I hit my hand on counter with the syringe in my hand and did it just right it sprayed EVERYWHERE. I do remember having a world ending devastating cry that I blew the whole cycle.... So maaaaaaybeeee.... He is right.
I'll be praying for you while I am hiding under my blanket this weekend that it goes well and those eggs do some amazing things!!

pettycrocker · November 2013

Thanks girl! You'll be in my thoughts as well

annibes · November 2013

I'll think good thoughts for you until the transfer (and after!!). And I love your Thanksgiving plans. Genius!

Momarazzi007 · November 2013

So- got my estrogen level checked in my scheduled bloodwork today- they wanted over 100, I'm at 1,157! So yeah I'm a wreck lol. They asked me not to take it right before bloodwork and I told them my last dose before bloodwork was night before. She was surprised but they were still happy with numbers to not lower. Hope my crazies mean nice a nice cozy lining for baby to stick to! Next bloodwork Tuesday with sono!

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