My breakdown...(son mentioned)

GoMommy · November 2013

So I had friends here all weekend.. We drank alot of wine and they did a great job keeping me distracted and taking care of me. They left yesterday afternoon.. I thought I was ok.. I sent my husband to go hunting b/c he needed to get out. At some point it hit me.. like a giant wave. I couldn't breathe.. my chest hurt, ensue panic attack and sobs.. loud uncontrollable sobs.. My poor 2.5 year just looked at me, said "mommy so sad" hugged me and started crying (a silence cry) I had to call my neighbors to come get him and sobbed until about 10 that night.. (started at like 6)... Doing better today.. My brother is coming over to be with us..
Today would have been our first sonogram.. the lady that was supposed to babysit (whom I forgot to call an tell I didn't need) called me to confirm the plans-which I think it was set me off yesterday.

There is no point to this post..

alm288 · November 2013

*big hugs* very sorry for your loss and that you are having a rough time! Let yourself cry and grieve - it's completely natural. I was away with DH after my miscarriage and then worked and remember the first Friday night after being back to work, I can home and was alone. I just cried and cried - it was like built up grief that I had to let out. Hope you are feeling a bit better!

MrsG80inTN · November 2013

Sometimes the point to the post is to just let others hear/read and grieve with you. I'm sorry for your loss and your pain. You need to let yourself cry and grieve - it may seem pointless and hard, but it's a necessary step. I couldn't talk about it for a while, but it gets better.

peelester429 · November 2013

I am so sorry. I know the feeling of breaking down after holding it together. I'll feel like I'm making progress, and then it all just takes over again. Hugs to you.

masterofallcheese · November 2013

i had that happen to me a lot at the beginning. i would feel fine at work or being out during the day but as soon as i got home or alone i would break down. i promise it gets better but definitely cry when the urge hits.

FitMamaInProgress · November 2013

So sorry for your pain. It's one I wish we didn't know ;(

libby+nate · November 2013

So sorry. Sometimes it's healing to let it out. My thoughts are with you

Danielle0311 · November 2013

I am so sorry for your loss and your pain. I was doing really well too and had an irrational breakdown over my hair iron breaking.. I threw it into the wall and starting yelling and crying. Totally scared the crap out of DH but it kinda made me feel better to get that out. I hope you are feeling better now ((hugs))

srcr2011 · November 2013

I'm so sorry! My thoughts and prayers are with you!

peggels24 · November 2013

I'm so sorry for your loss and the pain that you are suffering. Hugs to you.

mara005 · November 2013

>:D<

MMason12 · November 2013

I'm so sorry for your loss and I can completely understand your feelings and "breakdown".

We found out about our loss weeks ago and I still find myself randomly crying some days. I no longer breakdown in uncontrollable sobs, but on days where we were scheduled to have ultrasounds, appointments, etc. I find myself crying in the morning or the evening for a minute or two.

It does get better the further out you go. I know that may not sound like much or realistic but it does. Hugs!!

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